End of 2007

So here comes the moment.. the end of 2007....

a lot had happened this year.. more could have happened but it did not happened... what am i talking about?? ok ok.. it's end of the year and time to look back at what i have done this year.. so i will do a ranking of my top 8 memorable events or moments

8) Jalan-jalan cari makan with Shu Ling and Peh Fung
7) Joined HELP's volleyball club
6) Me working in In2 and staying over at Jian's house. My first time staying over at friends' house..
5) Me working at Martrade Centre. My first time working, and i got to taste tons of food for free..
4) HELP''s first ever treasure hunt
3) Preparing for MC 100 presentation and the BBQ night
2) Trip to Bukit Tinggi and Genting
1) Leadership camp and Jason's kiss (how could i forget that)

aiya.. a lot of memorable things la.. want to rank it also very hard..

let's welcome 2008 with an open heart..

God Bless~

Kids Say The Darnest Things

Today i went to KLCC to watch National Treasure 2: The Book of Secrets

it was quite a wonderful story, some actions, some humour, not too bad.. i enjoyed it.. hahaha..

but what i wanted to blog here is not about that.. instead, it's what happened on my journey there..

i took a bus to KLCC, and during the trip, the bus stopped at Bandar Baru Ampang school

then one young boy, around age 5 came in with his mother.. from the time the boy came in, he has been talking non stop... keep on talking only.. then talk talk to his mum and then his mum asked him

Mum: so if the school bell rings, what does it mean?

Boy: it means..... it means.... start teaching or go back

Mum: Yes.. it means either the start or the end of class.

then the boy kept talking and then he shifted place and was sitted two places beside me.. then he kept on talking

Boy: Mummy... i like Christmas, cause got present.. I don't like..... Hari Raya

XD.. when i heard that.. i was already secretly laughing and thinking to myself..

wah sai.. u got guts to say that boy (inside the bus got few malays some more, and he speaks quite loudly) hahaha..

God Bless~

Patience

We as humans really need to be patient at certain things.. certain things cannot be rushed and once rushed, it will ruin the process

Annie Dillard shares her story of proper waiting:

She has been watching a butterfly emerge from its cocoon and was facinated by the process until she grew impatient of how long the process was taking. She took the liberty to speed up the process by taking a candle and heat up the cocoon, albeit very gently.

Her experiment was a success, the butterfly emerged more quickly. But the butterflly was born with weak wings, because it came out too soon. It cannot fly and thus "haste and prematurity had stunted and deformed a natural process. Some things cannot be rushed" (Dillard, cited in Rolheiser, 2007 p. 12)

And that was exactly the message.. some things cannot be rushed, such as BGR (boy-girl relationship :P)

some people rush to get into a relationship and even some thinks that sex will fasten or secure the relationship... how wrong could it be.. it will never fasten the relationship, it will never strenghten the relationship.. rather, just like the weak butterfly, it will only lead to immaturity and will disrubt a natural process..

so don't rush into a relationship, and when in a relationship, don't rush your relationship... it will grow mature with time

Love is beautiful, but it cannot feed the stomach

God Bless~

Not Just Vanity

Today i read The Star and came across an interesting article...

Quoting it

"It's one of the world's great mysteries, as puzzling as the possible existence of intelligent life on other planets and the whereabouts of Lord Lucan. Why exactly does it take women so long to get ready for a night out?" (The Star, Star 2, p. 10)

I don't know who Lord Lucan is btw.. hehe

Why do women take so long to get ready.. hmm.. interesting no?

"Recently, it was revealed that the average female spends three years getting ready to leave the house." (The Star, Star 2, p. 10)

"Research found that the average woman takes one hour and 12 minutes to prepare herself for a big night out - that's 22 minutes showering and removing unwanted hair, seven minutes applying moisturiser and fake tan, 23 minutes doing her hair, 14 minutes applying make-up and six minutes putting her clothes on." (The Star, Star 2, p. 10)

"On top of that, the typical woman spends another 40 minutes a day getting ready for work, and three months of her life choosing handbags and the ideal pair of shoes to wear." (The Star, Star 2, p. 10)

hmm.... to sum it up, women would take (or need for that matter) a long time to be prepared.. maybe not all women but at large..

and the writer says that it's not just about vanity... it's not just about looking good.. it's about feeling good.

that got me thinking... well, she's right, it's not about only looking good, it's also about feeling good... u can look good but don't feel good about yourself...

but what i don't understand is this... why do women need such a long time to feel good?

anyone care to enlighten me about it?

God Bless~

Reference:

The Star, Not Just Vanity, Star 2 (27th December 2007)

Dream

Freud says that dreams are the royal road to the unconscious

I have lots of dreams and the good thing is that i can remember them nicely

this afternoon, i took a nap and i dreamt about me driving a Kancil with my dad sitting beside me. The strange thing is that the stering wheel is on the left hand side (like a foreign car) instead of being on the right hand side..

and the journey was kinda dangerous.. i was driving and then the next thing i remember, i was cycling on a bicycle and my dad was walking... i wanted to cycled straight, but my dad said go left..

so i turned left and this boy who is cycling as well overtook me and here is the cool part

He overtook me, jumped through a kithchen window (i think) and ride his bicycle on top of glasses (glasses as in cups) and then landed safely on the groud o.O

the glasses didn't break.. when i turned left, it was a dead end, except jumping through the window as the boy did. so i jumped as well, ride on the glasses as well, but then the glasses and the things on the table fell.. hahaha..

but i wasn't injured or anything la.. just that the things fell.. nothing much after that i suppose.. XD

my unconsious motives? i don't know.. Freudians out there or any dream intepreter.. u may decode my dream.. hahaha..

i will be constantly posting up my dreams from now on (if i deem the dream fasinating :p)

God Bless~

Bible Knowledge

I was being asked to testify and to encourage future SPM students to take up Bible Knowledge as an additional subject. Asked by whom? by my Bible Knowledge teacher and she said i will be giving my talk around new year..

o.O

Speech... in front of everyone.. let's see.. i would have to talk about it for 2 times, Sunset mass and Sunday mass.. so i would be talking in front of approximately 2000 people.. =.=;

oh nevermind.. i was wanting to do that anyway.. :p

Making the speech was not that hard.. because it is very much like a reflective writing.. i think back about what i have done and tell them why they should take it up..

thinking back about my Bible Knowledge experience brought back memories of the National Bible Quiz.. and i really love that day..

the National Bible Knowledge Quiz gathers students from all over Malaysia.. I participated in it and i got to see 'Bible scholars' from all around Malaysia attending the quiz... what a sight to behold.. the quiz was held at the hmmm... Petaling Girls School (or something of that sort la, it's a girls school in PJ) the school was awesome. it was clean and beautiful... i was so afraid that it doesn't have guys toilet (except those prepared for staffs) but good thing, there is.. hehehe

It was during the quiz that i realize how little i know about this subject. my partner and i (it is a group participation) was eliminated in the first round.. so sad.. hahaha.. but the other students were sooooo good..

they can kinda memorize the whole 2 books of what we are covering.. o.O awesome.. that time i was in form 5. and if u are in form 6, u can still participate in it, but u can't if u are in college.. form 6 is individual participation and i have thought of entering form 6 just to participate in the quiz..

That was one of the memorable experience i had... isn't it great if i can experience it again? but well it's over and done with.. so let's encourage the new generation so that they don't miss out in it..

God Bless~

Mandarin Oriental

22nd Dec 2007

Today is the day of my grandaunt's son's marriage and they prepared dinner at Mandarin Oriental (where the putonghua's live =.=;)

Went there and there is an awful (i don't know how to spell it) number of people there.. i mean outside the ball room.. it's like when the lift opens, and we walk out, everyone was already there... a lot of people.. lingering around.. hehehe

then beneath our floor, is a group of carollers and it was kinda nice hearing them sing.. Mandarin Oriental is a very nice place, but well how could it not be right?? it's just beside KLCC, got reputation.. hahaha..

the food was okay, there was a dance floor in the ball room and that made me remember some moments in C'est Magnifique.

oh oh.. the bridegroom's name is Nic and the bride's name is Sue.. their encounter was somewhat like in movies.. hehe.. here goes

Nic was slashed by snatch thief and was sent to the hospital.. then Sue was there to visit her friend, which is beside Nic's bed.. and that's how they met..

but seriously, how often do we say hi to our neighbours in ward? let alone saying 'hi' to neighbour's friend? hmm.. don't know....

the painting in the ball room is wonderful, and after dinner, we went to the parking, but then there is an awful queue to get out.. like 4 levels of jam.. (they got only one toll to go out).. and as i have mentioned, there is a lot of people that night attending the dinner itself, not including other people from other ball rooms..

so we went back up and walked around the hotel lor.. and guess who we met?

Sultan of Selangor.. well.. i don't really know or recognize him at first.. but my dad was like

"you saw who is that?"

me and my sis were like "who?"

"sultan of Selangor la.. he went into the toilet"

ooooo i see.. me and my sis don't know.. :p but then he came out afterwards and my dad shook hand with him.. me just stand there.. hehehe

God Bless~

Update

hurmmmzzz... let's see.. today is Dec 20th..

oh gosh.. i only got 1 post in december? and that is like dec 3rd.. what have i done for the whole of december??

so let's go back in time and trace what i have been doing thus far.. erm.. finals from 10th till 14th.. that's one part why i haven't blog for quite some time

people rajin baca buku mer.. XD hehehe..

on the 14th, straight away after my last paper, went down to melacca, the historical city.. :p

came back only on the 16th, but then my computer is with hp. sent in on friday because cpu got something wrong..

only got it back yesterday.. then on tuesday and wednesday night i joined carolling. so here i am.. hmm...

nothing much to tell la.. all is past.. like no 'umph' anymore.. hehehe

enjoy your holidays

God Bless~

He Died

Today i went to watch movie..

Ah.. finally i got an opportunity to watch movie.... after several months of movie deprived. Today i watched.. jeng jeng jeng...

Mr. Mogorium's Wonder Emporium

Mr. Mog what?? Mogorium la.. haha..

Went to klcc to watched it and one thing Mr. Mogorium said was kinda worth reflecting. Mr. Mogorium, the owner of the splendid toy shop was going to die.. and his apprentice is very sad about it

and Mr. Mogorium said this... or maybe something like this.. haha..(memory not too good)

We should concentrate on the things prior to death and not death itself

Oh.. that is so not what he said.. but he is implying that la.. hahaha.. and that got me thinking

Why would people be afraid of death? The general idea is that people are afraid of the unknown, and since people only die once, death is something unknown to people, and that is why they are afraid.

I read a book once where in it, one of the character presented an idea on why people like to drink what they like to drink and eat what they like to eat.

People do that because they know the taste of their food, and this familiarity gives them a sense of control in life. That is why there are people (like me) who likes to go back to the same stall to eat, eventhough there might be better stalls out there... people (or me at least) are sceptical about trying new thing, things they don't know, things they are not familiar with, the unknown.

And that got me thinking a bit further. Does people who are trying to live forever wants to live forever because they want a sense of control over their lives?

to me, i think death is a wonderful thing. i think la.. hahaha.. I wonder where will i be after i die? Is there a soul? Heaven? Aliens? hahaha.. of course i believe in heaven, but if u ask me how sure am i, i can't answer that.. that's y it's called FAITH and not SCIENCE.

Mr. Mogorium also said this "A 37 seconds life lived to the full, is a live worth living"

God Bless~

Forgiveness

Forgiveness.. when we see this word, how many of us actually practices it? I know i do.. no that's a joke.. i thought i do, but i don't really know what is forgiveness, nor do i practice it

For a very long time, and for many people, forgiveness is very much like a cognitive process. What i mean is we forgive the person in our head, but not in our hearts

And immediately, i can see that one of the person practicing that is me. That is why i said i thought i forgive, but actually i don't. Everytime i see a person who have hurt me, i would somehow have this uncomfortable feeling in my heart, and that is what i meant by forgive in mind, but not at heart

Do you experience it too?

What we (or I for that matter) need to do is to forgive both in our mind and heart. And it is not an easy task.. in fact, it might be one of life's most challenging things. but if we want to heal completely, this is what we need to do

We need to first admit our brokeness and weakness. By admiting it and by realizing it, then only can we face it and be healed. If we were to live in denial, then we can never come face to face with the deepest hurts in our heart.

Jesus said this "Forgive one another as I have forgive you"

So go out there and forgive someone

To everyone out there reading my blog, i am sorry if i have hurt you in any way. I beg for your forgiveness and please voice out your frustrations on me, so that i can be a better person..

Anyone who have unresolved issues with me can drop comments (this is the time to bomb me) and i will try my best to improve

God Bless~

Renewal

These few days, specifically from Tuesday till today, Thursday (29.11.2007)... in these few days, i have learnt a lot of things from the Advent retreat organized by my church.

It actually started on Monday, but i didn't went for it because i was lazy cum so-called-busy. :p but then my dad came back and said it was good and sorta 'persuade' me to go for it.. so i went on Tuesday and i continued until today, the final day of the retreat.

There are many things which i have learnt there that i can put into practice immediately and the talk was really really good and i want to share with all of u guys a story. A story about a pencil

The pencil, after being made was on it's way to be put inside the box. And the maker of the pencil told the pencil

1) In the future, you would do great things, things that you cannot imagine doing. But you can only do these great things only if you let yourself to be held in your owner's hand.

2)From time to time, you will feel a sharpening pain, but that is essential for you to become a better pencil.

3)Remember, what is important, is your inside and not your outside.

After being told this things, the pencil was put inside the box. And that is the whole moral of the story..

We as humans can do great things, things that we can never imagine doing, but only if we allow to be held in God's hand

From time to time, we will definitely face obstacles and challenges and that is essential in our growth. This is where our sharpening pain comes in, in order for us to be a better person and be more matured.

And remember, God looks at the inside of a person and not the outside. We can go to church, or temple or any religious place everyday, but that does not mean we are pious or good people. Being good means we help people around us, being good means not laboring hatred to one another. Being good means we need to forgive. Being good means we need to LOVE..

and i know it is not easy to love the people around us, when we don't get love from them.. why should we love the people who doesn't love us? it doesn't make much sense does it? But remember this

JESUS LOVES YOU.. He loves all of us alike, both good and bad. Yes Yes, i know some people out there don't believe in Him, and this is sooooo a bias perception of mine, say it however you want to say it, but yeah.. He loves all of us..

And so when we don't get love from the world, and find it hard to love, turn to Him and you will find love.

Even if you don't understand what i am trying to say here, remember the story of the pencil.

God Bless~

Laughing Kung Fu

Oh.. i have devised a new Kung Fu which i dubbed as Terence Mean Laughing Kung Fu..

as the name says it, my laughing is very mean and it kinda conveys that 'i am belittle-ing you and that is soo impossible to happen'

it kinda works normally with Evie.. hahaha.. and she got most of my laughing kung fu la.. poor her..

God Bless~

Innocence

Today i encountered something really cute.. since i long time didn't go cycling already, i decided to go for a spin this evening..

Long time didn't cycle, bicycle no air already la.. so went to the nearest gas station to pam air.. but then the pam rosak la.. i meant it is spoilt. so decided to go over to the bicycle shop to put some gas into my tyre.. but then, the shop not open.. =.=;

so went to the second nearest gas station and the gas machine works.. so got my bicycle pumped and then my journey starts.

I went cycling around my 'taman' and then i stopped at one of the field to get reflexology.. there were 2 boys there with their grandfather i suppose.. and after i finish torturing my feet by walking on the stones, i continued my journey

but but but.. before i got onto my bicycle, the 2 boys earlier... they... they.. they.. they... they...

they urinated in public, in the middle of the field, watering the plants with their natural fertilizer... and i was like o.O??? to O.O...

hahaha.. i couldn't remember the last time i did that.. memories are sooo easily forgotten.. :p

but their innocence are sooo admirable la.. if i were able to do that now, hmm.. i wonder how would the people around me reacted.. maybe like jaw drop to the ground and bounces back??

God Bless~

Newphews and nieces

As i have mentioned in my earlier blog, (like 2 minutes ago) i have quite a number of nephews and nieces.. hehe.. i am an official 'uncle' XD

well they are cute ok.. hehehe.. here are some of the photos..



This is Joshua. Sorry ler.. a bit blur

This is Aurelia (Joshua's big sis) .. oh no.. i don't know how to spell her name.. XD

This is Donna..

This is her torturing me
This is me getting back at her.. :p

Ain't she cute... awesome..

Well if u have real bad eyes, you probably haven't notice that Donna does not look local.. and yes.. she is not.. she is of mix blood.. that's what is so special about her.. lalala~

There was once when i was playing with Donna, and we were teasing each other.. *it's really dumb.. and i shall spare you the details*

but after some teasing, she said "you shen ching ping" (means you mentally retard or something along that line la)

i was like wert?? where did u learn that from.. speechless.. hahahaha.. but the way she pronouced it is sooo cute, and yet the pronounciation is not off.. unlike KM's version of mandarin... XD

God Bless them all

Marriage

My cousin got married yesterday.. I have always love to go for wedding masses (relatives ones :p), because the joy and excitement is just there... love is in the air..

makes me feel that this world is not as cold as it seems afterall.. *how could marriages be cold right??*

i love it when the priest ask the question

" name, do you take name to be your husband/wife? Do you promise to be true to him/her in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love him/her and honor him/her all the days of your life?"

i love it even more when they say "i do" (well so far i haven't encounter the answer "i do not" but that would be soooo dramatic.. i would prefer the "i do" :p)

maybe those words are just customary, but do we sit down and think of the meanings of those words? how powerful and how meaningful those words are...

would you really be able to do that all the days of your life??? it's not simple you know.. at the moment of marriage, it might seem really simple because you are SOOO in love... but think of it a little deeper, and you would realise that it is not as simple as it sounds..

anyway.. i got the pictures of the bride and the bridegroom.. yay!!

This is them.. my cousin is the bridegroom

His name is Simon and his wife is Liz

For his marriage, i got to see quite a number of my nephews and nieces too.. YAY!! they are soooooo super uber cute.. will show it in the next post.. hehehe

May God Bless Simon and Liz

Have a nice day..

God Bless~

Kind Hearted Malaysians

Tons of things to blog today.. but cannot finish by now because I am going to go play ball soon... mwehehe...

so i would start off with my experience a few days ago when my dad was fetching me to college.

my dad didn't really close his car door tight, and an Indian man who was driving a lorry honned him.. and made him realise that his door isn't shut tight..

this encounter showed me that Malaysian is indeed a caring lot.. even from different races, and even if they don't know you..

despite the stupid politicians, despite the fight for own race's benefits, i am still proud to be a Malaysian simply because the people here are kind and are willing to lend a helping hand... high with gemeinshaftsgefuhl.. of however u spelt it (lazy to check la.. :p)

talking about Malaysia, i went to batu pahat these 2 days, and i am glad to see tanah merah.. (it's erm... red soil)

in kl.. i think it would be very hard to find tanah merah, and seeing that makes me nostalgic about my life. nostalgic about the life of Malaysia as well, i might be too young to say that.. but yeah i do feel that..

it's very easy to differentiate between KL and non KL.. for one, in KL, just look up the sky and u can see tons of skyscaper.. and our 'beloved' KLCC

however, in melacca (i went there too) and Batu pahat, when u look up, what u see is the trees and blue sky without any obstruction from skysrapers.. and that made me feel good about being there..

While we are all striving and chasing for improvement, let us not forget that what we have comes from earth, and don't abuse mother nature for the sake of our greed.

Lamo

OH.. today all of us are at our max level for being LAME!!!

so lame was i that Evie asked me whether it is the time of the month.. =.=;

but all other also lame ok.. especially Shyuan... *jian.. ding.. finger comes up* =.=;

After class today, we kidnapped Jian and brought him somewhere to eat.. before went in the restaurant, some smart people decided to wrap his head until like little red riding hood..

really lor.. i didn't see the logic behind this.. but anyway.. that's that.

oh my goodness.. when we went in the restaurant that time.. everyone.. and i mean EVERYONE was looking at us one kind...

because Jian was blindfolded, 'handcuffed' and well, wrapped like little red riding hood. real real EMBARASSING man... the reactions of the people there are like... wert??

petrified for a few second.. they went to lala land to check whether or not they are in reality.. i can still remember their faces when we went in.. the aunty who was eating stopped eating totally and just looked at us with her mouth wide open...

even the waiter of the restaurant was like looking at us and.... laughing.. err... i shall describe his laugh as... 'very shocked-cum-dumb-cum-don't know what to react' laugh. aper aper sajalah..

ate porridge steamboat and got the pictures on evie's baby.. so will upload the photos next time *this is the bad thing when u don't have own camera.. what to do?? always have to say the same old thing "upload next time" *

hahaha

God Bless

oh oh.. i know my blogs recently is lack of substance la.. hang on for a little while more..

will upload a blog regarding memory soon.. after i finish my 103 lab report.. and memory is interesting.. whee~

Wobly Wobly

ahhahaha..

November 13th and 14th morning (today)

Yesterday after class someone was adamant about playing volleyball.. so we went to Bangsar Sports Complex to book court lor (the volleyball people didn't book the court because they were having exams i think)

so we went and book the court and managed to book from 4 till 6 after intensive interrogati0n. XD .. (no la.. it wasn't so much of interrogation la.. we just need to ask a few more questions)

so very happy then go Mc D in Telawi makan... while makaning, then somebody who loves Jay Chou a lot came in... Miss Yue Ying.. XD

then makan makan, suddenly rain.. from very the hot then rain.. rain quite heavily some more.. that didn't dampen our spirit to play volleyball.. after makan, we still went to the court to wait for the rain..

and here is the interesting part.. hehehe... that someone earlier who was adamant to play volleyball, because he was too lazy to go to toilet and change his attire, he changed in front of me.. ooo wobly wobly... hahaha.. no la.. not exactly in front of me la.. but beside me la.. we were sitting in his car and yeah

it was raining mer.... so change in the car only lor... *wink wink Evie*

then we waited for people to come cause we got no volleyball.. waited until like 4.50 i think.. then 3 girls came holding 1 volleyball... but that's it.. only 5 of us played.. haih.. so sad.. hahaha

got myself all wet then went back.. because my shirt was all wet and i didn't bring additional cloths to change, so i took off my cloths while on my way back.. ooo wobly wobly.. hahaha.. haih.. my fats kena exposed already.. what to do..

came home then yah the rest is history la.. ooo at night was fun though.. chatted with ah bit.. whee~ antisocial la she.. oh.. i hope she isn't reading this.. :p

but today my dad woke me up... he said something like.. sports complex people called.. u took the net home arr?? OOOOOOOOOOO... no.. we forgotten to gave the net back to them... sheeeeeessshh.. raining mer.. the net put inside car, we went home liao.. forgotten to give them back the net..

haih.. must ma fan leng chai to send the net back there.. thanks ya.. hehehe

God Bless~

Krakow

Today i read the papers and came across this wonderfully magnificent town in Poland name Krakow..

the pictures are soooo beautiful, and i am going to go there someday.. just imagining me being there gets me excited..

the papers says that it is filled with great history, like buildings of over 800 years.. 800 years u know??

For Malaysia, there is a great hu-hah over 50 years.. but for them.. it's 800 years.. WOW!!

Some pics of Krakow

Basilica in Krakow, Poland

Church in town square

Typical Krakow street

Beautiful city Krakow..

AWESOME ISN'T IT?? ME GOING TO GO THERE SOMEDAY.. YEAH!!!

God Bless~

A-Z

Although things are not perfect
Because of trial and pain
Continue in thanksgiving
Do not begin to blame
Even when the times are hard
Fierce winds are bound to blow
God is forever around
Hold on to what you know
Imagine life without His love
Joy would cease to be
Keep thanking Him for all the things
Love imparts to thee
Move out of the 'Camp Complaining'
No weapon that is known
On earth can yield the power
Praise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
Redeem the time at hand
Start everyday with worship
To thank is a command
Until we see Him coming
Victorious in the sky
We'll run the race with gratitude
Xalting God most high
Yes, there'll be good times and some will be bad
Zion waits in glory.. where none are ever sad

Blame It on Me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that I've done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry am not always there for my sons
I’m sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl


I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me


You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn’t agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief

I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry that your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me


You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young

I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
For rising backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

[Sorry, Blame Me lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Pics of Treasure Hunt

I finally got the pictures of the treasure hunt.. but after looking at it, i didn't really want to put it.. i will only put one of it here.. haha.. other photos a bit ugly. XD...

God Bless~

Treasure Hunt

3rd November 2007

Today is the day... the day of HELP's treasure hunt... woke up at 5.50 and get ready to go to bangsar station.. suppose to meet up with LK Meng at 7.05..

but some smart fella overslept and only woke up at what??? 6.50 hah.. what's that la?? but typical la ya.. hahaha.. speed to college like crazy like that.. so scared that we are late for registration.. but not that late also la.. ok ok la..

our team's name is... jeng jeng jeng.. Himbo Bimbo... wakaka.. and if u think that's lame, you are sooooo wrong man.. i tell you, HELP's people can come up with the laaaamest name ever man...

some of the participants name were like.. Thunder Cats.. i was like.. ahh... how lame can they be? some more got name such as 'Friends of Marcus Lim' o.O... who's marcus lim anyway?

oo oo.. still got names like The Losers, The Seekers and No Idea. A lot of strange and lame names la all over.. so ours is not that bad ok.. wakakaka

we got number 23 and started from HELP University College... oh.. we wanted to pose like super posers before going, but then no camera.. haih.. haih.. haih.. hahaha..

we were handed 2 set of papers, 1 set is the tulips, and another set is the questionnaire and we are suppose to look for answers to complete it.

so there we go and first stop is somewhere near Sentul.. not really sure where la.. but somewhere near there... then proceed to Jln. Ipoh and then KLCC, then to Bukit Bintang, and then Petaling Street... then continue to PJ SS2 and then went to The Curve in Damansara Utama (i think) then continue to TTDI and Sunway, on the way erm... we got a called from the organizers that it's over..

we are asked to go straight to the finishing line which is HELP ICT in Klang. so we drove there, not going to some of the places that we are suppose to go..

reach there already, they told us our marks will not be calculated because we exceed the time limit.. and we were like 'what??'

other people who take the shortcut and go straight to the finish line actually can win just like that.. they actually kinda lost half way through the game and then because all of us know the finishing line is in HELP ICT, they went there first, and that is how they won.. grrrr...

reach there got some performance in their auditorium, real cold man inside.. after the performances, we went to play bowling, and i am not the loser.. lala lala la la..

then after playing bowling, we played basketball shoot out.. hahaha.. all sot sot already.. throw like nobody's business. XD

then we went to Boston to eat whey.. don't play play.. know where is that or not?? the famous Boston also don't know ar?? nevermind la.. if u not Klang people, i don't blame you.. no la.. it's actually a Chinese restaurant la.. nothing to do with famousness and steaks...

ate quite full and then play some dumb game la.. Meng.. got lau sai or not?? XD XD...

then went to shyuan's house and then took her camera out and took some photos la.. what else right?? morning cannot take photos, take at night la.. wakakaka..

all day long, i was singing like a rapper... and why is that?? i don't know la.. maybe it's because my Big shirt that makes me looks baggy... but i seriously doubt the correlation la... haha :p

when u are given a lemon, make lemonade... when u are given a baggy shirt, sing like a rapper.. wakakaka..

came home, real tired.. oh oh oh.. they bought me a bag for my birthday present.. awww so sweet.. hahaha... thanks a lot guys.. appreciate it ya.. next time buy me erm.. shoe, car and condo.. XD

looks like Shyuan is not going to send me the photos like... now.. so will upload it later..

God Bless~

Great Day.. Yay

1st November 2007

Starting of November, and it already is a great day, because of a few things..

Today's LLS is not bad.. we actually learned how to say ' I love you' in a few languages..

but then i only can remember a few.. let me list them down here.. hehe.. (i don't confirm the correctness in this ok.. don't hold me liable for it!!!)

korean : sarangheo (love to friends), tarangheo(love to sweetheart)
spanish : de'amour
japanese: aishteru (or something that sounds like that la)

ok that's the 3 that i remember.. obviously Miller's magic number 7 don't work well on me.. not so magical after all huh?? XD

and obviously, Franklin is soooo Shyuan when he says "it's not what you say, it's how you say it"

went to church today, and heard something similiar, but not so similiar..

Andrew Manikam, in his sermon quoted Mother Theressa's words

It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in what you do

It is not how much you give, but how much love you put in while giving

and, in his sermon, i found out what i am going to say for my MC 100's presentation.. woo hoo.. look out for it ya.. XD

and yeah... today is just a great day, started with a funny meeting/discussion. then went to a nice LLS class and a sugar high MC 100 class.

PTPTN

oh oh.. got those sweets from MC 100 class that is like sooooo super long tak makan dy... memories of the good old days la.. then got people fetch me home somemore you know..

Thanks Khoi Yit.. evie.. evie.. are you reading this?? :p

got great dinner, basically great day la.. hehehe

God Bless~

Crystal

Nah.. that's crystal.. eeeeehehehehe

Lame Comeback

25th Oct 2007

Today is my birthday.. and the best part of the day is that i heard so many lame jokes... serious stuffs.. Crystal, the 'LAME Queen' have so many lame jokes that sitting with her for half an hour can easily make u numb with lameness... hahaha..

Kah Meng, got some lame jokes too, but Crystal is the lamest la.. with the big fat L on her forehead.. hahaha.. during lunch today, some of the lame jokes are as follows:

Crystal's Joke

1) Farmer A sells fish, Farmer B sells vegetables. What does Farmer C sells?
Medicine..

Y? Farmer C (pharmarcy) sweat right??


2) Where does the papa pig and mama pig bring their baby pig?
Pig-nic

3) a pig got into an accident. How did it end up in the hospital?
Hambulans

4) Crystal: tell u all a dirty joke
All of us: *listening attentively*
Crystal: A white horse falls into the mud
All: So?
Crystal: That's the dirty joke la.. the horse got dirty... dirty joke -.-;

Kah Meng's Joke

1) What sound does a person falling from the fifth floor do?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr *piak*

what sound does a person falling from 100th floor do?
aaaarrrrr *takes breath* aaaaarrrr *takes breath* aaaaarrrrrr *piak*

what sound does a person falling from the first floor do?
*piak* aaaarrrrrr

2) What is the heaviest noddle on the whole wide world?
wanton mee (one tonne mee)

3) who is the mightiest person on earth?
the person who created wanton mee... hahahaha

Yeah.. that's the best part of my day today la.. hahaha.. Ade.. died from lameness yet? XD

And oh.. for those who don't know who Crystal is, oh well.. i wanted to upload her photo, but apparently, the connection doesn't like me... so can't upload it.. hahaha

The next thing that i got was lots of wished from friends far and near la.. didn't knew i am so erm... memorable and missable.. XD

God Bless~

Ouch!! -ed

Today i got slapped by Evie.. hahaha.. wait.. i kena slapping wor.. y still so happy 1??

Listen to the story ler..

we were sitting in level 2, KPD E, waiting eagerly for Nadri to finish his class.. so in the meantime, she and i was tying the presents for the orphanages.

when i was tying, suddenly... and i mean SUDDENLY.. *spanks*

she slapped me, just like that with no warning at all.. i was like 'huh???????? what have i done???'

and in front of us is a female whom we don't know.. and she was like looking at me, with the same expression on my face.. shocked..

i also looked at her, because i don't know how to react.. social referencing...hahaha

then i asked Evie, "y did u slapped me?"

her answer : oh sorry sorry... got mosquito.

me: =.=; ouched!!

oh by the way, the mosquito managed to flew away.. hahaha..

after that, for the rest of the day, i learned how to make a puppet using a socks, and then finish painting the banner.. YEAH!!

then evie belanja us dunkin doughnuts too.. YEAH!!

God Bless~

You and Me

When i was in form 4, i went to Ipoh for my Confirmation camp. And during one of those days in the camp, the facilitator throw us a question..

WHO ARE YOU?

he asked us to ponder on it and come up with an answer.. Well, maybe some of you who when seeing this question start to have a tune in your mind, which might probably sounds like this

I am who i am

A song sang by Guang Liang.. hahaha.. but u see, that does not answer the question, and if you are adamant that it does, here comes another question

WHAT DEFINES YOU?

Most of the people in this world go through their lives not knowing how to answer both of these questions. We wake up in the morning, go to work, come back, eat and sleep. Tomorrow, it will be the same routine all over again. Not realizing that we have fallen into the trap of chasing the wind.

Until we can really answer both of these question, we are still very much like a robot. Find your identities, and then you and i will know why we are here on earth

God Bless~

Jealousy and Contentment

Hurm.. let's see what sparks me to blog today.. My friend, who is in Kansas (i think) send me mail.. She always does it la.. to update me about her life over there..

She already sent me a few mails regarding her life over there.. and from her mail, it's like she is living her life to the fullest. Always having some crazy happening thing over there, having fun (in a good sense i hope) and her life is so interesting.. so much so that i began to sorta envied her..

Jealousy? maybe a bit la.. her life is like a... fairy tale, only that it doesn't end yet.. hahaha..
In her mail, she gave me a picture of what seems like an ideal world. Let me explain.. ideal world not as in always having fun, but ideal world as in people are always helping other people out regardless of nationality..

People from both end of the world can really support each other, and i was skeptical. Can humans really be that good? I mean, if there are one or 2 then it's fine la.. but from her mail, it's like her whole bunch of people there are kinda saints.. hahaha..

i wonder, if i was the one who is there, would i be like that? honestly speaking, i don't think so. it is her openness to absorb new things that amazes me. and how the people there are willing to help other people whom they have no idea about their background. but then again, thinking abit deeper, does background really matters when it comes to making friends and helping people out?

hurmm.. i want to experience what she experience, but.... i am still thankful about my life this very day.. Just this morning, i read an article in The Star and it was about how grateful we should be. Because our lives this very moment is so much better and more luxurious than what emperors of the past can ever imagine.

For example, for breakfast, a simple meal consisting of coffee, french toast and the daily newspaper. Coffee would come from urm.. i don't know.. Columbia? or South Africa? Somewhere la.. the peanut butter jam in the french toast would be produced at the factory, packaged to a very apetizing manner and sold to us at a portion that we would not deem too much nor too little. the bread would be be fresh and soft, easily found at any grocery shop. top with honey and a piece of butter. AH!!! fabulous.. with the newspaper, we can get the latest news not just locally, but also international news. how great is that??

oh well, u get my meaning don't u?? How many emperors in the past get that luxury? to know the news, they need to summon their personal newscaster. hahaha.. to get fresh fruit, the soldiers need to rush the fruit once plucked. Us? we have what we call a refrigerator to keep it fresh and with the airplane means to transport food, we get the best.

for transport, we can easily reach another state in maybe less than an hour? for them, they need erm.. days maybe?? we have air conditioner to keep us comfortable, TV to keep us entertained, phones to get us connected.. and of course.. Internet.. to read my blog la.. DUH!!

thinking about all these luxuries kinda diminished what i thought earlier in this blog

BLESSED?? YES DEFINITELY.. BOTH YOU AND I ARE VERY BLESSED

God Bless~

Micky

Oct 10th 2007

I woke up at 9 something, and i dreamt about something nice. I dreamt that i was carrying someone in my arms to this place where there are quite a number of people playing badminton. The journey to the badminton area was a sweet 1. hehe..Mun kiat and foo was there. Chak was there too.. haha.. for the rest, don't really remember much, some i know, some i don't. It was a good sleep because i woke up refreshed. Drolled quite a lot, good sleep. have not been getting enough rest lately.. hahaha

woke up, wash face, had breakfast, played game and bathed. Out to MidValley to meet Micky for one last time before she flies to India. Going to be a black girl there.. XD

Reached there at around 11.30. Met with Kai Yuan, (he is always the first to be there) and as usual, Micky is late. So went kai kai while waiting for them and then they came. Brought me to see 3 of their other friends whom i don't know. But it seems that they seen me before. o.O

what to do? i quite famous in HMC rite?? But i really don't know who they are.. lol.. i don't even know their name after today.. Met up with them then go eat lunch.. where did we ate?

we went to the FISHMARKET in MANHATTAN

Erm, it was quite a nice time there la.. the food is as usual, good lor.. they were talking among themselves and i was always listening. haha.. what to do? different 'click' mer.. Took some photos there, but haven't gotten the photos yet.. will put it up once i got them.. hehe

Then after lunch, went to play bowling.. haih.. memalukan myself only.. my first game i only scored 40 marks, and micky got 114. o.O didn't knew they can bowl quite well..

but they have the strangest bowling technique ever man... Serious stuff.. they way they bowl is very very extraordinary, and they even try a few very very very humiliating stuffs.. great laugh.. hahaha

then took a few more photos and I am back.

All in all, not a bad day la.. haha.. took photos and i am satisfied.. hope to get the photos soon

God Bless~

Simple Mindedness

today i thought of something.. simple minded people are people who live happily right? complex minded people are people who are exposed to many things.

And EDUCATION is one BIG exposure. So education actually leads to a complicated thought. Therefore, study leads to an unfulfilling complicated life.

People who are stupid, do they live happily? i think so, because they are not exposed to the many other things that they lack. they are stupid remember? they don't know lots of things. Thus they are sufficient with what they have. Rick rich people knows what is out there and continue taking from the none.

So in the end, who is stupid? stupid people who are satisfied? of rich people who aren't satisfied?

Bravo to stupid people for living a simple life with simple thinking.

God Bless~

Professionalism

Today i watched a show.. named "Just follow Law". i think the title is that la.. haha.. it's a singaporean movie, directed by Jack Neo starring Gurmit Singh (a.k.a Phua Chu Kang).

it's a really good show and as usual, something struck me..

the leading male character and leading female character somewhow exchanged souls. So the female's soul is now in a male's body and vice versa.

So they went to find doctor, doctor don't believe them

They see psychologist, they don't believe them

Finally, they turn to religious people. They went to a chinese temple and a ritual was performed on them.. but it failed la..

So after the ritual, the person who performed the ritual said to them

"wah, your case very bad. my powers not enough to heal. need the help of someone with higher power. i know this person la. i can introduce to you. 5000 only"

then one of the two replied "got guarantee or not?"

then he answered "guarantee? u see doctor got guarantee? must pay also no matter u heal or not. u hire lawyer, whether or not u are being judged guilty, u still need to pay money. I am a PROFESSIONAL."

he continued

"What does professional means? Professional means that i work hard, no guarantee and still get paid for it."

those words made me wonder... people in the society with so called professional qualifications, aren't they exactly like what was described? Seriously, they get paid, whether or not the problem is solved. Of course they do try la. but how hard?

With many reports on half past six doctors, i am truly worried about the present and the future. but oh well, that's life la. Life doesn't go according to what we want. Life are full of troubles and life is unfair.

God Bless~

Meaning of Life

Ah.. it is always good to know and hear something that is thought provoking.. these words are like food feeding my mind and heart... and yes, my mind and heart is hungry for wisdom.. oh sophia :p

Whenever i hear something great, i would want to so much share it with people, and that is one of the main reason this blog of mine is established. today i went to church for a vigil prayer for students who are going to sit for their examination.. and some of the words that the priests said struck me

1) Life does not end when u reach your destination. Life is a journey from birth till death.

Normally, we set a goal for ourselves, for example, i would want to be a doctor, pilot, or a psychologist.. and when we get there, our life did not end. Life is a journey, and not a race to a destination.. that is why, even after reaching our life's destination, we still continue on living..
which brings us to the second point

2) Life is a journey. Slow down and ENJOY it~

Often a time, we find ourselves so busy in our work that we forget we are living. Enjoy, Enjoy, Enjoy

3) You go to church, not to find Jesus. You find Jesus in your life's journey. And then you come to church and give Him thanks.

If you can't find Jesus in your life's journey, you are lost. A church is not a place to seek Jesus, rather it is a place of worship and giving Him thanks. Have u thought of it that way?

4) Future is not what that will become of you. It is what YOU make out of it. (Manikam, 2007)

Awesome quotation from Fr. Andrew Manikam. We should seize opportunity, and not just let it come. WOW!! so good

Hope that these quotation will help you to realize more about life and treasure it. As Mr Franklin says it,

"When realization occurs, that is the time when growing occurs. Because when you realize something, you know what is the problem and the problem is no more a problem. A problem is a problem because you don't know the problem. (Morais, 2007)

God Bless~

Stingy-ness

I am a very stingy person.. why u ask me? erm.. i don't really like to spend my money unneccesarily. i rarely buy anything for myself, except for food that is.. clothing also very few la..

where do i get this attitude from? my dad definitely.. haha.. so let's check how stingy i actually am ya..

Shoes: Haven't bought a pair of shoes in.. let's see... 3 years
School Bag: Haven't bought any in... 2-3 years
Wallet: the last time i bought my wallet in in 2002 i think.. LOL
Socks: last bought in 2004-2005 i think
Underwear: 2-3 years also la..
Pencil box: Had been using the same old pencil box which my sis bought for me in 2004.. so 3 years liao.. the last time i bought a pencil box was........... i can't remember

So where i get all these things if i don't buy them?? ok now the list

Shoes: My brother's shoes.. have been wearing 2 of his shoes which he doesn't wear anymore..

School bag: My brother's bag as well.. last time he uses it to go school.. i would assume when it
was ninja turtle was still popular... a good 10 years? wah.. the bag i am using got 10 years history.. antique man.. hahaha

Wallet: Last time the blue colour 1, my sis bought for me. Now the black colour one is my bro give me

Socks: Last bought in pasar malam.. now those all got holes, but still wearing.. then got some socks as present last year.. hurm.. not bad

Underwear: Ah.. this one i bought myself la.. haha.. eh wait.. did i? or was it a present? hurm.. forgot liao.. also got holes all around *oops*

Pencil box: sister bought for me.. still using now..

now u see how stingy i can be? you might be thinking that i got things because people gave me, but not really... if people don't give, i still won't buy, will keep using the old thing as long as it is still use-able.. hahaha

i feel pity to my future... erm.. girlfriend for having a stingy bf like me :p

so you should be lucky for not becoming my gf.. whoever is reading this.. wakaka XD

God Bless~

oh ya.. maybe one thing is i got lots of God's blessing.. so that is why eventhough i don't buy, i get.. see how He works? hee~

Farewell Party

Today there was a farewell party for a friend of mine by the name of Paul. the party was held in church and it was a potluck...

well before the event, me and Adrian(president of the Altar Server) was very worried because very few people came up and say that they would contribute something to the potluck.. so we just hope for the best today..

but we ended up with too much food.. haha.. which is a good thing.. no food was wasted however.. we like typical Malaysians... 'dapao' la.. wakaka

a few senior server was there.... namely Clement and Julian.. it was good, brings back memories about how i sooooo love to serve with them

Marcus, Paul, Julian, Clement.... last time it was really encouraging to serve with them on the altar.. I would just feel fun, and the joy was there... hard to put the feeling into words i guess..

Memories of the past flood back to me, our PD trip in 2002, a really awesome trip which i still remember clearly.. Lawrence was there at that time and it was good... it was the time that we really bonded with each other.. Last year's Genting trip was not that bad also..

Besides servers retreat, sunday school's retreat also came back to me..

Form 1 (2001) : IJ Convent
Form 2 (2002) : PD retreat (Servers)


College (2006): Genting (Servers)

Somewhere in between 2002 and 2006, went to Ipoh for confirmation camp and Kickstart in church. There was once also when i went to Penang and that was in Form 3 i think.... oh just remembered.. i went for a Bible camp in Archdioces Pastoral Centre in form 4 i think.. or was it form 5? either 1 la.. haha.. can't really remember well..but the memories are still there.. haha..

Oh College General(Penang) is awesome.. if u can see the sun rising at the chapel, it's really really breathtaking..

Everytime go for church outing, definitely will have some issues going on...DEFINITELY... more often than not, it's about two parties arguing and i would be the bystander.. hahaha.. everyone would get themselves involve in the conflict, so i be spectator only lor..

oh, coming back to the farewell, it was a good time to chill around since most of us are going our separate ways soon.. there are so much food that everyone ate till their content and yet still got extra

Paul says "this is better than buffet man." hahaha

there have been a few farewell's this year.. starting with Ade, Rachel, now Paul, and very soon Micky i suppose..

Well to those who are reading this, i think not much you will understand.. haha.. sorry for that, just want to jot down some great memories of mine, because the feeling is there...

God Bless~

Listen

Enjoy~

Steamboat Night

yesterday, my group and I gathered to discuss about our presentation for MC 100.. and our topic was on... erm... evie what was it on again?? XD

something like how to conduct effective group meeting la.. and although our group took quite some time in discussing about it, we did finish quite a big portion of it.. which is really good..

so what we planed to do for our presentation was... to make video clips and show it in class.. so Mr. Lam took our his camera and his wonderful dipod(later it became a tripod). then we started to act some scenes.... but we burst out with laughter..

oo oo.. before the shooting of the scenes.. some things that are said are soooo funny..

Scene 1...

Meng: Make the scenes now la..

Evie: Don't 1 la..

Meng: Y? you want to go back make up is it?

Evie: Duh! *showing her duh! look to meng*... and seriously.. what evie did at that moment got us all laughing out loud.. literally.

Scene 2

Evie: Jian, no cap allowed in the scenes
Jian: I don't care.. my hair so messy
Evie: Meng, ask Jian to take off his cap for the scenes..Jian u can go and put water on your hair..

hahaha..

Now after the first shooting scene, we played back the scene on the camera.. and then Meng suddenly realizes something (which he should have in the first place). Then he asked his sis..

Meng: eh.. this camera's voice recording spoilt already right?
Meng Sis: Yup *her look when she said 'yup' is like SUPER HAPPY*(Maybe u guys didn't realise it, but i did..)

then our efforts are in vain and we were hungry.. so went to eat steamboat... yay.. BBQ steamboat, 19.80 eat until u die.. literally..

reach there, raining that time, then choose a nice place and start cooking already.. it had been a long time since i ate BBQ steamboat.. and it was great this time.. a time to chill and eat and laugh..

all of us ate a lot and Evie... well she got unwell from eating too much *didn't know that that could happen to her o.O*

i ate and ate and ate.. didn't really felt full yet when all of them say they are soooo full.. kept on eating.. after finish eating, then only i felt full when i was on my way home.. hahaha

pictures of that night

Photos came from her phone.. this is Evie

This is Jian

This is the lovely but always PDA-ing couple, Meng and Shyuan

And of course.. this GAYA person must be.. me lar..

Hmm.. after steamboat.. something extraordinary happened some more.. i was on my way home, in the Purta LRT.. and reading the book that Evie borrowed to me..

in front of me are 3 malay guys.. and i was listening to my MP4 at that moment.. so i wasn't really listening to what they are talking about..

after a while, i got bored of the book and kept it in my bag.. and then one of the malay guy in front of me looked at me while saying to his friend

"eh ya juga ye.. dia ni comel juga" o.O i was erm... dumbfounded.. i just smiled at them.. maybe they thought i didn't hear them speaking cause i was listening to my MP4, but i did..

i soooo want to say to them.. "Aku comel ye? terima kasih ye.. "

hah hah hah

God Bless~

Of old man and women

yesterday i went cycling around my taman, and went to a field. that field have the reflexology place, where you can walk on the stone and get your feet 'massaged'... hahaha

so when i reached there, i saw a group of old men sitting around the table and chatting with each other.. i didn't really look much at them, lest they think i am disrespectful to look at them so long.. i went to get my feet 'massaged' then i left.. pain man.. hahaha..

then i continue my journey on my bicycle and i cycled to the other side of the field. and to my amazement, i now saw a group of old women sitting together having their chat.. LOL.. sexist group?? XD

maybe these old women are the wives of the old men?? since their husbands got their men talk, they also want their women talk.. LOL.. just a thought that came through my when i saw that..

then i thought to myself... where would i be if i am old? would i be with a group of old men? mixing with old women as well? or would i already be dead?

God knows..

Have a nice day and

God Bless~

Total Eclipse of the Heart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never
coming round
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to
the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best
of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see
the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of
something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying
like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've
got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see
the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

INSTRUMENTAL

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, Every now and then I know you'll never be the boy you always
wanted to be
Turnaround, Every now then I know you'll always be the only boy who
wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's no one in the universe as
magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, Every now and then I know there's nothing any better and there's
nothing that I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
Turn around bright eyes
Turn around bright eyes
Turn around

Love is Beautiful

Enjoy~

Key to Heaven

Once, someone asked Jesus

"Lord, is it true that few people will be saved?"

Jesus answered "Do your best to enter by the narow door, for many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able. When once the master of the house had got up and locked the door, you will stand outside; then you will knock at the door calling: 'Lord, open to us."

Luke 13: 23-25

This was part of the Gospel reading for today and the priest's sermon was very good.. so i thought of sharing it with whoever is reading it now.. hehe..

Do your best to enter by the narrow door, for many will try and will not succeed.

Now Jesus said that the door to Heaven is narrow.. Why is that so? Why does God wants to make us suffer by going through the hard way?Isn't God all loving and kind?

What God wants to tell us today is that although He is loving and kind, He only permits those who deserves it. So what qualifies us to enter His Kingdom then??

Is it by being a priest? By holding position in the church? By going to Sunday mass and listening to the Word of God?

NO!!!!!

The only thing that qualifies us to go to Heaven is this

LIVING OUR FAITH..

If we were to treat the people around us in kindness, in giving alms and self sacrifice, that would qualify us to enter the Kingdom of God. It definitely is not bad to hold position in church, to come every Sunday and listen to the Word of God.. but the thing is..

Do we live our faith OUTSIDE of the church, or are we only faithful in a confinement of the church compound?

that is the challenge, to live our Christian faith outside of the church.

If our faith is only confined inside the church, we might find ourselves outside, knocking and knocking at the door, but the door will not be opened..

I will end with a short story..

A dying sewer asked his brothers to come together before he dies.. when they are all gathered, the dying brother said to his brothers

"Bring me my key to Heaven"

all the other brothers were puzzled at their eldest brother request. Again their eldest brother said

"Bring me my key to Heaven"

this time, they realized what their eldest brother wanted.. and they brought to him a needle.
the dying brother said

"with this small needle, i worked day and night to build the Kingdom of God."

What is your key to Heaven my brothers and sisters in Christ?

So what if you are a poor sewer? as long as you do good, it doesn't matter what your position in the world is..

God Bless~

Malaysian

It's been a long time since i last blogged.. part of it is because i have nothing much to blog, and another part of it is attributed to... no mood to blog.. hurmm..

today i was in Giant doing some shopping and there is a long queue at the counter. in front of me is this indian guy, holding a pair of shoes.. he only has one item which is the shoe..

in front of him is 2 malay women who have tons of things on their trolly. so u know what they did? they gave way to the indian guy to pay for his shoes first..

wow.. now that's WOW.. in this world where we live in now, to see that act of kindness, it really showed me that our world is not lost of hope.. in a world where human bite human, it's refreshing to see people treating other people so kind, eventhough they are of different religion and race..

Malaysian Spirit? haha.. maybe.. as we celebrate our 50th Merdeka, let us not forget the people around us who share the same land and sky..

Happy Independance Day..

MERDEKA!!

Of front brain and mid brain

Poor shyuan.. hahaha.. these few days i always tell her that her front brain is not working and her mid brain is taking control.. she has no idea what i am talking about i suppose.. hehe.. so i am going to explain a bit on what i am all talking about

Last sunday, in The Star (Fit for Life) there is an article on how our brain works when we are in love.. so all information i got is from that paper..

to start, our brain is divided into three parts which are the hind brain, the mid brain and the front brain..

the hind brain controls all our coordination and balancing, the front brain controls all our thinking and reasoning.. that is where all our logic comes from.. whereas the mid brain.. jeng jeng jeng.. controls our primitive instinct like LOVE(cough shyuan cough), sex and hunger.

so the article says that during lovey-dovey period, the front brain gives way to the mid brain to do the thinking.. which u might already know now that mid brain isn't really thinking.. that is why people who are in love do really dumb things.

for example.. you in your right mind won't drive from perak to johor in a single night.. but for a loved one, you will..

the front brain might be saying :oh come on.. you are tired, u need some rest or else u might have an accident

but the mid brain will say something like: shut up.. my love is in trouble.. and i will be there..

so generally when people are in love, they really sometimes do dumb things no matter how smart they are, because their mid brain is in control.. not really the person's fault but it's just biological.. hehehe

God Bless~

The Good in Hurting

Newspapers are great source of reading material aren't they? I love it most when they have some articles that i can really relate to.. haha like today's The Star (StarMag)

The title of the article is 'The Good in Hurting' and it is written by A. Asohan..

in his article, he gave a few prominent names (which i have never heard of.. XD) and relate how their failure and hurts builds their lives.. to quote the article

"It is through pain that we define ourselves, it is through hardship that we rise higher"

I agree with that statement, but another statement struck me more.. and it got me thinking because i never realised it until like... i read it.. Homer(from the Simpsons) must have been 'D'oh-ing me for not realizing that.. but lets see whether or not u realise it ok.. hehe..

the fact is

"We do less thinking when we are happy. Joy is experiential, sorrow is cognition."

now wait a minute.. sorrow?? that is cognition?? u realise that?? only after reading that and starting to think, yeah.. it does make sense.. we always think about the bad things and "why me" when things go wrong.. but when things go right, we are just happy and rarely we will think "why me? why am i happy?" so true ya..

to continue the article:

"We feel more when we're happy, we think more when depressed. When we are happy, we don't think about it. But there's a powerful need in us want to explain our pain, to dwell on it, to examine it meticulously. We are more creative in expressing our sorrows than we are in expressing our joys."

that got me thinking of another question.. why so? why do humans only think when in their sad times and not think when in their good times? is it because hurts are associated with failure and thus we tend to look at why we fail rather than why we succeed? hmm.. i don't have an answer to that.. maybe i will take this question to Dr. Goh.. mwehehe..

oh and by the way, i haven't watch The Simpsons yet

God Bless~

Memories

yesterday night when i was on the verge of sleeping, tons of past memories came flooding into my mind... memories of my primary school friends, how we played police and thief, how we played lastik-lastik, catch tadpoles, catching spiders and fighting with it.. how life was so worry-less.. haha

then came memories of my secondary school.. how we used to sit behind and talked about all the funny and 'yam' things.. hahaha.. how i loved my add maths tuition teacher.. Ah Seng..

then came to my foundation year.. how much have i learnt about work that year.. mainly from Student Council ler.. miss Mel's bimbo-ism and her sheepish laughter.. haha.. and yes.. how can i forget last year's ball.. C'est Magnifique..

It really was a great experience.. words can't discribe it...

How could i forget all the wonderful friends i found there?? haha.. we have gone through thick and thin and have lots of trips together for holidays.. like PD, Bukit Tinggi, River and Barbeque night..

sad.. sad to say this holiday didn't go anywhere.. before holiday begun, we got plans on where to go.. but time passes and we didn't go anywhere..

but all of those are very sweet memories.. thank God for blessing me so much

God Bless~

Growing up and racial unity?

Today i was soooooooooooo bored that i went out to take a ride on my bicycle.. i took a few rounds around my taman and i was cycling beside my primary school(it's a kebangsaan school by the way).. as the field of the school is beside the road, i can see clearly what is going on in the field of the school..

and i saw something really magnificent.. a lot of boys are playing football together and the girls are playing with their skipping rope.. but that is not the awesome part.. haha

a stone's throw away, a chinese boy is playing alone.. he is playing with sands and apparently he is building his own sand kingdom..

i stopped cycling and performed my NATURALLISTIC OBSERVATION.. muahaha.. u guys didn't think that was coming right?? XD XD

not long after that, a malay boy joined in to play with the chinese boy, and he started to build sand castles too.... by using a con.. then came in another malay boy and finally an indian boy joined them..

they all played together without any ristrictions among them, as if they were from the same backgrounds... and it got me pondering, does growing up have a negative effect towards racial unity?

as far as i remember, i WAS once very close with my malay and indian counterparts. i do have lots of good malay friends when i was in primary school like badiuz, yasir, faidi, and aiman. but over the course of time, we drifted apart..

i wonder how people from chinese schools get along with malay and indians.. and how tamil schools get along with chinese and malay in the future...hurmm.....

i believe that racial unity can be achieved

"if only we can see the world through the eyes of our young ones."

God Bless~

Beautiful Girl

You're way too beautiful girl
Thats why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn, all these beautiful girls
They only want to do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say its over

See it started at the park
used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
Thats when we fell apart
cause we both thought, that love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young, to get ourselves sprung
Ooh we didn't care we made it very clear
And they also said that we couldn't last together (last together)
See it's very devine, you're one of a kind
But you mash up my mind, you haffi get declined
Oh lord, my baby is driving me crazy

(Chorus)
You're way too beautiful girl
Thats why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only want to do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say its over

It was back in 99
Watching movies all the time
Oh, when I went away for doing my first crime
And I never thought that we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down south
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be that she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
See it's very devine, you're one of a kind
But you mash up my mind, you haffi get declined
Oh lord, my baby is driving me crazy

(Chorus)
You're way too beautiful girl
Thats why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say its over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only want to do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say its over

Now were fussing and now were fighting
Please tell me why I'm feeling slighted
And I don't know how to make it better (make it better)
You're dating other guys, you're telling me lies
Oh I can't believe what I'm seeing with my eyes
I'm losing my mind and I don't think its clever (think its clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
Thats why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal

Work

Quite a number of days didn't update my blog already.. haha.. busy with my work.. as a telemarketer.. and that work is... not so suitable for me la..

it's very tiring too.. and because of that, i got flu and cough.. hahaha.. the good thing that i derived from this job though is talking as politely as possible to people.. a test of patience and endurance..

a brief explanation of my day.. get up 6.15 then off to work at around 7.00. reach office at 8.00 and start work.. lunch at around 12.. and then continue working until 5 something.. *they say work until 5, but normally they will hold us back for another few minutes* go eat dinner and sleep.. yeah.. that's about how my one week passed..

initially wanted to take photos with my so called superiors like Glenda and Adrian, but then see them so busy.. didn't take with them.. haha..

got take a few photos though with friends.. but i haven't got the photos yet.. will upload them once i got it.. eehehehe

LOL 6

What musical instrument that only has one string?? hahaha.. this is lame..
Think think


































A broken er hu.

XD

God Bless~

LOL 5

What part of the body grows bigger when stimulated? oh come on.. it's so simple..

think think







































Eyeballs.. hehehe

Selfishness

I am a very selfish person.. or at least that is what i think of myself..

i always do things thinking from my own perspective and i do things for my own advantage.. talk about egocentrism ya... hahaha

think about it ya.. when was the last time me and you go to the old folks home? or the orphanages? or any homes of the under-privilaged just to help out?

i've been once to old-folks home.. but that's because of my moral project.. and another time to orphanages, because of my LAN project... so if it weren't for these projects, i think i would have never stepped my feet inside..

for my LAN project, we were to find someplace where we can write about national integration.. so me and my friend, Yi Ling went around finding orphanages that offer a variety of races under 1 roof. we went to a couple of places.. and one incident struck me most

we stopped by this particular orphanage home, and this indian boy came and open up the door..

so we asked "sabtu ada buka ka?"
and he answered "ada.. kenapa? mau buat projek ka?"

i was dumb founded.. literally.. i don't know what to say, but that was the truth.... if it weren't for the project, i would not have winded myself there...

after a while.. i said "ya, buat projek"... it sucks.. but it's true.. i don't do much or care much about so many of these underprivilaged people..

the thing that i do for them is pray for them, and give donations at church..

God Bless~