2008 Lookback

As usual, as the year is coming to an end, it's time to ponder on what I have been doing for this past year. This year is definitely one of the most happening year for me I must say. A year of self actualizing. XD

The top 10 things which is most happening to me this year.... i hope 10 would be enough for me to write down everything, or else it would be 15 or more.. XD

11. Bpsych Badminton Tournament - got first runner up for this tournament. Lol.. i am not very good, but i was pretty blessed i would say. My first medal of the year. XD

10. St. Anne's Feast day - my family and I went to Penang to celebrate St. Anne's feast. It's my second time going there, but it's the first time i attend the feast itself. It was pretty good, big crowd, nice time and nice food. :)

9. Rakuzen - Me and my buddy buddy went to Rakuzen to makan. And ate quite a lot i guess.. the price is crazy la.. RM 6 per scope of ice-cream.. ice cream alone we would have eaten more than RM 100. good thing it's a buffet, but, the price is still quite expensive.

8. Learning how to dance - believe it or not.. i did learn how to dance.. and it's waltz. LOL.. it's pretty simple actually, and it's fun. :D

7. Trekathon - Ran at Bukit Gasing and it had been the most tiring experience i ever had, i guess. hahaha. at least i contributed 1 point to the department (i think).

6. 209 triage counselling - i got to know a lot more in detail about my friends. really, it's a great experience.

5. Working with a certain company - name is withheld for privacy sake. lol.. and although it's no. 5, but it's a bad experience. it's no 5 because it's an... experience which i don't think i will forget.. working with meng, and walking to pavilion and starhill gallery almost everyday.. funny.. and calling people.. not funny..

4. CXC camp - Went to Penang for Career Exploration Club camp. I was pretty enlightened by the camp. and also, strengthen some friendship bonds, as well as the opposite. but it's a good experience :)

3. Sports Carnival 08 - entered sports carnival this year. Finally, after 2 years of not being able to.. lol.. i of course represented my department in volleyball and got 2nd runner up.. shucks.. oh well, 2nd medal for the year

2. Research Colloquium - First ever colloquium for me... and the whole day, my anxiety level was quite high.. the whole week, my anxiety level was quite high.. but on that day, it really was constantly high.. but it pays off i guess.. :)

1. MAPCU - definitely definitely MAPCU. the excitement and adrenalin rush when we played and advance little by little to the finals is just unimaginable. this would always remain no. 1 for quite some time i suppose.. unless MAPCU 09 can beat it.. XD got 2 medals from here.. lol..

So in total, i got 4 medals from sports, and some other awards from my studies.. really really a year with considerable achievement, change, excitement and well... stress. XD

Happy New Year everyone

God Bless~

SFA Altar Servers Retreat 08 (3)

18th Dec 08

So this is the third and final day of the retreat.. thank God.. any longer and i might lose hair and have higher blood pressure.. hahahaha

woke up at 7.30 because breakfast is at 8.. didn't manage to sleep well also but did had a nice strange dream. :)

so get ready and as usual, people are late.. after breakfast, it's time to head to the beach.. before the beach, we went to visit the samanarian house.. Fr. Paul Cheong was there.. ^_^

from there, we went to beach and went there and just relax.. i saw a beach volleyball court there and got so excited.. although it was on the other end of the beach, i went there, but the net was so low that i need not jump to place my hand over the net.. lol.. and no one was playing.. if got i think i would join in.. hahaha

then after beach, went back to College General and then took bath.. then we have our mass and after that our lunch.. we left College General at around 2, although we were suppose to leave at 1.. people can be so good at procrastinating.. really.. they don't sense the urgency of time..

so left there, and Fr. brought us to Penang road to eat the famous cendol.. and the cendol was good.. because it taste good, and well.. it's free.. XD then went to the ferry terminal.. it was my first time boarding a ferry and the experience was great.. waited for the bus at mainland and then we were on our way home.. finally...

stopped at a rest house around 8 to eat our dinner and in the bus, Narnia: Prince of Caspian was played.. so managed to catch a movie.. after so many long days of being movie deprived.. reached church at about 10.15 (initial plan was to reach at 7, see my point of them being really good at procrastinating??)

now it's my stress free days.. AH... FINALLY...

God Bless~

SFA Altar Servers Retreat 08 (2)

17th Dec 08

So for the second day of retreat, woke up at 7 because mass will be at 7.30. didn't had a good sleep.. woke up get ready for mass, and as usual, need to wait for people to come.. there is no one time which everyone is on time. sigh.. time wasting.. i have to go call them everytime..

then mass starts, and then it's breakfast.. after breakfast, then there is a session about mass. so learnt some things there and after the session, we went to visit the College General ground. went to the museum and the chapel..

after that it's lunch, and after lunch, we went out to jalan jalan. first went to sleeping Buddha. i think it's the largest in South East Asia.. went there walk walk, then next destination is Kek Lok Si temple. funny as it may sound, we didn't actually went up the temple, just the place before the temple.. Reason?

cause they want to go back to play football... -.-; seriously.. how often they come to penang and go visit places? and they would prefer to go back and play football.. i was dissapointed really.. oh well, it's not that i haven't been to Kek Lok Si, not my loss.. so went back

and i rested cause i don't play football.. then took bath and then took dinner.. after dinner, it's another outing. Since yesterday didn't manage to go Batu Ferringgi, it's postponed to today.. went to Batu Ferringgi and walked until about 10.40. it's not easy bringing 35 kiddos ok.. good thing got brother there.. if not, i sure die already..

by the time went back, it's about 11.30. then ask the kiddos to sleep.. then went out makan.. makan makan until 1 something, father called.. saying the whole of level 2 no electicity.. my gosh, these kiddos are very capable of doing fabulously crazy things.. beats me how they managed to do just that..

so went back and the problem can't be solved.. so they will have to live with it.. good thing i staying in level 1, so got fan.. :p finally i slept at 2 a.m.

God Bless~

SFA Altar Servers Retreat 08 (1)

Ah... finally sems over..

Ah... stress free life finally...NOT

Semester is completed on 15th Dec.. so that evening after exam, went out with loo loo and gang to the curve.. need to talk for more than half an hour to decide where to go.. =.=;

so go there.. makan, and they love taking pictures.. let me rephrase that, the girls love taking pictures, the guys are... ok with taking pictures.. hahaha.. and my gosh, the food need to take so long to come, which i don't understand why..

Anyway, on the 16th, it is SFA Altar Servers Retreat 2008, which this post is dedicated to - a continuation of stressful days even after exams..

Retreat 08 Day 1

So woke up on 5.45 a.m. to get ready.. cause we are suppose to be in church at 6.30. so get ready and went to church. reached there on time and waited for the bus.. our destination?

College General in PENANG!!!

Bus came at 7.30. we placed our luggages in the bus, and went to church for a short prayer before departure.. so we departed from St. Francis of Assisi at 7.45. reach College General way after our schedule, almost 3 o clock. then had our lunch, rest and then play games..

majority played football, but i played volleyball la.. most of them who played volleyball were first time playing, so nothing much to say :p . then had our dinner and the plan was to go Batu Ferringgi. But it was raining. so the trip had to be canceled and what we did was say rosary and then lepak before sleeping..

Some of them talked, others played cards (me included), and others do nonsense thing which makes little sense.. like switching off the lights and the scare people with really loud irritating sounds.. sigh..

then went to bed at 11.40... that's about it for the first day

God Bless~

Cute dream

I just had my nap and i dreamt of something really cute..

i dreamt that ms winnee was having lunch with us and she was smiling at us.. hahaha.. okok that's a lie.. :p that wasn't my dream, that was someone else's dream.. lol..

i dreamt of 2 cute characters battling out with each other... if u ask me to describe the characters.. i would say it's pretty much like a ... cartoon/animation character... if u ever played hack G.U., then it's pretty much like the grunty.. hahaha.. cute cum small cum annoying.

it was so funny at the end that i woke up because of the funniness... no i didn't wake up laughing, but sorta kinda smiling pretty widely and really was like laughing, just that no sound came out la..

on another random note, ah bit is so cute today.. lol.. bumped into her in the public bus and we took the bus to lrt station.. so line up to buy for ticket and when it's her turn, she placed 4 50 cents coin on the counter... and she waited.. i was behind of her... and the counter guy didn't do anything..

that's because she forgotten to tell the counter person where she wants to go.. she just place the coins there.. oh how cute.. hahaha.. i need to tell her "klcc" then only she realized and told the person klcc. XD

God Bless~

Dreams

This morning i had weird dreams.. hahaha

i remember that i was in a supermarket... and was buying some stuffs with another person (can't remember who)... but the thing that the person bought, inside it contains drugs.. then when we reached at the pay counter, the cashier realized that the drug is inside.. and i think there is this chase and run happening..

then somehow i was outside the toilet and i met with suk pei.. lol.. funny i know.. then i saw ying zhou and i was wearing 2 ear rings, one on each ear. (note, i would never wear ear rings in my entire life)... i also saw paul.. hahaha.. then outside the shopping mall, is this large field and i saw people... lots of people trying to submission 2 bulls...

i know it sounds funny, but yeah.. so the people were like.. hitting the bulls, and try to tackle it down and eventually they did la.. so after that came the scene where people try to tame wild dogs.. like really wild dogs..

then don't really remember much, until i came to a house... and went into a room... and the room is my room actually... 2 girls were inside the room.. hahaha.. one is suk pei.. another 1 seems like her friend.. and the friend was actually sweeping the floor.. oh how sweet, my room is not very clean now.. maybe it's a repressed need that i want to make it clean.. lol

then in another room, there is shu ling and xinyu.. funny la how all people can appear in my dreams.. then i don't remember much anymore.. :)

God Bless~

Untitled

I think about a lot of things these few days.. maybe it's because i am pretty free now as compared to few weeks before this? hahahaha.. no more assignments, just waiting for exams and therefore, quite some time to day dream

always think about the past, mostly about the future and very little about the present cause the present is constantly becoming the past.... i have ambivalent feelings about feelings... when situation is ambiguous what do people do? do nothing :)

i am starting to like looking at clouds again and think of all the things that i can come up with using the same cloud.. like what i used to do when i was a kid.. i think it fosters creativity.. seriously, u should give it a try too.. :p

God Bless~

Someone Suprise

It only takes someone to suprise you in the most unexpected ways

Yesterday i went to eat KFC with Khoi Yit and John. So after i bought my X meal, i went to my place and line up to wash hands lo.. so before i wash my hands, i did the sign of the cross, to pray for meal la..

so after i finish washing, there's this Malay man who looked at me and said

Guy: KAU SEMBAHYANG EH? *smiling and nodding his head*
Mr T: YEA LA.. SEMBAHYANG.. *smiling and nodding head* Kita kenalah berterima kasih atas rahmat yang diberi oleh Tuhan
Guy: Oh bagus bagus... Jarang jumpa sekarang pemuda pemudi yang kuat imannya.
Mr. T: Kan bagus gitu? maksudnya saya seorang daripada yang jarang jarang ada. hahaha *took a seat at his table*

Well, actually that didn't happened. XD... what actually happened was just the letters in bold.. after i said that, i just went back to my place and chomp on my dinner.. lol.. did i caught u?

but that's not the point, the point is this stranger made my day. By that simple question of asking me whether i was praying, he demonstrated the acceptance of another faith. He acknowledge the distinction between his faith and mine and see common ground rather than dissimilarities. If Malaysia would have more of such people, how good will that be?

On a random note, i dreamt of Ying Zhou yesterday morning. and this dream is so creative. It's creative if i say so.. :p And he was playing 'a song from the secret garden'. How random can that be right? Maybe psychologist should run a correlation reseach on people's creativity in dream and creativity in reality. hahhahaha..

God Bless~

MAPCU

15th November 2008

This is the most happening day in my entire life.... Today is the day HELP participate in MAPCU for volleyball.. woke up at 5.20 morning to get ready to go to college...

So reach college on time and it was raining heavily.... out of all the people, 2 guys and a girl is not there yet... call and call and call and call and call and call and call and call and call.... but couldn't get them.. early morning already got stress... talk about becoming president man... so not fun

finally we left without the 3 of them... board the bus and we are on our way to Nottingham University in Semenyih.. reached at about 8.20 a.m. and register as soon as possible.. HELP sent 2 male teams and 2 female teams, and all 4 teams commence at the same time at 4 different court.. walao.. gila-fied...

for my team, there are only 6 players... no substitute... play until we die.. if injured, then oh well such is life lo.. first team we went against UCSI. If i remember correctly, we won the first match, then lost the second match, and won the third match... stress... should not have even played the third match.. but oh well we won ... so that's that lo..

second team we played against is against Taylors... we won by quite a big margin.. 2 sets in a row.. so nothing much to talk about.. third set play against IMU i think... again.. won first set, lost second set and won again third set... again very stress... but we won.. so we were the group champion.. playing against the 1st runner up of the second group...

so ate lunch, and then get ready for semi finals.. semi finals, we met APIIT. and won them 2 sets in a row.. our spiker was on fire in that match.. hahaha.. so come to finals.. then got bad news.. for the finals, we playing only 1 set, 31 points... normaly play 3 set, 25 points, but because the organizer sees that the weather is going to rain, they decide to only play 1 set... so play lo.. and we lost to Nilai UC by 31-29... sigh.. so for guys, only got 1st runner up..

but because we got only 6 guys, i got 2 medals.. XD.. once got the first medal.. line up again to get the second medal.. lol.. the girls got gold medal.. bravo.. haahahaha...

a day full of shouting... the day i shouted the most in my entire life.. shout like nobody's business... shout from court to court... from court 1 to court 2 to court 3 to court 4... become president also not easy.. now throat pain dy...

a day full of jumping... jump to block, jump to spike, jump in excitement...

a day full of stress... from morning in college, till in court playing... till going back and getting everyone together...

a day full of emotions... from stress in college, to frustration in court, to excitement when getting points, to nervousness in serving, to being ambivalent about the end result..

I am so tired..

God Bless~

Dawns a new era

U must have serious issues with your surroundings, or u must be dead not to notice this news:

BARACK OBAMA WON IN THE US PRESIDENCY RACE

In case you don't know this, oh well, nevermind, u can still live your life. There are more important things in life :)

Anyway, back to Obama... I personally am glad that he won.. a lot of people around the globe is sharing my sentiments... people from Kenya, Africa, Indonesia, iraq, Iran, and even Malaysia.. This man proves that one's colour is not a factor in choosing a leader.

When i was walking towards my meeting yesterday, i was walking up the stairs in my uni and there were people there staring at the wall.. i was wondering why.. even Mr. Chan (co-founder of my Uni) was there looking.. i went up the stairs and there they were, watching CNN special, reporting that Obama has won... all the people in the report were shouting like crazy, almost euphoric..

what makes this man so special? he promises hope, change, and in him, everyone places their hope for a better tomorrow. U can't deny it, US is very influencial in almost every aspect. With the rise of the first Black President, I am eager to see what changes will he bring to the world...

today the Prime Minister said that it is possible for even the ethnic minority in Malaysia to be Prime Minister. Really?? hahaha.. i am a bit sceptical about that idea, but i love it. Indeed, y can't we have a Chinese, Indian or even a indegenous people as Prime Minister? If they have the capability to lead, why shouldn't they be given a chance? I would love for that day to arrive, although i hope that it wouldn't take too long.. US took 200 years (i think) for a first non White to be the president... how long will we take?

something for you to ponder about...

God Bless~

Birthday Celebration

For my this year's birthday celebration, my gang brought me to Marche's (hopefully i didn't spelt it wrongly) at .... Cineleisure is it? and upon arriving, Mr. Lam said.. "who argued with me that Marche's got only 1 cow? See.. 1, 2, 3, 4... 4 cows" ah i see.. oh so there are 4 cows at Marche's.. revelation

oh before that.. we celebrated on the .... let's see.. 3rd of Nov... so it's a belatedE1 celebration... but oh well, such is life la.. too busy with assignments.. the best birthday present that they can give me is time to complete assignments.. hahahaha

ok so back to Marche's... it's my first time there.. and the environment was ok la.. but a bit warm though.. the taste of the food was fine, just fine, but for that kind of food the price was SERIOUSLY throat cutting.. i couldn't give an explanation why they price their food so expensive except that their concept was special.. hmm..

so let's review what i ate there... 2 small bites of Rosti (rosti is... toasted potatoes), 1 bite of bread something pudding, some black pepper chicken rice, 1 piece of pizza, 1 small piece of chicken breast, 1 chicken drumstick, a lil mash potatoes, ice kacang, and 2 piece of cake. yea that's about it i guess..

company as usual, kamching kamching lo..

that's that...

on the 6th of Nov, someone suprised me with a cake and a gift.. really a suprise, didn't anticipate one little bit.. hahaha.. came in with a... very cute red finger and wished me happy belated birthday and presented me with a cake... oh so touched..

Thank you for everyone who made the effort ya.. one way or another..

God Bless~

Facts of Life

Today I went into an experiment and they gave the participants a slideshow which says "Facts of Life". Of course, whether or not those are true i am not sure.. but i will list down those that i remembered la.. so amusing

1) The only book that is printed more than the Bible is IKEA catalogue
2) Polar bears are left handed
3) Butterflies taste with their feet
4) The most known word around the globe is okay. Coca cola is the second most known word.
5) Coca cola is originally green
6) Peanuts are the basic material in dynamite
7) More people die because of teddy bears (choking) rather than being killed by grizzly bears.
8) Hummingbirds weigh less than a penny
9) The book 'Guiness World of Record' was the reported as the most stolen book
10) Dolphins sleep with one of their eyes closed.
11) We spend 3 weeks of our life waiting for the light to turn green
12) We spend 24 years of our life sleeping

There are a lot more.. which i can't remember.. but's it's really amusing u know.. hahaha..

Makan assignment, tidur assignment, minum assignment, mimpi assignment. WOO HOO!! I am self actualizing towards being lifeless. :D

God Bless~

Why do men stray?

Oh today i read the newspaper and there is this article which talks about men straying, their signs of infidelity and why do they stray.. i would just concentrate on why men stray..

There have been many reasons on why men stray.... and more often that not, the fault is placed on the women, for example, does not treat him well enough, cannot bear kids, etc. etc. such poor women, always getting blame when sometimes (or most of the times) it is not their fault..

But now, it seems that scientists have found another reason why men stray... and this reason is backed by scientific evidence, based on biology.. SOOOO COOOOOOLLLL!!!

According to a recent report, a new discovery has linked a man’s philandering to a gene in his DNA. Conducted by Swedish researchers, the study looked at 550 twins and their partners who had been together for five or more years. The men who carried one or two copies of a gene variant called “allele 334” were twice as likely to have had problems with their wives or in making commitments in relationships in the past year than those who do not have it." (Kam, 2008 p.1)

Now, is this finding cool or is this finding cool? But i guess it needs to be elaborated a little bit more. Men with allele 334 are only more PRONE to straying, and it does not mean those with it will DEFINITELY stray... comes back to nature nurture. and men who have allele 334 stray not because they are more lusty, but rather they could not feel a strong bond between him and the partner.

The incidence of allele 334 was statistically linked to how strong a bond a man felt he had with his partner,” lead researcher Hasse Walum said. (Walum, cited in Kam, 2008)

Hmm.. interesting findings no? hahahaha.. i can sense that all the females are cringing looking at this post.. but oh well, it's just a finding.. i still believe that nurture plays a big role... but if u want to be on the safe side and really belief in this, take your men to do DNA test. XD

In the end, with or without this finding, men (and women) would stray simply because they can

God Bless

Reference

Kam, P. (2008). Blame it on the Gene. The Star Online. Taken from http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2008/10/13/lifefocus/2064462&sec=lifefocus

T cube

T cube = Terence, Trekathon, Tired

11 Oct 08

So i went for trekathon today... have been wanting to join 1 for quite some time, but then always didn't manage to.. this year, got chance, but a bit reluctant to go.. however, i still ended up going for it..

woke up at 6 to get ready, and my friend's friend fetch me to college... reach college at about 7.05. i called ying zhou, and when he finally picked up his phone, he haven't woke up yet... my call woke him up.. his reaction quite funny "i rush there now" sounding so gan cheong..

haven't had my breakfast, so went to McD to buy breakfast.. makan breakfast, chat chat, wait for bus... and finally board on the bus and we are on our way to Bukit Gasing, where we will be running to the top of the hill.

register, got ready, do some warm ups and we were being flagged off... girls and guys are seperated because accordingly "when guys run, they don't care.. it's for the safety of the girls" :) so we ran first, and all the guys rush to the trail... i was kinda in front at the start, but not really front also la.. ran uphill, downhill, cross bridge, went uphill again, doooooooooooooooown hill, come to a stream.. tried to not get my shoes wet, but failed... shoes are completely wet... went up stream, and then go all the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy up.... yes.. the way up at the end is sickening.. SICKENING!!!

forced myself up there on will power, seriously so tempted to sit and rest, but just keep on going... leg already tired from friday's training, now running uphill somemore.. sei mo.. after going uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupppppppppppppppppp finally reach the end.. got my number.. i came in 13th place... ok la.. at least in top 20.. top 20 got contribute marks to department.. so at least i got contribution right? hahaha

reach already, feel like vomiting, pissing and just feel that i need to rest.. but when sit down, very uneasy.. after a while, 20 minutes maybe.. the uneasiness went off... just beside the exit trail is Mr. Chan's house.. dang big lo.. the brunch is served there, and then it's prize giving..

the points for each department is read out... until the last 2 departments which is econs and bpsych... they all started chanting "econs, econs"... we all started chanting "bpsych, bpsych, bpsych" louder than them... lol.... then it is announced... "econs, 30 points" *clap clap* "bpsych....." then someone from bpsych shouted "31 points" ahahaha..

"bpsych.... 33 points" WOOO HOOO!!! we are the overall champion.. muahahaha... *clap clap*... take photo together gether.. then they got give prize to department with most participants.. econs won 1st placing for that with.. 67 participants if i not mistaken.. and bpsych comes second, with 61 participants i think..

then balik rumah... and yeah.. T cube

God Bless~

History

Today i had history. I learned history and i talked about history.

You must be thinking that it's that boring history subject, where we learn about our country... and those boring stuffs, but no.. that's not what i meant..

today, someone who rarely speaks to me face to face actually talked to me so much. at first, she was kinda silent, only talking when i ask her questions. suddenly, she started to pour out things... things that i never imagined that she would tell me.. she talked and talked and talked...

i listened, and listened and listened... she talked non stoped for about... 45 minutes? hahaha... but it was fun listening to her. since i got to know her until now, and compare it with today's 45 minutes, i would say that in today's 45 minutes i learnt so much more about her.

so that's that... then we proceed to do our thing, and it was my time to talk about my history.. officially.. :)

so i talked, and she asked questions... i poured out more and... i really talked a lot of my history. more of problems i guess... my self handicapping views.. and she's good at probing.. :)

well at least someone knows about my history...

God Bless~

She

This morning when i was sleeping, i got a dream

I dreamt that i was outside of my secondary school, and i was sitting in her car. the car was parked there, and i saw Lesley outside, sitting at the 'makan' store. As she started to drive, i remember hearing Jason Marz 'I'm Yours' on the radio. (strange how all these can be so vivid, but yes, i remember clearly)

As she was driving me back, we almost had an accident. She was crying and her driving was unstable. however we were safe. i got back home and the next thing i remember was that she was on the bed with me.. (fully clothed owhkie)

As she was crying, her head was lying on my chest. And i was half asleep. She would use her hand to massage my stomach and it felt good. Just like how mums would massage their babies stomach, it felt like that. she then used her feet and clasp my feet. my cold feet was made warm by hers. and again, it felt good

at that point of time, it seems as if the whole world is non existence, just me and her. talk about intensification of emotions in dreams man..

dramatic? poetic? i don't know.. but i can be sure that my dream this morning is full of emotions... who is she? she is she... :)

God Bless~

Death

Today I went to a funeral prayer. My friend's dad passed away and today marks his fouth day leaving earth. During prayer, all of us reflected upon our ownself

When will i die? How and why?

Will i die peacefully, having known i have lived a full life?

Will i die in anger and sorrow?

Will i be unforgiving and dissatisfied with the world?

Today i went to watch a show with my family. Money no enough 2. and it's a very good show. I love these kind of show where it teaches us to value everything around us and not take things for granted. Stongly recommended.. go watch it

Besides that, something inside me had died as well. or should i say, must die? hahahaha.. but at least it's resolved

God Bless~

Orange Juice and Plain Water

This morning i dreamt of a dream where me and my sis was in it. It goes something like this..

My sis was serving orange juice, and me, plain water. So she accidentally poured some onto me, and because of that, i splashed her with my plain water.. splash a bit only la.. haha

then she accidentally poured some more orange juice on me... and i splash her more

and it happens the third time, and i splashed her even more.. then she was mad and came after me with a jug or orange juice, wanting to pour everything over me

i, of course, ran for my life.. XD then she was unable to catch up with me and started sulking and kinda like want to cry... then i ask myself, "did i do the right thing?" a lil bit guilty in the dream and then i woke up..

and i started thinking... aren't we humans like that? you treat me this bad, i treat u this bad in return, or even worse sometimes. maybe it's time we think back if the other person were to get really furious, would we regret our option of treating that person like that?

"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you"

Very hard to do, but i guess if we don't want regrets, we better treat people with love

God Bless~

Sushi King

So.. yesterday was my first time going to sushi king.. i know i know.. u guys must be thinking that i am such a sad person right?





what? it's expensive ok.. and i don't eat sushi... until yesterday that is.. i can't eat raw food or else i will have tummy upset....

so which sushi king i went to? the 1 in Genting.. ho ho ho.. we went up there yesterday. and yes... it's expensive.. i was so... in awe cum puzzled cum absorbing things in... one plate of sushi can cost up to RM 7 or RM 8, with the cheapest at.. RM 4 if not mistaken..

walao.. for that 2 tiny piece 4 bucks? the price and portion is like.. chinese dim sum, but more expensive.. i can go eat a big wantan mee and get myself satisfied man.. oh well, maybe i am comparing oranges to apples right? we shall leave it at that

so what i ate? a set meal.. i forgotten what the name is but it's a fried dory fish with black pepper sauce and vege, with rice, miso soup, yakult and a... forgive my wrong language if it's wrong... 'cawan mushi'. and this set is about 16 bucks... expensive

but i am really full after the meal.. reason being i took rice from 2 friends.. and curi makan some of their sushi, like really small piece, just for experimential sake.

would i go back there? yes, under this condition:

Someone belanja me makan there, and i can simply order or take whatever i want :D
But i should say it's a good experience...

God Bless~

Am i a Nil-lian?

Yesterday I went to watch Meet Dave. And it's a good show.. the beginning especially caught my attention and interest.. it questions about us.. humans.. why do we do what we do... and trying to understand our baffling behavior...

So what is this story about? it's about little tiny aliens who have come to earth in order to save their planet, Nil. they are sorta like... tiny humans, with very little feelings, and of course, very advance technology (which alien doesn't right? XD)

In their quest to save their planet, they discover that they too have very strong feelings, which they have always suppressed. they are becoming more of a human, rather than a Nil-lian.

It's humorous, heart warming and nice story. or at least to me. :) recommended to watch with couple i guess.. lol.. i didn't know the show would be suitable for couples after finish watching it.. XD

i am satisfied like this for now

God Bless~

Sigh...

Today i brought HELP people to play volleyball with my friends. after watching the wushu competition, i need to drive around fetching people and waiting for people to come. hassle.. but after all the hassle, they are there.. and there are 7 of us.. pretty good start i thought.. but i was wrong.. really wrong..

we lost very badly.. and i would attribute that most to the level of cohesiveness we have in our team.. we have bad formation.. we have no directions, our first ball is really bad.. and with that no spiking.. everyone is getting lost, we don't switch our positions, everyone is in everyone's position and we are like loose sand la basically.. don't understand? nevermind.. bottom line is we played badly in the first set.

so after that, we talked a little on how we can improve... on our formation.. and the second set we did a little bit better.. but still i think it's very very bad.. formation wise.. it's come to a point where it's nonsensical.. seriously that's what i think..

oh nevermind..... at least we now know where we are lacking.. shall be practising hard hopefully for another few days..

God Bless~

Wushu Competition

So... i went for a wushu competition yesterday and today. I was selected as KL representative and it's a Milo Junior Wushu Championship.. so cool right? people from all around malaysia, including sarawak can be found there.. and there are super cute little kiddos, both male and female competing.. lol..

ok that's a fake.. which 1 is? the part where i am KL representative.. oh come on.. did u really belief that i would be representing KL? for the worst wushu player? lol.. byt the others are for real.. i went there as a spectator.. cause one of my friends there mer.. ask me to go so i ma go lo.. and boy is it cool.. really cool.. literally, cause the whole stadium is on full blast of air cond.. actually shivering yesterday.. today i smart a bit, wear 2 pants.. XD

it's also really cool to see all those people from all over malaysia competing.. it's my first time to a wushu competition, but it's a wonderful experience.. let me share some of the more funny stories in the competition..

there is this 1 girl, who is about.. 4 or 5 years old only? and her performance is SOOOOOO cute.. although she didn't perform very well, but she got the round of applause from the whole audience.. hahaha.. nice 1..

there is another girl who entered the court even before it started.. and then she starts to play out her moves.. then there is her senior calling her 'en yang, en yang... " (her name) and then asking her to go out with her hand gestures.. but she ignored her.. and continued playing her moves.. LOL.. then the referees who are seated there have to waved at her and shush her out.. but still she continued, until she finally realizes that the referees are shush-ing her away.. LOL.. funny girl.. but she's so young.. nevermind la.. hahahaha

there's another guy, who went into the court without removing his jacket. lol.. when he entered already and was about to start, only he realized it, then he went back out and took it off.. when he was about to enter the court again.. the comentator said court A rest 5 minutes.. XD.. he was like.. jadou.. hehehe

all in all it's a good experience la.. it's free.. not too bad ler.. hehe.. would i go again for a wushu competition? yeap.. if only my friend is there.. lol.. if go alone like this time, a bit bored..

God Bless~

Holidays and Post Work Stress

Ah!!! Work is finally over.. I shall post up another post about the 2nd last day of work (soon enough hopefully), so look out for that... hehe..

So.. work finish already.. finally my holiday starts, but then still got post work stress. sigh.. the last day of work, i suddenly got to know the news that there is a volleyball competition in UniKL on 23rd August. And i am supposed to send out a male and female team to compete there..

so it's just about 10 days to get everything prepared. AH!!!! stress-nya.. calling people here and there to find whether they can compete or not.. sms sms sms.. call call call... after finishing my job as telemarketer also still need to call call call.. hahahahaha

worry about not enough people.. worry about how to train as much as we can with the time left.. i also quite busy ok.. my schedule before knowing the news already packed, with some time to relax and not worry... but with the competition news, my schedule is now packed with no time to relax... sigh..

Hopefully everything goes well ler.. oh.. there's a guy by the name of Bob from the ADP. And he joined us for volleyball today.. he's a ... caucasion and boy is he open.. he PDOO (public display of oneself) himself.. he just took off his pants in the middle of the volleyball court and can see his underwear while he changes his pants.. lol.. funny guy..

holiday also got stress.. how like that? can do nothing, just pray for the best la..

God Bless~

Huh..

This is going to be my first blog at work.. also the last.. cause today's going to be my last day at work.. hooray.. y am i not feeling the happiness yet?

oh 6 p.m. arrive faster.. :)

God Bless~

Funny day at job

If there is a day which is most funny at office, it would be yesterday. My mood was already quite elated cause job is going to finish soon.... woo hoo!!!

so yesterday.. it was Friday. and almost all of the staffs wore casual.. one of the Malay lady wore dark bright pink and everyone was telling her that she was SEXY.. hahaha.. but me and Meng have to disagree la huh.. even the cleaner ah sum said she was SEXY.. me and Meng can only stare at each other in amazement or maybe i should say.. disbelief.. or maybe.. speechless.. hahaha

the most funny part is not that.. yesterday, a guy was fired from the company, I THINK.. he came in the office, then he was no longer to be seen. i am not really sure whether he got fired, but for certain, he is no longer working there.. so there were 3 ladies talking about it la.. and they were seated just beside meng... so when they speak, we could actually listen..

i am not really sure what they talked about until meng told me that they were talking about that guy.. so i eavesdrop a bit.. ROFL.. then one of the lady said..

"maybe he sodomized someone" wert?? i just started to try and hear what they are saying and this is the first sentence i hear..?? XD XD XD.. ROFL.. i couldn't stop laughing... i tried concealing my laugh, and laugh quietly, but it makes it even more funnier..

then a second lady continued where the first one left "ooo.. you want the details??" XD XD.. then the third lady chirped in "you want the video??" hahaha.. i was like.. wanted to laugh out loud.. but couldn't.. then the second lady starts saying this..

"ooo baby.. give it to me baby..." using a very .... horny? or seductive voice?? depending how u look at it la.. but yesterday, all of them were kinda kinky i guess.. lol.. XD XD XD

then in the evening, the cleaner came in to clean, and they start to update the cleaner on the guy la.. talking talking.. then suddenly a guy in the office walked pass her and smack her butt i think.. smacked the ah sum's butt.. and then the ah sum said.. "eh u don't ham sap ar.. " i could only stare in AMAZEMENT!!! i mean.. she's an aunty.. and butt smacking? lol.. whatever man..

oh.. another very lame joke, which i don't even know whether it's a joke or not.. one of the lady said.. "my singaporean friend said their national day/independance day is not the same as Malaysia.. it's on the 31st August"

i was like... is that suppose to be a joke? anyway.. office was funny yesterday.. hahaha..

God Bless~

Work

If there is one word to describe my work currently, it would be this

DEPRESSING!!!!!

I am currently working as a telemarketer.. and work is no fun, sitting in office all day calling people. Especially when people don't 1 to come for the event that you are promoting.

If there is a day when i am most appreciated and most embarrassed at work, it would be today. People actually say thanks when u call and remind them or invite them.. that was not that bad.. the embarassing thing would be....

i called this lady today.. and she was in a meeting with my boss. i didn't know that.. so i told her i would call her back later.. so i did call her back and she is still in the meeting. so she asked for my name and i told her.. then she asked my boss whether there is someone by this name in the office.. the boss replied no.. she told me back

"Lynux (my boss) says that there is no one by the name of Terence in IDC"

i was dumbfounded at that moment... thinking what to reply to her.. i was startled because she was meeting with my boss. Embarassed.. hmm.. oh nevermind.. work is going to finish soon. HOORAY!!

the good thing about working there is that it is in KL. so i get to go to all the exhibition that is being held at KL Convention Centre.. I have been to 3 exhibition so far. International Jewellery Exhibition, PC Fair and today's 1 was... some house decoration exhibition..

and i get to walk around these high class places.

STARHILL GALLERY IS FABULOUSLY AWESOME!!!!!

Pavilion is not that bad.. lol.. all surrounding is fine except the job la.. ish..

no hope means no dissapointment.. should i stop hoping?

God Bless~

The thing that I love most

If there is one thing that i love most in this world, i think it would be the smiles on babies and children. Their big eyes, innocent face, pure heart and genuine smile never fail to make me cheer up no matter how bad my day is.

Just today, when i was coming back by bus, after 3 quarter of the journey, a family came abroad. and there is this little cute guy who sat next to me. I waved to him but he didn't reciprocate.. however, he kept on smiling at me.. haha.. how sweet

then when he went down, he waved at me.. WHEE~~ depression was lifted for a minute there..

God Bless~

Where do babies come from?

I am sure when you were young, you wondered where u came from. or where babies came from. Ultimately, you would ask your parents "where do i come from?" or "where do babies come from?" it's hilarious what they tell us... or what we believe then, when we were young. Whatever version they made us believe, it's never the truth.. hahaha.. until u eventually find out when u are a little older.. so what are some of the beliefs that we have of babies when we were young? I asked some of my friends and this are their answers

Where do babies come from? i shall start with my answer first because i thought that my answer would be the most common one, but apparently not so lor.. i also don't know y..

Mr. T: Babies come out from the stomach. I really believed that ok.. until when i was.. don't know how old.. haaha

Person A: I thought that babies come out from asshole. hahaha..

Person B: I once asked my parents where i came from. They answered me 'tong sampah' (rubbish bin) XD XD. They told me that one day they just saw me at this rubbish bin and decided to brought me home.. hahaha

Person C: this would be the best answer. Person C thought that babies are brought from supermarkets and are placed inside plastic bags. Reason? Because there was once the uncle came back from supermarket and was carrying a few plastic bags, and Person C asked what is that. The uncle replied "baby" =.=!!!

Funny stories how all our parents can lie to us or what hilarious story we can be made to believe. Anyhow, what should i answer to my children next time if they asked me where they come from? Should i say i downloaded them from the internet? or bought them from e-bay or Amazon? XD XD.. ROFL

what is your story?

God Bless~

Long Lost Friends

Yesterday i wanted to blog about this friend of mine whom i 'terserempak' (bumped into) but when i came home from work, forgotten about it already.. so i shall blog today. :D

So yesterday morning when i was on my way to work, i went up a bus and i walked behind to sit. so walk to the behind, someone called out to me "Terence". i turned and saw an Indian girl, and yes.. she was calling me.. for a moment there.. i am trying my VERY BEST to recall who this female is..

and it came naturally to me.. *thank God.. or else i would be so embarrased* "Magesh" i replied.. yes.. her name is Mageshini and she was in the same secondary school as i was. She didn't really changed much, just that.... her image is like way way behind my brain.. XD

so i sat beside her and we started to update each other about our lives, and about our friends life. She talked about her current job and how she is going to join HELP soon.. she's gonna take foundation.. i talked to her about my job now and about HELP's life.. i updated her on the things i know about friends around us..

and all throughout the journey, we did not stopped talking.. it's like.. we got so much to talked about and the years that we had not seen each other (2 and a half years i think) did not create any gap. it's really a good feeling meeting someone and having chats as if we had never been apart.. :)

Besides that, today when i came back and checked my mail.. i got a new message on my friendster which i don't know the person. So i checked the message and got to know that it's from Lim Kuan Lun.. whoah.. this person is even longer.. let's see.. about... 8 years?? ahahahaha..

he's doing nursing now in Nilai and yes.. he managed to find me... :p the power of technology?? ahahaha.. whatever it might be.. it is always good to be connected once again.

Yay.. going to Penang tomorrow.. gyahaha

God Bless~

Handbags

o.O... what's a guy going to blog about handbags? hahaha

Now today i read an article in the star by Dzof Azmi where he talks about handbags and snatch thief. So he started by a question asked by his friends "How ah can we prevent snatch thief?" And that, i think is an interesting question, but of course, the more interesting part is the answer.

He came up with a few answers. The first being increasing the number of policeman on patrol. These law enforcing figure would instill fear on the thieves and thus, less incidents would happen. But i think we have a lack of law enforcers right? and these policemen have better things to do (like controlling street protest and capturing *cough cough* Anwar). so well, this idea does not really fit in.

So, comes the second idea, which is to have handbags that are easily ripped off once there is a struggle. The idea of this is that the person's safety is of utmost important and the handbag? well it goes to the thief la, as long as the person is safe, that's the end of the story. But then, this idea does not curb or lessen snatch thief does it? on the contrary, it might increase the number of snatch thief cause handbags are so easy to be snatched..

then comes the third solution which he (and i) thinks that it's the BEST. DON'T CARRY A HANDBAG. Simple right? if u don't carry a handbag, then there will be no handbags to be snatched. If really, all Malaysian were to practice this, I would be quite confident that the incident of snatch thief will be reduce to nil. But if females don't carry handbags, the question comes then, where do they put their purse(s). Well they can use smaller ones and keep it in their pocket, like how men do. :D

Now we come to the multi million question.. Jeng Jeng Jeng.. then where do they put their lipstick, mascara, eyeliners, moisturiser, blackhead removing sandpaper etc. etc.?? and to this question, Azmi replied that "Listen, if Man figured out a way to compress all of the world's knowledge into a chip made of sand measuring a mere one micron thick, then making a smaller powder applicator can't be beyong his reach"

And yes, i think it's a very rational argument. but then comes the ultimate defence by women. "but pocket don't look nice. nobody wants to wear a skirt or a low-cut pair of jeans if there were things in pockets around the waist area. It'll make me look fat" AH.. now that's the real problem.. women want to look nice and pretty and because of that, incidents of snatch thief increases.

Azmi continued "We need to admit this one point, that handbags are a vanity item for women. It's not strictly necessary for them to carry one around and, if they think they are at risk from thieves, then they should not carry them"

Of course, i think it would help to try and understand y do females want to look pretty right? it might be partly due to the societal pressure to look nice, or maybe it's just inborn (which i kinda doubt) or maybe they want to look nice to attract guys. And guys, you have to admit that you do want ladies to look nice.

So how? the solution came up by Azmi is that "ladies should forget the idea of being independant and accept that your vanity is a sign you are a lady. get a nice polite gentleman who is willing to escort you as you make your way about town on foot. And make sure he's fit enough for the job."

God Bless~

Azmi, D. (2008, July 20). The Answer's in the Bag. The Star, Star Mag, p. 3

Dumb Bus Driver

Today was my first day of work.. don't 1 to stress about work here.. want to stress about the dumb bus driver.. :p

So it was after work and i took a bus home.. so went out of KLCC and then the bus just arrived.. yay!! so went up the bus and then ..... quite a horrible ride la.. the bus driver is really SOMETHING!!

He drive as if the road is his grandfather's 1. Literally!! he honk people out of the way like crazy.. and people honk him back like nuts.. then he squeeze his bus like shit.. bus drivers are known to be good squeezers and i am fine with it.. but this time, he is really overdoing it owhkie.. he went to the most left lane, and it is so close to the sidewalk that i can feel the bus leaning on one side
(FIY, roads are normally built a little bit tilt to one side so that when it rains, the water can slide down the drain).. that's how close the bus is.. at one moment, the bus even collided with the sidewalk .. =.=!!

oh oh.. i got to say this.. the bus does not stop even when the traffic light turns red.. crazy bus driver.. the traffic light is already yellow when the bus is still some distance away.. and he selamba only press the accelerator even when it's already red.. it's a cross road and a motor already came out of his lane (the other lane is on green light) and the bus DID NOT STOPPED!! the motor had to dodge the bus.. u say la.. scary or not?

the bus driver is a young Malay boy. sigh.. apa dah jadi dengan dunia ini? :p

just wanted to say some stuffs about that driver..

oh i think i have fallen quite deep this time *sigh*

God Bless~

Trouble sleeping

These few days i have trouble sleeping.. it have been quite a while since i have this problem, but it's getting worse now.. insomnia.. lol

don't know why y body seems like it doesn't want to sleep at night.. but when the sun is shining bright and high, it feels sleepy.. strange body of mine.. maybe my body works upsidedown.. because maybe my melatonin only goes low when the sun is up, which is not supposed to be.. :D

it's strange how my dad once told me how easy i can sleep.. yeah.. last time, whenever i put my head on the pillow, i kinda get knock out.. no matter how strong the rain or thunder outside, i won't be disturbed by it and sleep until the next morning

nowadays, it's the opposite, my dad sleeps, and i am still quite awake.. try to get some sleep, but a lot of thought flood my mind.. hopefully can sleep well like last time..

God Bless~

Abnormal Psych

These few days i have been reading quite a lot of abnormal psych.. due to exams mer... what to do.. ho ho.. After reading a whole lot, i came to realize something.. this realization might or might not be true.. it's just my opinion

Most, if not all, of so called 'abnormalities' or disorders are due to ENVIRONMENT. Let me elaborate a little bit y do i say so.. The life we are living now is very stressful if compared to older times.. these increase in stress is EXTREMELY important to trigger any genetic predisposition we have..

and because of this stressful environment, we strive for a better living, which more often than not, means looking for more money.. this leads to later marriages... i know this is a slippery slope argument, but looking at the age that people nowadays get married at and compare it to last time.. it's a BIG difference.. people last time, get married at about 20-ish.. nowadays, there are people who get married at what? 40? 60?

*side note* i don't know y some people like to marry so many wives and they have so many children like ... 18 children.. recent case of a guy who wants to marry a fouth wive, and the 3 other wives actually would pay for him.. don't they know how this would affect the children? lack of affection, siblings who are old enough to be their parents.. well.. maybe they really don't know..

if want to get married, marry early la.. marrying at a later age makes your child more vulnerable for abnormalities la.. like Down syndrome and others. i know... u might want to provide a better environment for your kids with a better financial stability, but what use is financial stability if your child is not healthy? but it's not the parent's fault.. it all goes back to the environment we live in.. without a good sum of money, it's kinda hard to raise kids.. so.. ENVIRONMENT again..

so what to do? seriously speaking? i also don't know.. i think what would be best is to live in moderation, which means need not so much money and don't marry too late.

God Bless~

Food dreams

These few days i have been sleeping a lot.. besides studying, watching tv, i am basically sleeping.. and i dream a lot..

it is interesting to note that i have a consistent dream about food. i always dream about eating nowadays.. i wonder why..

what is the latent content for food i wonder.. hmm.. is my unconsious trying to tell me something? gyahahaha..

God Bless~

Love and Falling in Love

Hah.. love and falling in love.. what's the difference? I got the difference from one of my friend's blog, and she got it from one of the lecture classes.. well at least someone's listening to lectures.. XD XD

so what's the difference? falling in love is the feeling. the feeling at one point of time

love on the other hand is a CHOICE.

to illustrate, let's take God as an example..

God LOVES us, He did not fell in love with us.. you see the difference? He choose to love us in spite of our lackings.. it's not He fell in love with us for that moment in time only.

So when u have feelings towards someone, ask yourself this question... do you fall in love with that person? or do you love that person?

of course, u need to at least have some feelings for that person before making a choice to love that person right? and for that, i do not disagree that we might need to fall in love first, but to sustain or to start a relationship, i think it is very important to ask ourselves whether we would make the choice to love that person, and not just falling for that person..

God Bless~

Oxymoron-ness

There are many shows nowadays which shows the paradoxical events in life. I am currently watching 2 of them, 1 of them i only catched it just now...

Pushing Daisies
Yes.. the name sounds girly but the story is kinda nice. This guy name Ned have the ability to make people come back from the dead for 1 minute by touching them. If the person is not touched again within that one minute, the person will continue living, but other person nearby would die. So what does he do with his ability? he wakes up the dead, ask who kills them, catch the bad guy and take the money. :D

It's paradoxical in a sense that it makes death less scary and inject a sense of humour in it. And also, Ned brought back his first love to life and now he cannot touch her or else she's going to die.. forever.. so they kiss using... hmm.. let's seee.. see through plastic wrapping paper.. yeah.. that's it.. they kiss with wrapping paper as their barrier. :D

A living man, with, a supposedly dead but living girl..

Reaper
Now i just catched this show just now... and IT'S AWESOME.. meng, dump your Grey's Anatomy and watch this.. XD.. seriously, the storyline is so cool.. So.. the main actor.. forgot his name.. his soul, is sold to the devil, by his parents. They initially do that to save the dad la.. so the condition is that the dad gets well, but when the child is 21 years old, he has to work for the devil..

So this poor child, don't know anything about the deal until when he's 21 and the devil actually came and find him. Oh is this devil handsome.. haha.. he's... smart, wearing a suit.. and what this devil wants the main actor to do is to bring back souls which have escaped from hell. some of the things the devil says really makes me think

he says hell is getting overcrowded, and that is why the problem of souls running away is rampant now..
hmm.. overcrowded, what does it say about humanity now? is it trying to pass a message?

by bringing back souls into hell, the main actor is, according to the devil, doing a good job by putting them in their place.. the soul that escaped today is a nasty soul la.. i don't know about upcoming episodes.. hmm.. if there are souls which repent.. i wonder what happens then?

"God always wins".. yeah.. that's what he said..

So now u have a devil, which wants to bring back souls which are already sentenced to hell because they cause harm to humans.. so is this devil in God's service? Makes you think twice doesn't it? oh no.. am i talking like Dr. Ng?

It's really good, it challenges my beliefs and it puts devil in a more humanistic way.. anyway.. i agree with what the devil says.. "God always wins".. don't worry ok.. i still believe in God

God Bless~

Interview

So.. i went for an interview on Monday at Menara Mutiara Bangsar. Should i talk about the getting there part? nah.. i shall spare it.. i will only talk about what he asked and what i answered... :)

1) Why Psychology?
Well, i chose psychology because i wanted to get to know more about people. And by that, hopefully i would be able to help them (before i answered this, i actually talked about my childhood dream - to be a sailor XD)

2)So what have u done with psychology?
I recently did a research on autism, how is the condition in Malaysia

3) So what have you found out
OK.. so this is the boring part.. i shall not make u bored and i shall skip it.. he asked a lot of questions about autism by the way

4) Do you know the theory of mind?
me - Nope
interviewer - it is when the child cannot put themselves into other people and see from their perspective. that is the reason children are autistic
(i soooo want to interject by saying yes yes.. i remember it, i seriously remembered it, but then i didn't say it out)

5) Why Teambuilders?
Cause this company provides training for people and that is what i want to learn. How to help people and at the same time enhance my communication skills. and.. to be honest, teambuilders are the few companies which have a minimum salary
(at this moment, chew chien, the girl who is taking down whatever i says said 'very honest' while giggling away)

6) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Well, I see myself graduating and then i will be joining Catholic Counselor and Therapies of Malysia (CCTM). By the time i graduate, i can't really be a practitioner yet, but hopefully i can be an assistant. Maybe be in a room to observe while practitioners do their stuffs

7) Who is your hero? (random question)
Definitely my dad. He is a single parent. My mum passed away in 1998 and it is not easy being a single parent. I would say he did an excellent job in bring up me and my siblings. He did great being a dad and a mum at a same time

8) What's the last book you read? (super random question)
Does comic counts? hahaha.. erm.. i don't really read books, except for psychology book. textbook that is. besides psychology book, i normally would read motivating books like 'who moved my cheese', 'the present' and 'the lamp'. but i don't really read books :D

9) What are your weaknesses and strengths?
oh.. i fumbled at this part.. haha.. i told them i rely quite heavily on first impression. and my strength i think i told them that i communicate well with others?

that's what i remember.. oh well.. shall be waiting for their reply

God Bless~

Strange Funny Encounter

SO.. i would write some of the amazing things i have seen

The other day i was taking the LRT back, and i saw a begger.. the cool thing about this begger is that.. he is holding a Sony Ericson phone.. now how cool is that?

Ok.. maybe it's not Sony Ericson, but definitely is a better phone than mine... ok la.. maybe his family members bought for him la.. poor guy right?

Have you guys seen a police forensic car? I have.. XD

oh oh.. i saw a guy who is not wearing a McD shirt but he is carrying a McD delivery pouch.. ho ho..

yeah that's it

God Bless~

Funny hair cutting experience

So.. today i went to get a haircut.. at 2 before i even ate my lunch..

so reached there at 2, and i asked for student hair cutter. they only charge RM 5 for that.. save some money.. :D

so this female, barely 22 i guess, was my 'cutter'. and she cuts REAL slow.. ok la.. nevermind lo.. student right? so cut cut cut.. it was 2.30.. i told her i have class at 4, can cut a little bit faster?

she looked at the clock, and i thought she would speed up, but then she still cut at the same pace.. swt!! nevermind.. student ma.. haha..

so after a while, she said she wants to wash my hair.. go and wash, then sit down and she blow my hair dry la.. my hair is short, and i think 2 minutes is enough to dry my hair.. but don't know why.. she took like 5 - 7 minutes.. keeps on 'raba-ing' my hair. I know la my hair nice right.. no but seriously, she seems to enjoy blowing dry my hair..

so after that, she started cutting again.. and this is the funny part. she cut, and i see my hair fall onto my shirt.. <--- SHIRT

i told her.. err.. "sui che, hai em hai ying koi fong ke bou sin le??" (miss, shouldn't u put the cloth first?)

she had forgotten to place the cloth on top to cover my body... ROFL.. funny girl..

i ended up reaching home at 3.10.. i bathed, gel-ed my hair and finished my lunch in an absolutely amazing time record of .... jeng jeng jeng.. 15 minutes.. can i hear some applause please? TQ TQ TQ TQ

God Bless~

Centerstage

Am i still the centerstage of my life?

Are you still the centerstage of your life?

What is the centerstage of your life now? partner? love? assignments? finals? life itself? you yourself? or is there none?

In whatever that we do, we need to always remember that we are the centerstage of our lives. Do not let things in life get into our centerstage, and we shall never lose ourselves.

Of course, we can't be too preoccupied with ourselves, making other people unpleasant with us. What i mean by centerstage is that we focus on what is important in our lives, and other things, things that bother us, will appear trivial.

Never lose yourself in going after what you want. it is never the 'thing' that takes centerstage, it is always the 'person'.

God Bless~

Dreams

This morning had another 2 dream. The first dream, initially i remembered a lot when i first woke up. But then i slept and had my second dream, making my first dream fuzzy. Recency effect? lol..

First dream: I was in a hall and there were many people around. We were all given papers with words on it and were told to analyse it i think.. Don't know do what with the paper la.. lots of things which i have forgotten. But what i remembered is that that papers which i got, it seems as if it were bit's blog. lol.. i know it sounds funny, but i just felt that it was ok.. yes yes.. i don't know how to read chinese, but it's a FEELING get it? then after that, i think people should go up and talk about it, and this girl behind me, started to 'volunteer' me. SWEAT!!

then.. i went up... and that's all i remembered.. shucks.. only remember this much.. it's not a bad dream though. i remember i was kinda grinning the whole dream.. hahaha

Second dream: i dreamt that i was in a car, and we were kinda like in a hotel place. so we were driving around and the hotel looks sooo nice. we were staying near the hotel, in a made out of wood chalet. then all of a sudden, i was driving the car. and i was finding my way to the chalet. so use the hotel as land mark, but then didn't really get to the chalet la.. then i was in the hotel, on foot.. don't know where the car went

so try to find my way out of the hotel to go back to the chalet.. and on the way, i saw this little cute boy. ROFL.. took him with me and went to the chalet together..

then suddenly.. suprise suprise.. stephanie cheah was inside my dream. after going back to the chalet, i don't know how it kinda turned into.. not really a chalet.. strange la.. i know.. and stephanie was there..

and yes.. i think that's almost all i can remember. :D

God Bless~

Strange nice dream

I am kinda sleep deprived these few days, coupled with enourmous stress level, i guess it's normal to have some strange dreams.. haha.. i dreamt something strange/weird cum nice dream when i was having my nap today

i dreamt that i was in a dark neighbourhood, and it seems as if there is no electricity. But my neighboor is watching tv, and he put the volumn on full blast. He is watching soccer. haha.. then somehow, i was on a car, my sis was driving, and we were kinda wondering around the neighbourhood

and this neighbourhood is sooooo cool, it has lots of animals, like...

tapirs, small little cute tapirs, and there are elephants, big enormous elephants, and... others la.. i can only remember these 2. So cool you know..

then i can't remember, but the next thing i remember is that i was eating at mamak, beside the road. And this mamak have a special serving style. on each table, there is sorta a small plastic box where food is put inside. it has layers and sections, so each section is filled with different sort of food like fish cakes and stuff.. On top of the plastic 'food container' there are stuffs like curry puffs, and when i took the curry puff, it's still hot.. yum yum..

yeah.. that's about my dream..

God Bless~

Different stress illustration

There are different types of stress coping strategies for different people. I don't know why, but i thought about how i can categorize it with food (or drinks). Am i magnificent or am i magnificent? :D

Water - So, when you give some heat to water, it evaporates. Same thing, some people when faced with pressure, they are gone and no where to be seem. Avoidant type.

Cheese - It melts when presented with heat. So these kind of people breakdown when they are faced with stressors. They don't avoid it, they...... breakdown. :)

Fried fish - When you try to fry fish, what happens? oil will keep on popping, and it hurts. These are the kind of people who always complain and complain (like how the crackling sound when you fry fish) and yes, it hurts the people around them. sad state of affair, but there are a lot of these people. Complaining type

Toast bread - apply some heat, and it becomes hard. Some people becomes hard when stress gets to them.

Rice - Ah.. finally a good 1. it becomes big and nice to eat. matures with time and is not too hard, not too soft. Learning type

Of course.. all the food above are just examples, and are not exclusive and exhautive (fuiyoh)

God Bless~

When did life became so complicated?

Whoah~ Reading this title sure makes u wonder.. lol.. what happened to me right? :)

As i am typing this, my neighbour is playing badminton outside my house. Under the hot sun, but the place that they are playing is under the shadow of a tree la. They are Malays and they are young little kids.. cute little kids.. if u know me, i kinda like kids.. :D

They were bro and sis i suppose, and they were doing what i did last time when i was young. That was the same tree that i played under with my sis. after so many years, it's still there. How good was life back then.. no worries, no issues like races (or at least i am not influenced by it), no stress.. LIFE WAS GOOD!! I don't know about you guys, but i had a very nice childhood. Of course, there were some comments from certain races then which says that "dia makan babi la", but hey, babi is nice to eat ok.. XD

and that did not deter our friendship.. we still mingle around very nicely. Why is it so difficult now? Where is the difference? When did life became so complicated?

Nothing happened to me la.. it's just one of those days which i kinda miss my childhood life.. I guess if we were given a choice, all of us would want to be kids again right? ok maybe me la huh.. :)

God Bless~

Pressure-ized Onion

It's the time when i am getting a little bit too cognitive and starts to think a little bit too much.. Listening to 'Yang Chong' now.. repeating the song again and again.. hmm..

I'm bored, at the same time i am busy. hmm.. Busily bored :D Pressure in coming in.. as assignments need to be passed up soon.. finals are coming soon.. Oh.. let's talk a little bit about my personality.. :)

Yesterday there was Personality tutorial class, and we were suppose to take an online personality test (Myers-Briggs test) and i got ISTJ which stands for Introversion, Sensing, Thinking and Judging.

Introversion - i guess that's very much like me. i don't mix easily with people fast. I need to at least get to know or observe that person first before getting to know that person deeper. Slow to warm up if u want to label me. In parties (which i rarely go, which emphasize my extraversion), u might see me standing at a corner observing rather than participating. I like to be in small groups of friends rather than big group of friends (i would love it if it were a one on one, with opposite sex of course.. :p). I feel very impersonal if were we to go out in big group.. maybe i just want their attention fix on me la.. hahaha

Sensing - not much about this, because my sensing trait is actually very low, 1%. Which means i might swing to the other side of the continuum. :0

Thinking - Yes.. very thinking and not so feeling. Although my feelings are pretty stong at times, i hide it using my cognition i guess. So am i really thinking type? or just hiding it underneath? i think a little bit more cognition than feelings la.. :) which i think is a good thing.

Judging - Ah.. this does not mean i am a judgemental person ok.. it means that i plan my activities.. i like to plan and not spontaneous. Which is true.. i don't really like spur of the moment things.. I like to take things slowly and not do last minute work.

So.. my personality type is dubbed the Inspectors. "The one word that best describe Inspectors is superdependable." ROFL. And they are supposed to be very traditional.

I think i am dependable (in certain circumstances, not all ok), if not superdependable. I need people to put in as much effort as i do if not more. I want their work to be nice and up to my standard. And because of that, it is said that my personality likes to reform people. Which i partly agree, cause i always thinks that people lifestyle have to like... hmm.. at least i have to think that their lifestyle is satisfactory.. or i would think that they are living in denial.. or.. suffering.. or.. having a sad life. hahaha.. which i would in turn suggest to them how to live their life.. what right do i have in judging whether or not they are happy right? the bad part which comes with being Inspectors.. lol

Accordingly, i am very traditional. And yes, i think i am quite conservative. i don't do things in extreme. I don't catch with the fashion trends. I still think that certain moral standards should be followed and not just because lots of people say they do it, it's ok to do it (no pre-marital sex).

So if you want to get close to me, better make sure u are hardworking :p, and give me attention.. gyahaha.. XD

God Bless~

Of Race, Gender and Equality

Pop quiz.. What's the hottest issue in Malaysia now?
Hike in petrol price

What is the hottest issue in US now?
Obama won over Hillary and he is contending against McCain

And yes, it is very possible that US will have their first ever Black president... And i am actually anticipating for it. What would he do? what would he change? how can he impact the world? After all, he's a Black.. which is very interesting..

Let's take a step back and imagine that Obama didn't won.. let's say Hillary won.. I would still be anticipated cause she would be the first female president. Now how cool is that? Regardless of race and gender, everyone is qualified for contesting for the presidential.

Looking at Malaysia, I would say this scenario would be impossible, if not almost impossible. Imagine a race other than a Malay being Prime Minister. Imagine a female being the Prime Minister. hmm.. quite hard to imagine no?

If Malaysia can one day transcend race, and gender... i believe we would truly be a strong nation then. Now who says that Western influence is always bad?

We should learn this life lesson from them..

God Bless~

Hike of Petrol Prices

So Malaysians are all grumbling because of the hike of petrol prices. While many are not so happy with it, I on the other hand thinks that the government did no wrong in rising the price. I think that they did right actually

Price of petrol have been increasing so much on the world market that if Petronas were to continue subsidising, we would die very soon.. Literally. I don't understand why people are protesting about the hike. Can't they see the big picture here? How long can the government subsidise?

People should use less petrol, save for future generation. There would be less cars on the road, which translate to less trafic jam, which translate to less fuel consumption due to no jam. Isn't it getting better already hearing my explanation? LOL.. but there are still lots of cars on the road.. which makes me wonder why are there so many protesters.. if protesters says hike is burning hole in their pocket, shouldn't they use other means of transportation? y so many cars? hurmzz...

maybe those who are on the roads are not those who protested huh? but.. if u do look properly, who are those protesting.. the really poor? or the not so poor? make u think twice doesn't it?

Of course.. although the government did right in raising the price of petrol, they did it without proper planning. Which is not so smart if u ask me. They should have planned beforehand how to decrease the burden of the people, and not annouce first, explain later. They came up with lots of promises, but only time will tell whether it is really coming through..

and another thing that i think the government should do is raise salary. Just as simple as this. If we need to spend more, it is only natural that we need to earn more. Unfortunately, everything is going up except for Malaysian's salary huh... stagnant.

Also.. Public transport.. they should pump in a lot more money into it to make it reliable and efficient. So that the public would like to ride it. But anyway.. there have been lots of articles sent in by people to the newspapers on how the government should improve the public transport.. so i shall not talk further..

God Bless~

Of Driving Licence and Handphone

I almost drove home without my driving licence (which is in my wallet) and handphone yesterday ok..

So this was what happened.. Yesterday I got mid term exam, so after exam, i went to play volleyball. So when changing my attire that time, i passed both my wallet and my handphone to Wushu Girl la..

So practising that time, halfway she said she want to go to her friend's hostel, so she left lo.. I thought she would be smart enough to leave it in my car or something. :p.. but after finish training, i check where are my things, and to my horror, it wasn't in my car.

Then i tried calling my phone, so that she would pick it up. Called for 6 times, and she didn't pick up. *flips table* finally, on the 7th call, only she picked it up.. oh.. how relieve was i when she picked it up.. very swiftly i asked her, where she is.. cause if she were to go home already, which is in Puchong, i would be in deeeeeeeeeeep shit.. Thank God she is still at her friend's hostel..

then i got it back and i drove home safely..

I was literally pondering on whether i should drive home without my driving licence and handphone ok.. i even developed a hypothetical scenario if i were to asked to pull over by police

Police: Ic dan driving licence...
Me: *trying to reach out to my pocket, and act shocked and innocent* Lupa bawak la bang. sorry sorry.. takkan ulang lagi.. =.=!!!!

it really went through my mind owhkie.. hahaha.. but good thing la.. i am safe.. :p

God Bless

Interesting day. Blessing in Disguise? Part 3

Part 3: Volleyball and Computer

So after recruitment drive, went to eat lunch with Zhou and then went to library... wanted to find some stuffs about autism.. but to no avail.. sigh.. so do what?

short nap.. haha.. in the library..

so after nap, went back to main block, change my attire.. and play volleyball with bpsych people.. nothing much to do there, except for digging.. no net.. nothing else can do.. so we dig for about 1 and a half hours..

then Kelvinn came and told me that... we should have systematic training.. and he said that.. I should be the one who trains them.. =.=;

he asked me to come up with a training plan from now right up to the sports carnival.. ok lor.. haha.. if don't train also not good.. train only la.. hopefully i can do a good job.

oh.. while we were digging.. one female approach the basketball court and asked who is the volleyball club president.. then i was like "hi hi.. i am the volleyball club president.. interested in volleyball?"

she said "yeah.." then i asked Zhou to go get his phone so that we can take down her contact number.. his phone is in his car.. so while he gets his phone.. i chatted with her for a while..

i asked her.. "you played volleyball before?" she answered me "yeah... PROFESSIONAL VOLLEYBALL"

*JAW DROPS TO THE GROUND AND BOUNCES BACK*

i was like trying to keep my cool and replied "oh cool cool.. that's great. where are you from?"

she said she's from Zimbabwe.. ah i see... so after taking her phone number she left.. lol.. professional volleyball? hahaha

after that, came home safely and after dinner.. switched on my desktop as usual, to check my mails and do assignments.. but... my desktop restarts itself automatically for no apparent reason.. and it happened like.. more than 10 times?

good thing i got my sis laptop to use.. haha.. so.. interesting day huh? ups and downs in a day.. Blessing in disguise?

God Bless~

Interesting day. Blessing in Disguise? Part 2

Part 2: Recruitment Drive

so me and Ying Zhou were the only 2 members to go for the recruitment drive... We were given a table, and so we put up posters and... waited.. haha

other clubs like dance club have a book to show people what their activities are like.. chinese cultural society have brochures.. we have... jeng jeng jeng...

NOTHING!!!

lol.. just a form to fill in names.. Both me and Ying Zhou said... well... sports club.. it's either they like it or they don't like it.. no use creating those kind of things.. XD Rationalization? maybe.. hehe..

but that's not the main focus for the recruitment drive.. the main focus.... is....

about 1 something.. came in a new club.. the wushu club.. the drive ends at 2.. and they came in 1 something.. and i didn't know they were from the wushu club la.. but this girl called.. Wen Ji really made my day.

she started talking to us by coming over and said.. "volleyball club where got nice? the other time i play until my hand bengkak"

i told her "it's like that 1. the first time i played also blue black." then she replied.. "ya la.. that's y volleyball not nice lo.. come for wushu better. It makes you more GENTLEMAN"

me and zhou was like ... gentleman? wushu so feminine.. lol.. then she complained to her president (which is Christian *his name is Christian* :) ).. then i told her.. wushu good for you arr.. can fend off sexual predators.. and she said "ya lo.. the first person i am going to kick is YOU" =.=;

then we told her.. erm.. guys also scared of sex predators.. and she said.. "you 2 scared of sex predators? don't tell me you are .... GAY?" *bang head on the wall....* and i told her that if we were gay, shouldn't we be having fun instead of being afraid?

then she replied... how i know both of u le? maybe when guy touch you, you go "ah... ah".. then me and zhou demonstrated that in front of her..

i touched zhou's arm.. he ah-ed.. i touch him again.. he ah-ed again.. then she said both of us very nonsensical... and yes.. i do feel a bit nonsensical too.. fell into the pit of mild depression for a moment.. lol

then there is once that she stood up and wanted to walk pass behind my chair.. so i ma pulled my chair nearer to the table so she can pass comfortably lo.. you know what she replied to my kind and polite gesture?

"eh you no need to like that right? you pull your chair means i fat right? u made me hurt u know" *bang head on the wall*

when she was leaving, i asked her "leaving already so fast?" then she replied.. "why? miss me already arr? so fast le.. "

sweat!!!! =.=;

then i acted along and said.. ya lo.. miss u already.. number? she gave her number to me.. and then i was like.. really or not ? this number so nice? then she said.. miss call me la.. and it really was her number.. haha.. besides some perasan-ness in her.. she doesn't lie after all.. XD

then i was like.. how to spell your name? she replied "leng lui.. just save as leng lui la.." but before leaving.. she gave her name la..

here i was.. talking to a stranger who i don't even know her name until before she left..

but it's fun talking to her la.. although sometimes she really can make you crawl up the wall.. hahaha..

God Bless~

Interesting day. Blessing in Disguise? Part 1

I have to blog about today..

Since i got quite a lot of things to blog about, i shall divide it into 3 parts.. hehehe..

Part 1: Flat Tire

well i slept at about 2 in the morning i guess.. but then i think i didn't really get to sleep until quite later.. then need to wake up at 6.20. semangat go to college..

on the way to college, as i pass by Loke Yew road, i got a flat tire.. sweat... flat tire in the middle of a road under construction? this is not good... stopped by the side and lots of motor honked me for it la.. then i tried calling my dad.. but he was sending my sis to school.. he called back later and told me

you have to change the tire yourself lo.. i asked him.. yeah.. where is the tire? lol.. i didn't even know where the tire is.. then after i know where the tire is, i started to change the tire.. all by myself.. i don't even know how to change it.. so how? read the manual lo..

got honked.. don't care.. change tire... got honked.. don't care... change tire..

GOT HONKED.... DON'T CARE.... CHANGE TIRE...

after finishing, was very satisfied... cause i managed to change it.. gyahaha.. not bad right? then drive slowly to college.. scared of the instable tire.. the tire is smaller than the usual tire.. so imbalance la the car..

but i managed to reach college.. and i went into class late.. AGAIN... hahaha.. then Evie asked me.. how come got flat tire still so happy 1? the sense of satisfaction.. lol.. then class like normal and after that, went to buy bread and then get ready for recruitment drive..

Continue in part 2

God Bless~

Update

Since I started college, life has been pretty fine. Except for the fact that I am quite busy la.. but it's all well and good that I am busy. Stoning at home during holidays k... hahaha.. and me doing things can keep me away from some thoughts.

Monday: So first day of college, already bombarded with things to do. First day already got assignments. Woo hoo!!.. Then need to sign up for tutorial groups (which is the most exciting moment in every sem XD)

Tuesday: Hmm.. then find group members for Personality class and we decided to choose Anwar to write on. Hahaha..

Wed: no class.. laze at home and think about how to present the individual assignment.

Thursday: Leong annouced in class that there would be a BPsych badminton tournament tomorrow (which is today. 16th May 08). So Mr. Lam got excited and asked me to join him in doubles.. hahaha.. so I put my name in and I also decided to participate in singles. So after our first class which is at 8 morning, our next class is at 4. 6 hours in between, we went to play badminton with Ying Zhou and Andrew. We booked the court that day itself, went to Mr. Lam's place to get badminton stuffs, changed out attire and went to play badminton..

After playing, went back to Mr. Lam's place and took bath, before going back to college. Made it back just in time for my meeting which is at 3. me and Ying Zhou went to eat lunch at 3.45. ROFL.. went into class abit late la.. then came back home..

I tell you... sometimes the police handling the traffic is DUMB!! i was stuck on the road about 250 m long for 25 minutes.. 250m u know.. walk also faster man... but anyway.. i came back home safe and sound la..

Friday: went for class which is at 10, then went to have lunch before our tournament. Mrs. Lam was with us.. to give us 'social support' :p the single started first.. the doubles came only after the singles was over.. poor Mr. Lam, sitting at the side waiting and waiting until he is sleepy... haha.. good thing I joined singles as well, or else, I think I would be sleeping too.

So first game of single, I played against Fabio (the Sports coordinator for BPsych.. according to Evie la.. :p). Initially I was losing la.. didn't played well.. then I wore my specs (initially i wanted to play without it) cause I can't really see the shuttlecock clearly. So after wearing my specs, i won by 22-20.

Second match played against Filbert. Fuh.. when I got to know I was against him, I was thinking.. I'm dead meat. But suprisingly.. and real suprisingly, I won against him. 21-16 i think. Then I was in the semi finals already..

Third match played against YQ (first year second sem), and I won him 15 - 9 i think. then it was the finals.. haha.. in the finals I was swat like a fly. Lost 15-4 :p The champion was really good, and I have to admit la.. I was in the finals because somehow, I played against the less well players. If I were to meet him in the start, I lose in first round already.. XD

then comes the doubles.. lol.. met with James and Filbert. SHIT!!!! lose kau kau.. their playing was AWESOME. We were of no challenge to them la.. Played 2 sets, lost 2 sets.. ROFL.. the strange thing is.. after out match is over, Leong came over and told us, for our doubles, we got third placing. Me and Mr. Lam was like.. what? we lose totally and we still are 3rd? hahaha..

played until about 4.30.. then came back.. took bath, makan dinner, then head for church for meeting..

meeting from 8.30 till 11.15.. fuiyoh.. tiring.. that's about my update for the first 5 days in college.. and ohoh.. i am a tutor now.. whee~.. workloads coming in.. whoo~

God Bless~

Yang Cong (Onion)

作曲：阿信(五月天)
作词：阿信(五月天)
编曲：周恒毅



如果你眼神能够为我 片刻的降临
ru guo ni yan shen neng gou wei wo pian ke de jiang lin
If only, your vision would look upon me



如果你能听到 心碎的声音
ru guo ni neng ting dao xin sui de sheng yin
If only, you could hear the sounds of a heart break



沉默的守护着你 沉默的等奇迹
chen mo de shou hu zhe ni chen mo de deng qi ji
Silently watching over you, silently waiting for a miracle



沉默的让自己 像是空气
chen mo de rang zi ji xiang shi kong qi
Silently letting myself, be like air



大家都吃着聊着笑着 今晚多开心
da jia dou chi zhe liao zhe xiao zhe jin wan duo kai xin
Everyone’s eating, talking, laughing, tonite is such a joy



最角落里的我 笑得多合群
zui jiao luo li de wo xiao de duo he qun
The cornermost me, is laughing together with the rest



盘底的洋葱像我 永远是调味品
pan di de yang cong xiang wo yong yuan shi tiao wei pin
The onions at the bottom of the plate are just like me, forever the flavouring



偷偷的看着你 偷偷的隐藏着自己
tou tou de kan zhe ni tou tou de yin cang zhe zi ji
Secretly watching you, secretly hiding myself



如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
ru guo ni yuan yi yi ceng yi ceng yi ceng de bo kai wo de xin
If you are willing to peel open my heart, layer by layer by layer



你会发现 你会讶异
ni hui fa xian ni hui ya yi
You will discover, you will be shocked



你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密
ni shi wo zui ya yi zui shen chu de mi mi
You are my most suppressed, deepest secret



如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
ru guo ni yuan yi yi ceng yi ceng yi ceng de bo kai wo de xin
If you are willing to peel open my heart, layer by layer by layer



你会鼻酸 你会流泪
ni hui bi suan ni hui liu lei
Your nose will run, you will tear



只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意
zhi yao ni neng ting dao wo kan dao wo de quan xin quan yi
If only you can hear me, see my wholeheartedness　



听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气
ting ni shuo ni he ni de ta men ai mei de kong qi
Hearing you talk about you and your many other ‘him’ and the blossoming loves



我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
wo he wo de jue wang zhuang de hen feng qu
Me and my hopelessness act very amused



我就像一颗洋葱 永远是配角戏
wo jiu xiang yi ke yang cong yong yuan shi pei jiao xi
I’m just like an onion, forever just the supporting actor



多希望能与你 有一秒 专属的剧情
duo xi wang neng yu ni you yi miao zhuan shu de ju qing
How i wish to have with you, a second of our own story

God Bless~

Coffee and Sleep

I used to sleep very easily last time. Once I lay on my bed, I would go to dream land, faraway land, or secret desire land, whatever you might call it. No matter what I drink, either it's coffee or tea, I would still sleep like a log.

These days, I find myself awake in the wee hours, trying my best to get some sleep. I used to sleep at 10 last time, but now I normally sleep at 1 a.m. Part of it is due to... well... for better or worse, the frequent use of internet. Workloads from college also plays a part as I would be up until 12 or 1 for assignments before retiring to bed.

Nowadays, coffee makes me unable to sleep as well. Yesterday I went to MIHAS (Malaysian International Halal Showcase) and drank a few small cup of coffee, and guess what happened? I stayed up all morning, until 6.

Then I drove to church, and got into an accident. Well, that's not true actually. I didn't stayed up until 6 morning la. But I was seriously trying to get my sleep, and I couldn't. Woke up one time and I checked the time on my handphone. The time shows 2.40 a.m.

These days, when I lie on my bed, a lot of thoughts flood my mind too. All demanding my attention and making it so active that I have difficulty going to sleep. How good is it if I could sleep soundly like a child? Without worries. No use worrying about things right? But it just keeps on plaguing my mind. Anyone got good idea on how to get rid of it? Please don't ask me go count sheeps ya...

God Bless~

*oh.. i didn't get into an accident by the way. it's not true :-)*

Females' happiest moment

You know what ranks top in 'Females' Happiest Moment'?

Rank 3: To be with a guy who loves the girl a lot, but the girl don't really like that guy
Rank 2: To be with a guy whom the girl loves a lot, but the guy don't really like the girl
Rank 1: Where both parties are head over heels each other..

Don't know whether true or not.. Got it from a show.. lol

God Bless~

Sleep and sms

Gah!!! Of all the days, it has to be the day when i was sleeping at my best, dreaming a vivid dream that sms have to flood in and wake me up.

First sms from Mr. Lam at 7.58 morning. Thanks for the wake up call. I know la old people like u need less sleep, but young people like me need lots of it. XD ROFL.

Second sms from HotlinkGift =.=;

Third sms from my friend..

And fourth sms from Mr. Lam again (cause i didn't replied his first message.. LOL)

I was dreaming so nicely ok.. or rather.. a vivid dream la.. the first dream was like this:

Me, Mr. Lam and Jian were together with my sis. My sis wanted to find a tuition which offers the subject History. So we went to this tuition centre and started crawling up the stairs. I said crawling because the ceiling is rather low, so we really need to like bend down a bit la..

my sis went first, i second, mr lam after me and jian last.. while we were crawling up the stairs, mr lam hit my ass (like a friendly gesture la.. he always kacau people right). then i 'repay' his kindness, and i kicked him. :P

then he as usual got his "ouch pain la u mangkuk". then i went back down and like.. "oh really ar? sorry sorry." then we continue crawling up and we reached the top. then my sis asked whether this tuition offers History, and they replied they only have English and Bahasa Malaysia.

so we went back down.. and suprise suprise.. shyuan came riding a motorbike (imagine that. ROFL). then all of us went back to my house and sorta discuss discuss about the tuition, and MIHAS. then i asked what time does the exhibition end..

Jian answered normally for these type 10.30 pm. i said.. so late arr? last time i worked ended at 5 or 6. then i made a simple calculation and said.. "wah.. shyuan worked for RM2.50 for an hour? so sad" (i seriously didn't make a recount. but i remember that was what i said during my dream. whether or not the value is right, count it yourself k)

then while we were talking, i realize that it's already time for me to play badminton. i ran down, and then my dad asked me to help with preparation for dinner (i think). so preparing the food, and then i told my dad i want to go play badminton. it's only after the second time i asked him that he let me off.

the badminton court needs booking and by the time i left, the time is almost over. i ran out but strangely, i did not ran to the court. i ran to the field, more like a slow jog. and even more strangely, part of the field turned into cemetary and there were people cleaning the graves there.. so i continued jogging, passing a few girls and after i jogged about half the field, i started speeding, sprinting as fast as i could home..

when i reach my gate, Kam Seng came out of a car, parked opposite my house. then even more amazingly, Sin Kwan Hong (it's been a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time since i last contacted this guy) was standing just outside my gate.. trying to swat a mosquito i think.. hahahaha..

then sms came.. and i woke up..

the second dream... is about how i was in a faraway land.. and i wore shiny armour.. i saw a princess in a tower and i had to fight the dragon to save the princess.. and well.. i wasn't a green fat ogre.. well.. actually that's not my dream la.. :P

i dreamt that i was sitting somewhere.. playing computer i think.. and Cha Loo was sitting beside me, trying to draw a picture of my face (is that what you would call a potrait?). yea.. i only remember this much.. because another sms came in and disrupted my dream.. =.=;

well.. nevermind la.. dream are still dreams.. and reality will be reality.. good news is, i am still going to play badminton later and going to MIHAS. :)

We live in reality where not everything is perfect, but it does not have to be that bad.

God Bless~