Love and Falling in Love

Hah.. love and falling in love.. what's the difference? I got the difference from one of my friend's blog, and she got it from one of the lecture classes.. well at least someone's listening to lectures.. XD XD

so what's the difference? falling in love is the feeling. the feeling at one point of time

love on the other hand is a CHOICE.

to illustrate, let's take God as an example..

God LOVES us, He did not fell in love with us.. you see the difference? He choose to love us in spite of our lackings.. it's not He fell in love with us for that moment in time only.

So when u have feelings towards someone, ask yourself this question... do you fall in love with that person? or do you love that person?

of course, u need to at least have some feelings for that person before making a choice to love that person right? and for that, i do not disagree that we might need to fall in love first, but to sustain or to start a relationship, i think it is very important to ask ourselves whether we would make the choice to love that person, and not just falling for that person..

God Bless~

Oxymoron-ness

There are many shows nowadays which shows the paradoxical events in life. I am currently watching 2 of them, 1 of them i only catched it just now...

Pushing Daisies
Yes.. the name sounds girly but the story is kinda nice. This guy name Ned have the ability to make people come back from the dead for 1 minute by touching them. If the person is not touched again within that one minute, the person will continue living, but other person nearby would die. So what does he do with his ability? he wakes up the dead, ask who kills them, catch the bad guy and take the money. :D

It's paradoxical in a sense that it makes death less scary and inject a sense of humour in it. And also, Ned brought back his first love to life and now he cannot touch her or else she's going to die.. forever.. so they kiss using... hmm.. let's seee.. see through plastic wrapping paper.. yeah.. that's it.. they kiss with wrapping paper as their barrier. :D

A living man, with, a supposedly dead but living girl..

Reaper
Now i just catched this show just now... and IT'S AWESOME.. meng, dump your Grey's Anatomy and watch this.. XD.. seriously, the storyline is so cool.. So.. the main actor.. forgot his name.. his soul, is sold to the devil, by his parents. They initially do that to save the dad la.. so the condition is that the dad gets well, but when the child is 21 years old, he has to work for the devil..

So this poor child, don't know anything about the deal until when he's 21 and the devil actually came and find him. Oh is this devil handsome.. haha.. he's... smart, wearing a suit.. and what this devil wants the main actor to do is to bring back souls which have escaped from hell. some of the things the devil says really makes me think

he says hell is getting overcrowded, and that is why the problem of souls running away is rampant now..
hmm.. overcrowded, what does it say about humanity now? is it trying to pass a message?

by bringing back souls into hell, the main actor is, according to the devil, doing a good job by putting them in their place.. the soul that escaped today is a nasty soul la.. i don't know about upcoming episodes.. hmm.. if there are souls which repent.. i wonder what happens then?

"God always wins".. yeah.. that's what he said..

So now u have a devil, which wants to bring back souls which are already sentenced to hell because they cause harm to humans.. so is this devil in God's service? Makes you think twice doesn't it? oh no.. am i talking like Dr. Ng?

It's really good, it challenges my beliefs and it puts devil in a more humanistic way.. anyway.. i agree with what the devil says.. "God always wins".. don't worry ok.. i still believe in God

God Bless~

Interview

So.. i went for an interview on Monday at Menara Mutiara Bangsar. Should i talk about the getting there part? nah.. i shall spare it.. i will only talk about what he asked and what i answered... :)

1) Why Psychology?
Well, i chose psychology because i wanted to get to know more about people. And by that, hopefully i would be able to help them (before i answered this, i actually talked about my childhood dream - to be a sailor XD)

2)So what have u done with psychology?
I recently did a research on autism, how is the condition in Malaysia

3) So what have you found out
OK.. so this is the boring part.. i shall not make u bored and i shall skip it.. he asked a lot of questions about autism by the way

4) Do you know the theory of mind?
me - Nope
interviewer - it is when the child cannot put themselves into other people and see from their perspective. that is the reason children are autistic
(i soooo want to interject by saying yes yes.. i remember it, i seriously remembered it, but then i didn't say it out)

5) Why Teambuilders?
Cause this company provides training for people and that is what i want to learn. How to help people and at the same time enhance my communication skills. and.. to be honest, teambuilders are the few companies which have a minimum salary
(at this moment, chew chien, the girl who is taking down whatever i says said 'very honest' while giggling away)

6) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Well, I see myself graduating and then i will be joining Catholic Counselor and Therapies of Malysia (CCTM). By the time i graduate, i can't really be a practitioner yet, but hopefully i can be an assistant. Maybe be in a room to observe while practitioners do their stuffs

7) Who is your hero? (random question)
Definitely my dad. He is a single parent. My mum passed away in 1998 and it is not easy being a single parent. I would say he did an excellent job in bring up me and my siblings. He did great being a dad and a mum at a same time

8) What's the last book you read? (super random question)
Does comic counts? hahaha.. erm.. i don't really read books, except for psychology book. textbook that is. besides psychology book, i normally would read motivating books like 'who moved my cheese', 'the present' and 'the lamp'. but i don't really read books :D

9) What are your weaknesses and strengths?
oh.. i fumbled at this part.. haha.. i told them i rely quite heavily on first impression. and my strength i think i told them that i communicate well with others?

that's what i remember.. oh well.. shall be waiting for their reply

God Bless~

Strange Funny Encounter

SO.. i would write some of the amazing things i have seen

The other day i was taking the LRT back, and i saw a begger.. the cool thing about this begger is that.. he is holding a Sony Ericson phone.. now how cool is that?

Ok.. maybe it's not Sony Ericson, but definitely is a better phone than mine... ok la.. maybe his family members bought for him la.. poor guy right?

Have you guys seen a police forensic car? I have.. XD

oh oh.. i saw a guy who is not wearing a McD shirt but he is carrying a McD delivery pouch.. ho ho..

yeah that's it

God Bless~

Funny hair cutting experience

So.. today i went to get a haircut.. at 2 before i even ate my lunch..

so reached there at 2, and i asked for student hair cutter. they only charge RM 5 for that.. save some money.. :D

so this female, barely 22 i guess, was my 'cutter'. and she cuts REAL slow.. ok la.. nevermind lo.. student right? so cut cut cut.. it was 2.30.. i told her i have class at 4, can cut a little bit faster?

she looked at the clock, and i thought she would speed up, but then she still cut at the same pace.. swt!! nevermind.. student ma.. haha..

so after a while, she said she wants to wash my hair.. go and wash, then sit down and she blow my hair dry la.. my hair is short, and i think 2 minutes is enough to dry my hair.. but don't know why.. she took like 5 - 7 minutes.. keeps on 'raba-ing' my hair. I know la my hair nice right.. no but seriously, she seems to enjoy blowing dry my hair..

so after that, she started cutting again.. and this is the funny part. she cut, and i see my hair fall onto my shirt.. <--- SHIRT

i told her.. err.. "sui che, hai em hai ying koi fong ke bou sin le??" (miss, shouldn't u put the cloth first?)

she had forgotten to place the cloth on top to cover my body... ROFL.. funny girl..

i ended up reaching home at 3.10.. i bathed, gel-ed my hair and finished my lunch in an absolutely amazing time record of .... jeng jeng jeng.. 15 minutes.. can i hear some applause please? TQ TQ TQ TQ

God Bless~

Centerstage

Am i still the centerstage of my life?

Are you still the centerstage of your life?

What is the centerstage of your life now? partner? love? assignments? finals? life itself? you yourself? or is there none?

In whatever that we do, we need to always remember that we are the centerstage of our lives. Do not let things in life get into our centerstage, and we shall never lose ourselves.

Of course, we can't be too preoccupied with ourselves, making other people unpleasant with us. What i mean by centerstage is that we focus on what is important in our lives, and other things, things that bother us, will appear trivial.

Never lose yourself in going after what you want. it is never the 'thing' that takes centerstage, it is always the 'person'.

God Bless~

Dreams

This morning had another 2 dream. The first dream, initially i remembered a lot when i first woke up. But then i slept and had my second dream, making my first dream fuzzy. Recency effect? lol..

First dream: I was in a hall and there were many people around. We were all given papers with words on it and were told to analyse it i think.. Don't know do what with the paper la.. lots of things which i have forgotten. But what i remembered is that that papers which i got, it seems as if it were bit's blog. lol.. i know it sounds funny, but i just felt that it was ok.. yes yes.. i don't know how to read chinese, but it's a FEELING get it? then after that, i think people should go up and talk about it, and this girl behind me, started to 'volunteer' me. SWEAT!!

then.. i went up... and that's all i remembered.. shucks.. only remember this much.. it's not a bad dream though. i remember i was kinda grinning the whole dream.. hahaha

Second dream: i dreamt that i was in a car, and we were kinda like in a hotel place. so we were driving around and the hotel looks sooo nice. we were staying near the hotel, in a made out of wood chalet. then all of a sudden, i was driving the car. and i was finding my way to the chalet. so use the hotel as land mark, but then didn't really get to the chalet la.. then i was in the hotel, on foot.. don't know where the car went

so try to find my way out of the hotel to go back to the chalet.. and on the way, i saw this little cute boy. ROFL.. took him with me and went to the chalet together..

then suddenly.. suprise suprise.. stephanie cheah was inside my dream. after going back to the chalet, i don't know how it kinda turned into.. not really a chalet.. strange la.. i know.. and stephanie was there..

and yes.. i think that's almost all i can remember. :D

God Bless~

Strange nice dream

I am kinda sleep deprived these few days, coupled with enourmous stress level, i guess it's normal to have some strange dreams.. haha.. i dreamt something strange/weird cum nice dream when i was having my nap today

i dreamt that i was in a dark neighbourhood, and it seems as if there is no electricity. But my neighboor is watching tv, and he put the volumn on full blast. He is watching soccer. haha.. then somehow, i was on a car, my sis was driving, and we were kinda wondering around the neighbourhood

and this neighbourhood is sooooo cool, it has lots of animals, like...

tapirs, small little cute tapirs, and there are elephants, big enormous elephants, and... others la.. i can only remember these 2. So cool you know..

then i can't remember, but the next thing i remember is that i was eating at mamak, beside the road. And this mamak have a special serving style. on each table, there is sorta a small plastic box where food is put inside. it has layers and sections, so each section is filled with different sort of food like fish cakes and stuff.. On top of the plastic 'food container' there are stuffs like curry puffs, and when i took the curry puff, it's still hot.. yum yum..

yeah.. that's about my dream..

God Bless~

Different stress illustration

There are different types of stress coping strategies for different people. I don't know why, but i thought about how i can categorize it with food (or drinks). Am i magnificent or am i magnificent? :D

Water - So, when you give some heat to water, it evaporates. Same thing, some people when faced with pressure, they are gone and no where to be seem. Avoidant type.

Cheese - It melts when presented with heat. So these kind of people breakdown when they are faced with stressors. They don't avoid it, they...... breakdown. :)

Fried fish - When you try to fry fish, what happens? oil will keep on popping, and it hurts. These are the kind of people who always complain and complain (like how the crackling sound when you fry fish) and yes, it hurts the people around them. sad state of affair, but there are a lot of these people. Complaining type

Toast bread - apply some heat, and it becomes hard. Some people becomes hard when stress gets to them.

Rice - Ah.. finally a good 1. it becomes big and nice to eat. matures with time and is not too hard, not too soft. Learning type

Of course.. all the food above are just examples, and are not exclusive and exhautive (fuiyoh)

God Bless~

When did life became so complicated?

Whoah~ Reading this title sure makes u wonder.. lol.. what happened to me right? :)

As i am typing this, my neighbour is playing badminton outside my house. Under the hot sun, but the place that they are playing is under the shadow of a tree la. They are Malays and they are young little kids.. cute little kids.. if u know me, i kinda like kids.. :D

They were bro and sis i suppose, and they were doing what i did last time when i was young. That was the same tree that i played under with my sis. after so many years, it's still there. How good was life back then.. no worries, no issues like races (or at least i am not influenced by it), no stress.. LIFE WAS GOOD!! I don't know about you guys, but i had a very nice childhood. Of course, there were some comments from certain races then which says that "dia makan babi la", but hey, babi is nice to eat ok.. XD

and that did not deter our friendship.. we still mingle around very nicely. Why is it so difficult now? Where is the difference? When did life became so complicated?

Nothing happened to me la.. it's just one of those days which i kinda miss my childhood life.. I guess if we were given a choice, all of us would want to be kids again right? ok maybe me la huh.. :)

God Bless~

Pressure-ized Onion

It's the time when i am getting a little bit too cognitive and starts to think a little bit too much.. Listening to 'Yang Chong' now.. repeating the song again and again.. hmm..

I'm bored, at the same time i am busy. hmm.. Busily bored :D Pressure in coming in.. as assignments need to be passed up soon.. finals are coming soon.. Oh.. let's talk a little bit about my personality.. :)

Yesterday there was Personality tutorial class, and we were suppose to take an online personality test (Myers-Briggs test) and i got ISTJ which stands for Introversion, Sensing, Thinking and Judging.

Introversion - i guess that's very much like me. i don't mix easily with people fast. I need to at least get to know or observe that person first before getting to know that person deeper. Slow to warm up if u want to label me. In parties (which i rarely go, which emphasize my extraversion), u might see me standing at a corner observing rather than participating. I like to be in small groups of friends rather than big group of friends (i would love it if it were a one on one, with opposite sex of course.. :p). I feel very impersonal if were we to go out in big group.. maybe i just want their attention fix on me la.. hahaha

Sensing - not much about this, because my sensing trait is actually very low, 1%. Which means i might swing to the other side of the continuum. :0

Thinking - Yes.. very thinking and not so feeling. Although my feelings are pretty stong at times, i hide it using my cognition i guess. So am i really thinking type? or just hiding it underneath? i think a little bit more cognition than feelings la.. :) which i think is a good thing.

Judging - Ah.. this does not mean i am a judgemental person ok.. it means that i plan my activities.. i like to plan and not spontaneous. Which is true.. i don't really like spur of the moment things.. I like to take things slowly and not do last minute work.

So.. my personality type is dubbed the Inspectors. "The one word that best describe Inspectors is superdependable." ROFL. And they are supposed to be very traditional.

I think i am dependable (in certain circumstances, not all ok), if not superdependable. I need people to put in as much effort as i do if not more. I want their work to be nice and up to my standard. And because of that, it is said that my personality likes to reform people. Which i partly agree, cause i always thinks that people lifestyle have to like... hmm.. at least i have to think that their lifestyle is satisfactory.. or i would think that they are living in denial.. or.. suffering.. or.. having a sad life. hahaha.. which i would in turn suggest to them how to live their life.. what right do i have in judging whether or not they are happy right? the bad part which comes with being Inspectors.. lol

Accordingly, i am very traditional. And yes, i think i am quite conservative. i don't do things in extreme. I don't catch with the fashion trends. I still think that certain moral standards should be followed and not just because lots of people say they do it, it's ok to do it (no pre-marital sex).

So if you want to get close to me, better make sure u are hardworking :p, and give me attention.. gyahaha.. XD

God Bless~

Of Race, Gender and Equality

Pop quiz.. What's the hottest issue in Malaysia now?
Hike in petrol price

What is the hottest issue in US now?
Obama won over Hillary and he is contending against McCain

And yes, it is very possible that US will have their first ever Black president... And i am actually anticipating for it. What would he do? what would he change? how can he impact the world? After all, he's a Black.. which is very interesting..

Let's take a step back and imagine that Obama didn't won.. let's say Hillary won.. I would still be anticipated cause she would be the first female president. Now how cool is that? Regardless of race and gender, everyone is qualified for contesting for the presidential.

Looking at Malaysia, I would say this scenario would be impossible, if not almost impossible. Imagine a race other than a Malay being Prime Minister. Imagine a female being the Prime Minister. hmm.. quite hard to imagine no?

If Malaysia can one day transcend race, and gender... i believe we would truly be a strong nation then. Now who says that Western influence is always bad?

We should learn this life lesson from them..

God Bless~

Hike of Petrol Prices

So Malaysians are all grumbling because of the hike of petrol prices. While many are not so happy with it, I on the other hand thinks that the government did no wrong in rising the price. I think that they did right actually

Price of petrol have been increasing so much on the world market that if Petronas were to continue subsidising, we would die very soon.. Literally. I don't understand why people are protesting about the hike. Can't they see the big picture here? How long can the government subsidise?

People should use less petrol, save for future generation. There would be less cars on the road, which translate to less trafic jam, which translate to less fuel consumption due to no jam. Isn't it getting better already hearing my explanation? LOL.. but there are still lots of cars on the road.. which makes me wonder why are there so many protesters.. if protesters says hike is burning hole in their pocket, shouldn't they use other means of transportation? y so many cars? hurmzz...

maybe those who are on the roads are not those who protested huh? but.. if u do look properly, who are those protesting.. the really poor? or the not so poor? make u think twice doesn't it?

Of course.. although the government did right in raising the price of petrol, they did it without proper planning. Which is not so smart if u ask me. They should have planned beforehand how to decrease the burden of the people, and not annouce first, explain later. They came up with lots of promises, but only time will tell whether it is really coming through..

and another thing that i think the government should do is raise salary. Just as simple as this. If we need to spend more, it is only natural that we need to earn more. Unfortunately, everything is going up except for Malaysian's salary huh... stagnant.

Also.. Public transport.. they should pump in a lot more money into it to make it reliable and efficient. So that the public would like to ride it. But anyway.. there have been lots of articles sent in by people to the newspapers on how the government should improve the public transport.. so i shall not talk further..

God Bless~

Of Driving Licence and Handphone

I almost drove home without my driving licence (which is in my wallet) and handphone yesterday ok..

So this was what happened.. Yesterday I got mid term exam, so after exam, i went to play volleyball. So when changing my attire that time, i passed both my wallet and my handphone to Wushu Girl la..

So practising that time, halfway she said she want to go to her friend's hostel, so she left lo.. I thought she would be smart enough to leave it in my car or something. :p.. but after finish training, i check where are my things, and to my horror, it wasn't in my car.

Then i tried calling my phone, so that she would pick it up. Called for 6 times, and she didn't pick up. *flips table* finally, on the 7th call, only she picked it up.. oh.. how relieve was i when she picked it up.. very swiftly i asked her, where she is.. cause if she were to go home already, which is in Puchong, i would be in deeeeeeeeeeep shit.. Thank God she is still at her friend's hostel..

then i got it back and i drove home safely..

I was literally pondering on whether i should drive home without my driving licence and handphone ok.. i even developed a hypothetical scenario if i were to asked to pull over by police

Police: Ic dan driving licence...
Me: *trying to reach out to my pocket, and act shocked and innocent* Lupa bawak la bang. sorry sorry.. takkan ulang lagi.. =.=!!!!

it really went through my mind owhkie.. hahaha.. but good thing la.. i am safe.. :p

God Bless