Friends of mine

Meng is bipolar, swinging from emo to euphoric between days. Ying zhou is father of don't-care-until-the-time-comes. He can don't care about his car keys that is lost, until the time comes for him to go back. XD. Yean May is easy to talk with. I think under her serious demeanour, she's a pretty sampat girl XD. Jun Hao is stubborn and always say will improve, but i don't see any improvement. he also very perasan.. i think he seriously got inferiority complex :p Loo Loo is princess-cy. she seems sad nowadays. i hope she will find happiness soon. Shui May is another sad girl currently. i hope she finds herself soon too. XD. Evie sometimes stresses over things that can't be changed, like the weather, and timetables which i don't understand why. Shyuan is always wanting to be right XD. Hui Keng is pretty. Looking good does and indeed do make someone feel good, but in order to feel good, one does not necessarily need to look good. You look good and you should start to learn how to build your happiness on other domains. Joel Lim is secretive. KC always wants to be 'yeng zhai'. Su Lyn is pretty sampat at times, but very hardcore when it comes to volleyball. always want argue with me 1 XD. Yuinnie is studious. Si Hui is always spouting foul language. roar~. Soo Leng is very blur and procrastinates. Ah bit is very cute, so is Sharon. Lynnette is someone who will tell you lots of things if she trusts you. it's always fun listening to her 'life dramas' XD. Shawn knows lots of things, but can don't-care-cause-it's-not-my-problem also. he also is generous. Fei zhai and kar wai are blow water king. Jian is piloting. Jia leng is... jia leng XD. Tristan can be very charasmatic. Suet Lai still sampat.. Wai Shin sometimes very good guy ge. Kong still the same. Wei Fen is sometimes pretty shy. maybe it's just my opinion. Candice is clubbing queen. XD. wake people up in the middle of the night to drink booze? extreme case.. Weng Sing is pretty generous. Norman is very 'kan chan'. lol.. the older he grows, the more 'kan' he is. XD. Solomon very relax, no sense of importance. maybe haven't grow up yet. Kay Chong is good guy. he very easily let people take advantage of i suppose. many other more which i didn't mention, humblest apologies. hahaha

God Bless~

The Naked Truth

This post is about an honest reflection about myself. As the year is coming to an end, I guess it's a suitable time after 21 years to get an honest reflection about what i really am as a person. I got alot of things on my mind which i want to express but i don't know where to start, so i shall just blurt what comes to mind

I am a very frugal man. In my heart, there is always an invisible calculator. whenever i purchase items or good or services, the reward in return should be more or less equals to what i pay. if not, i will be very uneasy inside, a lot of cognitive dissonance probably. and it takes some time to reduce the dissonance. As an example, let's say i go MidValley. The cheapest food i can get there is from the food court, which would cost about RM 7 to RM 8. but with RM 7 or RM 8 for a bowl of soup noodles is inequity to me. i would add a little more to the money, to eat something better, with 'brand'. with that, it is more equitable. But i dislike spending that much money, and therefore, i would rather opt to go out of MidValley and go eat RM 4 or RM 5 noodles at other places. I AM THAT FRUGAL!!!

Since young I have been this way i guess. maybe it's the upbringing from my dad, who is always calculative about items purchased. i think i really am like him, or probably worse. XD that's y i like to go to cut my hair at the same place. RM 5 for haircut, eventhough i will have to sit there fore 2 hours, trimmed by a student hairstylist. I also get cognitive dissonance if people spend me, but i guess it's less dissonance as compared to me spending on other people. XD

My aunt say i so leng zhai, how come no girlfriend. Maybe it's because i am frugal ba.. but i think it's more than that and sometimes i indeed do wonder why. I go night market and supermarket and gai gai and i see young couples together. Look at the girl, not bad, look at the guy.. swt.. i think i could be a better candidate. but then why don't i have 1?

i went for counselling this sem for bonus marks and i talked about relationships and how hard it is to maintain a good relationship. i presented my problems telling the counselor that i am afraid of not becoming a good boyfriend. because i do not have a car, which means transport will be a problem. i might not have that much of time, because i am mostly at home doing assignments, and also i play volleyball for college. this translate to me probably not spending enough time with her. thirdly, as i have said, i am a very frugal dude. i always am calculative. i think girls don't like it :S but at the end of the counselling sessions, i guess these things are just things i use as defence to not go into a relationship. maybe i am afraid that i will hurt her, maybe i am afraid that it won't end up well. or maybe i am just afraid that i will get hurt in the process

would you prefer to go into a relationship and risk getting hurt over and over again? or to play safe and only go into a relationship when u really really really are certain? I am the latter currently. previously, when i was younger, i probably am the earlier.

censor.. when say things, i am scared that i will hurt others and therefore there is a lot of censoring in my mind before saying or doing things. i am scared of hurting others but if the person is genuine, the person should say the truth although the truth hurts. but i guess life is not just about myself. I can't be too selfish and just say things which i think is right. i need to think from their perspective as well, and their feelings. to say or not to say? :S

my friends say that i am a peadophile cause i always say things such as 'she's so cute' and 'oh he so cute' whenever we are out. then they will turn to me and say me peadophile. i really don't know what my feelings are towards some girls. it seems that i want to protect them from harm and it hurts when i see them sad, stress, frustrated and all the negative emotions. i sometimes want me to be the one suffering instead of them. wanting to alleviate their burden but don't know how. When they are experiencing joyful emotions, i feel happy for them as well. is this love? paternal protection? sternberg said that there are 3 components to love: commitment, passion and intimacy. which component would the above case fall into? :S probably the topology of love can explain it better where i am experiencing agape love?

sometimes i feel so sad and upset about how people whom i care about do not seem to invest emotionally as much as i do. it's draining really. i sms, no reply. i call, don't pick up, mail no response. what does that mean? don't 1 to talk to me? don't 1 to care? busy? not important? other times, i find it hard when i do so much, but get so little in return. inequilibrium, leading to cognitive dissonance, leading to dissonance reducing, which needs lots of brain work.

this year, my peers who are mostly 1988 are 21 years old. everytime go in FB, i will see wishes such as "today's your 21st, have a blast". i also see many events being posted up about their birthdays, and i envy them. recently i saw Micky's birthday party together with her twin sister. Oh i miss her.. that day saw her, only spoke to her for less than a minute.. roar~ she's in butterworth now if i am not mistaken.. anyway, back to 21st. how did my 21st went? err? nothing out of the ordinary i guess.. the out of the ordinary thing is that teresa gave me a doughnut as a present. my only present XD THANKS TERESA!!~~ my sis also brought me makan a day before as celebration. Not bad not bad. :)

1 thing which i am always battling on is about lust. i don't know how to express, but there's a constant ongoing battle within myself between doing what constitutes as normal, and what constitutes as holy. the other day, i went sunway lagoon and many ladies wore skimpy cloths. ok.. even without them wearing skimpy, i still do look at cha bos and scrutinize them. considered as lusty? where is the line between what is considered as lusty or not? is having fantasies lusty? watching porn? talking dirty?

the other day, we went to a christmas party in my err... godbrother's house. there, a topic came up which is pretty interesting. they talked about money and health, and one man said that the end for people who don't have money is to wait for death. another man said no no, man should strive to live, because if people with no money were to just wait for death, then all the beggars will already commit suicide, and i took interest in this point of view.

indeed, everyone is waiting to die literally. rich, poor, very poor or filthy rich. no one can live forever, or at least for now. they say that it is possible to live forever in the future, but we shall leave that for the future. and so therefore, the question is this, if everyone will die, and money plays no role in death, then y earn money? this question, or similar question was posted by one of my friend in FB, and the reply she got was that it depends what kind of lifestyle she wants to live in. the difference is in the level of comfort, where obviously people with money will have a more comfortable lifestyle. but then it depends on how one defines 'comfortable lifestyle'. if to me comfortable is living in a hut in a peaceful jungle, then i need no money (i think Meng would agree with this). but if comfortable is always wanting to buy new things, then money will always not be enough (proponents for this idea will be Hui Keng, Evie and Shyuan XD). what we have absorbed so long in life is the society's standard of 'comfortable life'. it should be remembered that comfort does not equate happiness. I guess to make life meaningful, we should find what we really want to do in life. death matters no more then, i suppose

i love volleyball. it's really an AWESOME game and i guess if there's one thing i am addicted to, it would be volleyball. XD from serving, to first ball, to setting, to spiking, to blocking to covering, it's an awesome game which needs both strong team work and strong individuals. dang syok la. :D

i don't like people who only knows how to complain this and that, as if the world is going to turn the other way round when they complain. knowing that the world won't be a better place even with their complains, they still will keep on complaining. WHY? people who complain just for the sake of complaining only make people around them feel worse. i get it when you want to express discomfort, and i am fine with it, but need not harp on the issue over and over again right?

i don't like people who likes to force other people to accept their viewpoint. you can have your viewpoint, and i can have mine. No problem with different viewpoints is there? we can still respect each other for our point of view. But it's a different matter if you want to persuade me to take on your point of view. If i see sense in it, i will, but if i don't, y force?

i don't like people to argue with seemingly impossible outcomes. these people will present viewpoints which have so slim a possibility. the problem is that they seem so scared with everythings and it makes the argument go on and on. when people say them back, they just shrugged it off as if it's nothing. apa maksud?

i don't like people who exaggerate things.

i like things and ideas which transcend normal imagination. that's y i like movies like Avatar, and manga like One Piece. I like films with martial arts in it. Wushu and wuxia flick is awesome. i like movies with provoking thoughts like The Pursue of Happiness. All these gets my mind working. i like movies which makes the heart warm and make people think twice about what are the most precious things in life.

i like mythology, and therefore if movies or comics have some myths as it's support, i like it. That's y i like the original Yu-Gi-Oh, where ancient Egypt relics are one of the important characteristics. That's y i like Bleach, where they talk about Shinigami. That's y i like The Legend, which ties to ancient China.

i think i am very prejudiced towards certain people of a certain races. but more important than race, i think i am prejudiced towards people whom in my eyes don't look like good people, regardless of race. I don't know how to define, but if they fall below my standard, i really don't like them. maybe it's their hair, maybe it's their dressing, maybe it's the way they carry themselves. i also dislike 'lala' people. XD

i sometimes envy people who always seems to be in attention. eventhough they do nothing, they are always in the limelight. why? i LOA. but i also enjoy my solidarity sometimes. :D

the hardest thing in the whole wide world is not to solve the hardest maths question, or inventing something evolutionary. the hardest thing to do in this whole wide world is to be a good person. people will and can survive without the invention of telephone, internet, tv and so forth, but people will not survive without acceptance, family, love, forgiveness, and these are the things that is hard to do.

I have taken an honest look into myself. Can you?

Happy 2010.

God Bless~

Liar Game

I just finished watching a Japanese drama, Liar Game. It is adapted from the manga with the same name and it's premise is pretty interesting.

People are selected to participate in a game known as the Liar Game, and participants will have to deceive each other in order to obtain money and those who win will keep the money won, while those who lose will be in debt to the company.

Kanzaki Nao, an honest female is one of the participants and being stupidly honest, she was easily cheated of her money. she then sought help from Mr. Akiyama, who is known to be a genius swindler. Together with Akiyama, both of them progressed through the game stage by stage. But while Akiyama always thinks about how to save him and Nao, Nao on the other hand always thinks about how to save her opponents so that they do not fall into debts.

and this trust she has in others always leads back to problems where Akiyama will need to conjure up something to save the day. although deceived so many times, she is still very trusting till the very last moment.

in the last episode, she posed a question

"is it bad to be stupidly honest?"

the answer? i don't think i would want to reveal here what the answer is, but i think if we were to become stupidly honest, then we should learn how not to hold grudge towards others. that way, even if we are being cheated, we will not feel bitter about it. and that is what Kanzaki Nao is as a person.

or probably Kanzaki Nao just doesn't learn from mistakes? hahaha.. she probably have low aversive emotional conditioning and therefore being cheated to her is non or less aversive. XD

God Bless~

Some thoughts

The other day i came across an interesting thought

I was thinking to myself, wouldn't it be easy to clean the house if we were able to ionize the dust particles? It works like this. The room will be ionized and of course it will be on a low scale so that only the dust particles will be ionized due to it's small size. then there will be a container which is known as 'collector' which will have the opposite charge.

therefore if the dust particles are being charged negatively, the container will be positively charged and because they are opposites, they will attract. the room therefore will be easily cleaned. then after that, the room will be charged oppositely again, so that things in there will remain neutral of any charge. cool thought isn't it? XD

but who am i kidding right? charging dust particles? hahaha..

"we started with like, journeyed through with care and ended up with love."

"i can't changed what had happened in the past, and i don't know what will happened in the future, but i can only sincerely hope that our love for each other may never stop growing"

God Bless~

Psychology Colloquium 2008

To me so far, this colloquium was the most energy consuming because we have to present 2 presentations. 1 for social psych, and another for advanced research methods. 2 presentation on the same day and therefore we were pretty much exhausted before, during and after.

but we did not let the stress take us out, but rather, faced it with determination. 1 day before colloquium, all of us camped at Lam's house and we were perfecting our presentations.

See Joel so rajin doing his work..

See.. all so rajin do work.. or is it? XD

practicing yet again when we reach college the next day.

finally after presentation, all of us were sitted at auditorium. Here, we have Mr. Teh together.. :D

see this xiao cha bo? don't see her xiao xiao like that, she smart ok.. XD

but all the practice and hard work was worth it cause we did win ourselves something. until this very day, i still haven't spent my present yet. :S don't know what to buy

it's a sad thing nobody took our photos during our presentation yea? or maybe someone did? just that i don't have those photos.. hahaha.. i don't think any colloquiums in the future will be as stressful as this. thesis defence just passed.. nothing special also.. ngek ngek.. XD

Blessed Christmas everyone

God Bless~

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

The other day i managed to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on tv and it's a really wonderful show. When it first came out, i didn't thought that it would be such a good story with some highly important values embedded into the story. so i didn't watch it then, but i was so wong.





The story talks about Willy Wonka, an owner of a super-state-of-the-art chocolate factory and he is the best chocolate creator in the story. He sent out 5 tickets to 'lucky' children who are given the opportunity to visit his factory and one of them will have a suprise at end.





So came five children together with their parents for a visit to his factory. Willy Wonka is greatly depicted by Johnny Depp, and i pretty much like him in the story. Slowly, the children were eliminated one by one due to their own misbehavior. and the last boy standing was Charlie. the suprise was that he will be the heir to the factory, with one condition, Willy Wonka said that Charlie would need to shift in into his factory, leaving his family behind, and because of this, Charlie rejected Willy's offer. well, it later ended well :D





throughout the story, there are some thought provoking moments.





1. the children in the movie were brats, and that got me thinking... will my children grow up like that? with the things they show on media nowadays, it's really REALLY hard to fend them off, especially since they would believe and like things which looks cool. if they asked me to buy them this and that, will i give in? i remember when i was still young, i do ask things from my parents, but more often that not, i don't get what i want. i do feel unhappy then, and therefore i should not make my children feel what i felt right? but it's a debate about pampering too much vs child disciplining, which is hard to balance and find the fine line between the two.





2. one thing i like about the movie was how it transcends normal logic. and that's what i like about manga too.. especially One Piece. it fosters creativity and make people think about what are the possibilities out there. logic is logic, but to be able to think about illogical stuffs which are out of the ordinary, it's creative. i thought to myself, have we (we referring to humans in general) been trained to think so logically that we sometimes don't see some other view which is totally out of the ordinary? if we could just tap into this power of creativity, i think the world will be a better place to live in. ^^





3. the value of the people around us. in the movie, Charlie would give up owning the factory just because he had to be seperated from his family. And that's a point of view coming from a child. how many of us would be as him, to be able to say a big 'NO' when the bargain on the other end seems so so good?





Love this movie

God Bless~

What shall I do?

The axe is already at the root of the trees, and every tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire. "What shall we do then?" the crowd asked. John answered, "The man with two tunics should share with him who has none, and the one who has food should do the same." Tax collectors also came to be baptized. " Teacher," they asked, "what should we do?"

"Don't collect any more than you are required to," he told them. Then some soldiers asked him, "And what should we do?" He replied, "Don't extort money and don't accuse people fasely-be content with your pay."

The people were waiting expectantly and were all wondering in their hearts if John might possibly be the Christ. John answered them all, "I baptize you with water. But one more powerful than I will come, the thongs of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. His winnowing fork is in his hand to clear his threshing floor and to gather the wheat into his barn, but he will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire." (Luke 3: 9 - 17)

That is the Gospel message of today and how very suitable it is. As we come into the 3rd week of Advent, it is high time we ask ourselves, "what shall I/we do?"

Christmas for many is a holiday rather than a holy day. and we shall not forget the true meaning of Christmas. Instead of praising Santa Claus and doing our Christmas shopping, we should instead ponder on the birth of Christ and give attention to the people around us who needs help. Indeed, sometimes we are so caught up in doing things among ourselves that we neglect people who really needs our attention.

we do Christmas carolling among BECs, buy presents for friends and familes etc., but have we ever wondered whether we can sing to the old folks in the old folks home, or the orphanages? have we thought about buying gifts for the orphanages, the migrant workers, our maids, give donation to the poor, and give attention to the lame, the afflicted or simply offering up a little prayer for the sick, torn families, people in war who are in fear etc.?

as Christmas is coming, let us not forget the root of Christmas which is CHRIST Himself. Let us be aware of the people around us who needs help. The true spirit of Christmas will only be experienced if we reach out to people.

"What shall I do?" I blogged about His glory. Now what about you? :)

God Bless~

MAPCU 2009

This year volleyball MAPCU was filled with UNCERTAINTY. Mainly because the main organizer did not want to organize it. And it was initially being called off. But our head of DSA didn't want to call it off and said that HELP will organize it.

So DSA have been working to organize the volleyball competition. I should give credit to the people who organize cause they did manage to pull it off. Although there are many uncertainties, but i can see that a lot of effort have been put into making the event a successful 1. Many colleges don't want to participate cause they don't have teams, girls teams especially, and it is not until the 11th hour that we know whether there is the competition or not. but they did try their best to get participations for both males and females category and finally, it did happen

Date: Nov 29 2009
Venue: Sports Complex, University Melaya

There are 8 teams for males, and 6 teams for females.

Males: HELP UC, Lim Kok Weng, Apiit, UCSI, Nottingham, IMU, Segi and KLIUC
Females: HELP UC, IMU, Apiit, UCSI, Nottingham and i don't know another 1. XD

In the grouping stage, males went against Apiit in the first round. And we lost. :p Lim Kok Weng didn't manage to turn up. So we need to win against UCSI to go into semi. And we did won UCSI.. yea yea.. happy.. so we were in the semi.

match against UCSI i think XD

For the girls, they fought pretty close with IMU, and won. and then won Apiit as well, with a breeze if i not mistaken. Our girls strong ok.. Roar~

Against Apiit?

In semi, the guys was up against Segi college. Erm.. nothing to comment i guess.. just that lose a lot of points in service. grrr... after losing to Segi, then compete with Apiit again for 3rd placing. and this time we won.. woo hoo hoo.. so males got third placing


For the females, semi they went up against Nottingham, and won. In the finals, they finally met their rival UCSI. And it was a very close fight. Both teams won a set, and it was the final set. Both teams service also fail. XD... but in the end, we won.. woo hoo..


time for some pictures shall we?

male team with the coach for the day, Mr. Mark

female team with coach, Mr. Cheng

everyone together..

our new president.. XD

and the GLORIOUS CUPS. :D

God Bless~

Bad sleep, bad dream

I have a bad sleep today.. didn't really slept well cause a lot of mosquito bites.. i finally woke up, and checked the time.. it's about 5.20.. for the whole 4 hours and 20 minutes.. didn't really slept also.. toss and turn and then mosquito bites.. grr..

then after that, tried to sleep again, and got bad dream.. =.=;

i dreamt that i was in a shopping complex wanting to buy some stuffs (i do remember that there are other people together with me, but i don't really remember whether it's my family members or not).. so anyway.. walk walk.. want to buy stuff, and entered a shop.. but that shop doesn't have the things we wanted to buy.. so walked out..

after walking out, there was an announcement saying that the cinema does not sell food. we were pretty suprised by the announcement and therefore decided to have a look at the cinema, since we were not very far away from it.. and the cinema was jam packed. brimming with people..

but that's not the exciting part.. the exciting part is that there is a huge guy who is cleaning the walls of the cinema.. and by huge, i mean really huge.. like.. double of yao ming's height and size. and he was so odd that i looked at him for a little longer.. he was big, and had a some hair at the back of the head.. he was scrubing the wall of the cinema while walking on the escalator.

so after that, i left and suddenly there was a ruckus.. the big dude fell (i don't know from where and how), but he did fell and he was pretty much in pain.. covering the back of his head with his two arms.. then suddenly, people started to pull away his hands and feet and 1 person stepped on his neck.. they pulled and *snap*. i presumed that his limbs are no longer attached to his body.. of course i wouldn't know for sure because just before it snapped, i looked away..

at this point.. i not sure whether i am awake or not.. but i think i am half awake.. i did feel whether i should continue sleeping, or wake up.. but i did continue sleeping and so my dream continued

i don't know why the people do what they did to him, but that got me and the people who were shopping with me scared and we ran. run run run, run until some place which i don't even know where. it's like a mountain-eous place and i am at a place built with stones (at this point, i only remember me, but i am not together with the people in the shopping complex anymore). i remember there was an old man there, and it seems like he can predict the future or something. he drew a picture, and the picture can actually move, sorta kinda like revealing some sort of secret with the movements.

then a huge monster appeared. by huge, i mean.. HUUUUGEE.. like ultraman monster huge.. and the monster was heading towards us.. i got scared, and ran. i tried hiding from the view of the monster.. and we sorta play hide and seek with each other.. although the monster is big, but it's fast.. then appeared a african lady, with a gun.. always shooting at the monster.. one might think that she's nuts.. but i remembered her saying that the monster is her pet. -.-;

after that, don't really remember anything anymore.. really crazy dream.. y am i having so many bad dreams recently?

the worst part in the dream is the snapping of the limbs la... after waking up, i ponder to myself.. do humans kill other humans just because they don't look like each other? do we kill each other just because we don't look like each other?

God Bless~

MATRADE 2007

I officially started working in 2007 for the Food and Beverages Fair in MATRADE Centre. And for this work, i did blog-ed about it http://bpsych-ers.blogspot.com/2007/07/first-day-of-work.html

But that time no pictures ma.. hahaha.. now got pictures already. One main reason why this happens is because i don't have my own camera. so i rely on other people to snap the photo and afterwards send it to me. so that's y many old overdue posts..

so yea.. a little refreshment.. since the event is food and beverages fair, there are lots of sample food to eat.. so me and my friend went around eating food samples for our lunch and tea. hahaha.. good in a sense that there are tons of variety (just opposite our stall got halal daging salai. XD), but bad is that.. there is nothing which u can eat a whole lot.. takkan want to stand at that stall and eat and eat right? malu la.. ho ho..

this is my friend, who worked with me in the same stall. she helped me find the job.. ho ho

her name is Yi Ling

together with 2 of my superiors

:D

God Bless~

HMC Ball 2006

Yes yes... super overdue.. now close to 2010 only come blog about this.. haha.. but i super free.. apa boleh buat? XD

For 21 years of my life, this is the first ever prom/ball that i ever went too. Not because i want to, but because i HAVE to. I am one of the commitee member for HMC Student Council, so have to go and do work.. But at least it's free.. good thing it's free cause i didn't even manage to eat anything except for a bowl of fried rice.. was controlling the lighting from above..

the stage. nice?

reception area

starting performance.. pretty impressive i should say..

the nice nice entrance

and finally, everyone enjoying on the dance floor

all in all, eventhough i didn't eat much, i was happy i guess.. i still remember the whole council went up stage and dance to Goo Goo Dolls song - Iris. Didn't enjoy much of the ball, cause i was controlling the lighting, but it was good i guess.

Me and prom don't mix i think cause i don't or probably can't communicate well with people.. if i sit at the table, i can only imagine me eating non stop. XD all in all, it was an experience which will never be forgotten, but me and prom really no friend. so expensive for a night.. worth it ma?

God Bless~

Bpsych Lunch

I suddenly find myself super free these days.. or probably for these few weeks only.. ho ho.. and so i decided that one of the things that i shall do is blog, and i have many events to blog about. events which previously i didn't blog because... i was either lazy/busy/any other reason.

there is no order to my events posting.. just random.. so we shall start.. Bpysh Lunch 2007

Our department, the Psychology department have this lunch which they welcome new students into their departments. but students must wear this 'graduation robe' to signify that we will strive towards our graduation. it is a motivation for us, and i wonder how many of us still remember that day?

Me, Meng and Jian

Back then, lameness knows no end

Back then, vain-ness knows no end

All the leng zhais and leng lui?

The one in the middle is our Dean, hopefully we can wear the robe, with a square hat by the end of next year, or probably the starting of the following year :D graduation is not a dream anymore, it's becoming a reality

God Bless~

Counselling sessions

Today is the last day of my counselling sessions. I went for counselling as a means for bonus marks for one of my classes, and i guess it is beneficial for me.

I talked about relationships in the sessions, but of course, the details are pretty secret. I now realized some of the thoughts which have been making me do what i do.

today i shared a news with my counsellor and she replied "you said that with a smile on your face, with a cheeky smile" i guess i am happy when i heard that news. but whether or not this happiness will be long lasting is another matter. i am happy nevertheless

oh if you don't understand what i am saying here it's owhkay :D

God Bless~

Lucid dream

I have read before about lucid dream where in the dream, you can do what you want. I didn't really believe in it cause i haven't experience it. but this morning, i experienced lucid dream.. ho ho

i dreamt that i was crossing a road in my neighbourhood and then across the road, i saw a few people playing volleyball, beside the road.

i sorta kinda know the people, but then not very close to them, so i decided to walk away.. but suddenly, i saw a girl whom looks very familiar.. i stared longer, and yes it is her, digging with the other people..

i waited for a while, and then she finished playing and walked towards a... shop. then, her bf (i think) help her to fix her hair cause it's messy.. then talk talk, then we started walking, and i don't know why i was dragging along a chair for the walk

while walking, we wanted to cross a road, and suddenly a car drove pass at high speed. the car came from right, and i was left to the girl. nobody was hurt, and then i 'decided' to walk to her right side so as to protect her gua..

from then on, i knew that i was sorta kinda walking on my own determination, and true enough.. i did something which i wanted to do in the dream.. ho ho..

conclusion is, lucid dreams do happen.. i wonder how many of us have experienced it? and how often will i get it?

God Bless~

Negative correlation

As I look back at my blog, I see a negative correlation between number of post and length of time. As time passes, my posts gets fewer. From 2007, got about 100 something post.. then it gets fewer and until this year.. only about 20 plus posts. hahaha

the question to ask is why? i guess i don't have much to blog about... and have been busy la.. 2 main reasons.. or probably i have things to talk about, just that i don't think it is significant enough for me to blog about it.

so ya lo.. that's about it..

God Bless~

So much REM, so little time

For how many centuries have i neglected this blog of mine :S

So many things to talk about.. so i shall just ramble in no particular order..

Today was 308 midterm and assignment 1 due.. oh finally another assignment and midterm over. A little bit of breath.. but not very much actually. things to come:

1) NEGERI SEMBILAN OPEN - IMBA!! seriously very 'fan' about this 1. Grr.. i 1 to resign my post after this year already
2) Thesis - haven't finish yet.. another 2 more weeks only i think for first draft
3) Business finals - come back from competition, then finals for business.. 10th and 11th i think..
4) 305 assignment 1 - first week of november
5) 308 assignment 2 - nothing much to say..
6) 305 assignment 2 - last week of november or first week of december?
7) Colloquium - thesis presentation

This morning I had a few dreams. woke up, slept, dream. woke up, slept, dream. In one of the dreams, i was in this lagoon, and it was kinda cool.. swim swim, suddenly slide down to a water filled supermarket. people actually shop in this water filled supermarket.

then another dream was about someone telling me he/she broke up with his/her boyfriend/girlfriend already. don't know y, but i dreamt of it la..

then another 1 was about me wanting to go this place to eat, but tak jadi.. i remember i fell on the floor filled with.. orange colour sauce and i was wearing an orange colour shirt.

last 2 days.. i dreamt about someone who is dear to me. that person said that he/she wants to learn how to play volleyball.. haha.. funny..

So much REM dreams, so little time to catch.

better get back to work

God Bless~

Purpose of human

Have you ever thought what is the purpose of humans in this world?

Maybe you have given thought about why are u here, but why humans? Have you gave that a thought?

All animals exists for a reason, which is to balance the world. I believe that if humans were not to interfere, the system would be on a perfect balance and there would no be extinction nor over population of any certain species. ok la.. maybe there will be, but in time it will balance back itself. for example, if anteaters who eats.. well obviously ants, manage to almost wipe them out in an area, anteaters will go out of food for a period, and therefore they will die. when they do, there will be less anteaters and the ants population will start to grow again..

I think, humans now think that their purpose is survival. People would do many many terrible things just in order to survive and progress. War, deforestation, pollution etc.

but if you look back into the Bible (owhkay.. i not Bible expert so i hope i am not wrong here. Forgive me if i am yea), God created human and asked us to govern the His creation. by govern, i take it as taking care of the animals and the earth

but we are not taking very good care of it are we? instead of taking care of them, we only care about ourselves and in the process, we destroy them. maybe in the first place we would want to take good care of ourselves so that we can take good care of others, but i guess we lost sight of it.

now it's a dog eat dog world, where we don't even care for our fellow humans.

TRULY A VERY SAD TRUTH

humans are over populating the world, and that's not the issue i guess. the issue is we are not taking good care of our world, and nature is coming back to get us. there are many many more 'natural disaster' (i put it in inverted commas because it's not really natural natural. rather it's caused by humans to a certain extent) these days like flood and draught which defies normal parameters.

maybe it's time nature comes back at us so that there will be less of us, then the world will go normal again? only time will tell and only God knows

be watchful therefore, for you know not what time does the Master comes knocking on the door

God Bless~

Wah lao eh... Chap gui ni bo kua teok liao le..

The translation for the title would roughly be.. --> Wah lao eh.. more than 10 years didn't see you liao le.... and that's what it means..

Last tuesday, my grandad's brother passed away. He was 89. I barely know him, but my family and I went down to Kluang (Johor) to attend his funeral. We went down on Wednesday, and reached about 5 something.

It is only during marriage or funeral that I get to see most of my family members (from my mum's side cause they stay in pretty far from each other) come together to attend an event. So this funeral brought together most of my family members together and I would want to highlight the meeting with one of my cousin.

This is Catherine Teo. My cousin.

Really 'chap gui ni bo kua teok liao le'. and after all those years, she barely changed.. didn't seem to grow old.. XD me and my sis were so happy and suprised to see her and her husband together attending the funeral. It's been a looooong loooooooong time since we saw each other. Ashley, their son (my nephew) didn't come along.

This is Ashley

The last time i saw him was when he was about 3 or 4 years old only. That time he was SUPER cute. and he eat lots of chilly for his age. Look at him now.. he's 14 already and according to her mum, he's as tall as me.. aiks..

Guess now I am old enough to say "chap gui ni bo kua teok liao le"

On another unrelated matter... yesterday I went to look out point with Weng Sing. and while walking, i stumbled across a car key. I recognize that it's an Avanza key cause i have 1 at home and i was asking myself, what do i do with the key now? how can i ever give back the key to the owner?

while i was pondering, a little girl came up to me and said

"Uncle, that car key is ours"

Then without hesitation, i passed the key to her.. i didn't even realized that she called me 'uncle' until later weng sing told me about it. point is.. i old dy..

May God bring my grandad's bro's soul to His arm

God Bless~

Tristan's 21st birthday

The other day my friends and I went for my friend's 21st birtday. Oh well.. most of my friends are having their 21st birthday this year.. all the dragons.. mwehehe.. 1988-ers.. It's really rare for me to blog about them.. but got pictures mer.. so blog about it lo.. :p

So the birthday boy's name is Tristan Tang Chan Hoe.

See the guy sitting in the middle? that's the birthday boy.

I shall start explaining my bunch of friends here.. the one on sitting on the left (left in the photo with the specs and blue shirt) is Andrew.. he's a doctor. XD he once was my replacement physic teacher. the one sitting on the right is Wai Shin.. he's.. a friend.. XD studying engineering..

The girl in black sitting right in front, next to me is Joey, the girlfriend of tristan. they have been together for 3 years.. that's what according to her la.. hehe.. the girl on my right is Pui Yan. we use to call her King Kong, or Kong as that's her sir name.. the guy in the middle with blue shirt is Peter :)

The girl behind kong is kei kei.. and the last guy beside her with white shirt is Shawn.. one of my best guy friend..

on that day.. i went there after church, and they had bbq.. i went quite late and i started bbq-ing.. then talk talk talk.. until about 11.30.. it was a good thing that we still can catch up even after secondary school is over. :D

God Bless~

"I am her small friend"

24th August 2009

today when i was chatting on msn with Crystal (not crystal gan, but crystal chua.. maybe most of you don't know who's that..) something really cute happened..

i messaged her with some things regarding scholarship.. and she didn't reply.. then i asked

Mr. T: u there?
Crystal: I am not Crystal. I am her small friend
Mr. T: hahaha.. small friend? friend got difference between small and big 1 meh?
Crystal: .....

then no conversation until the real crystal appeared.. and she told me that just now, the person who replied me was a 9 year old girl. the little sister of her bf.. oh how cute.. 9 years old and she's on msn.. wah lao..

what was i doing when i was 9 years old? standard 3.. and i remember i still wear those shorts to school.. running around playing police and thief, come back from school and then sleep. yeah.. that's how my life was..

God Bless~

Cupid

Yo people,




Today on 8tv, Cupid was aired for the first time and I guess this will be one good show where I can be educated about LOVE. hahaha.





So the story goes like this. There's this guy, who calls himself Cupid, and he was punished to Earth and he has to bring together 100 couples before he can get back to Olympus. His idea of love is more or less pretty 'old school'. And there is this doctor by the name of McCrae, who is a psychiatrist, who is an expert in love relationship.





So McCrae, being a psychiatrist, was assigned to take care of Cupid (cause people think he is coo-coo by calling himself Cupid) and their theory of love sort of collide with each other. I remember some of the words Cupid and McCrae said in the show just now.





Cupid: Love is about passion, heat, the intensity, sex.





McCrae: NO! Love is what's left after the passion, heat or the intensity.





So who's right? Watch the show :)

This is Mr. Cupid

I would like to end this post with one of his other quote:

"Why is it so hard for humans to fall in love?"

God Bless~

History

I don't know since when, but i am starting to miss history. No not the lesson, but my own past experience... as the old people always say 'the good oool days'

life last time was stress-less.. no no.. let me rephrase it.. it's less stress cause as Goh (2009) said, stress is always there, unless you are either dead, or you simply don't care. see.. i blog also need to talk bout Goh.. stress not?

i still remember how college life was so fun and less stressful. during foundation and 1st year, studies was owhkay and eventhough there were some stresses here and there, there is no major stress. as far as i could remember.

volleyball then was stressless. let me repeat this.. STRESSLESS. hahaha.. cause there is no competition, and also, i wasn't the person in charge. So i just go and play, rain or shine, little or many people. i still remember then the court was always filled with laughter. eventhough the turnout might be not encouraging, we still always manage to have fun. that's because we were just playing for fun, and not really training.

nowadays, things are more uptight, more things to achieve, more goals to be met, higher expectations. and ultimately more stress. Study wise, as well as the commitment of being who i am. but although there are more stress, there are also good things.

it's good that we can compete, a lot more than i can ever imagine 2 years back. before this, i could never imagine that i will be always looking out for tournaments to participate in. it's also good that the volleyballers are having quite a strong bond. ok not all of them, but some of them. this really made me glad.

to describe my transformation, i guess it's like a soldier in battlefield, or a young activist. we set out with a big dream, of having something great, of transforming and making things better. thinking of how we can change people's live for the better.

but when reality sets in, things are not as what they seem. soldiers who are suppose to protect civilians kills civilians instead. activist who fight for what he/she thinks is right is sometimes seen as wrongdoers. and in the process of trying to achieve their goal, they themselves have transformed into someone else.

have i changed? i think i have, but i won't put a value of whether it's good or bad. i guess it's just like what Lulu (a character in Final Fantasy 10) said

"If you want everything, you will end up with nothing"

But i really do want everything.. hahaha... well i guess such is life. there is no perfect solution to everything is there?

God Bless~

Responsibilities

It's been a while since i last blogged. There are many things that came to my mind, and sometimes i want to blog about it, but then again, i guessed it's not that significant, and therefore, i didn't blog about it.

Anyhow, today i am going to blog about RESPONSIBILITIES

I think of myself as quite responsible. Or at least that's what i PERCEIVE about myself. I may be lazy, but when it comes to the things that i am schematic about, i am pretty responsible. So what are the things that are schematic to me? I think currently, rank no. 1 on the list is the Volleyball Club. and so i shall rant about it. XD

It's really hard when you are in the position of a leader. Being a leader means that you will have to balance the needs of everyone including my own needs and it's really tough to balance these needs.

1) The need to win vs the need to train
When we send teams out for competition, definitely the goal is to win. Or at least strive to win, which means that the strongest players will be the main players. This will also mean that the reserve players will most likely sit on bench for the whole of competition. Being the leader, I would also want to reserves to have a chance to play, to compete in competition cause if not, then what's the purpose of coming for training week after week? How to balance? Almost impossible cause it will be forsaking a goal for another, unless of course the reserves player are awesomely good, but that's rarely the case.

Solution? - send out 2 teams. But still there are people whom dislike this, cause obviously the strongest team will be in one side (need to win), and everyone wants to play for the winning team (Goh, 2009). The people who are in the second team might feel that they are 'second class' being chucked aside.

Conclusion - Headache

2) The need for real training and the need for fun
Real training is tough, and not many people like it. Therefore there is a need to balance between being too tough in training and between having fun, which is of course difficult because is it's not tough enough, then it's not stimulating enough and nobody will improve. If it's too tough, then it will be demotivating. And stimulating for a person might mean too hard for another.

Solution - The only thing i can figure out right now is that training should follow the person's progression. Of course, it's easier said than done.

Conclusion - Headache

3) Need for inclusiveness vs my selfish needs
As a volleyball player myself, of course i would want each match to be as stimulating as possible, so that I can hone my skills as well as all others on the court. which in this case would mean that everyone on the court should be good players. It would be a good challenge. But at the same time, I cannot sideline other players, cause they should play with good players as well so that they can improve, but if less good players are in, then the match would be less fun (and yes, i know i am being very selfish with this statement). Also, it's extremely important (or at least i think so) to have the main team train together with other people so that they can have cohesiveness between members. Sadly, when the main team group together, normally the other team don't stand a change, and therefore, normally the strength of the 2 teams are seperated

Solution - this 1 is easier to be balanced. have some games which includes everyone, and other games which is like 'all-star' players. so no biggie. Can ask for friendly with other outsiders, so that the main team can train.

Conclusion - hard to balance and need a lot of planning and hard work to ask people to come play friendly with us.

Oh well.. that's not just all but i guess it's enough la. All in all it's headache, but i do love volleyball very much and that's that.

God Bless~

Finally

25th June 2009

Ah.. after some time of not blogging, now it's time. Although it's just a single day, let's go through the events together.

1.00 a.m. - switched off my laptop after editing Psych 302. Have been editing it for past few days.. sick of it dy :p. Good thing it's completed now and it's due tomorrow.. whee~ went to bed

4.30 a.m. - woke up and went to toilet. Had a major stomach ache and purging. Continuous 4 times and i shitted until about around 6 morning. 4 times consecutively le. Break record already. XD

6.00 - 9.15 - managed to sleep and had a strange dream. Let's talk more about it.

So i remember that i was asking someone about whether there's an arcade somewhere. Who that someone is and where is this somewhere i don't remember much. what i do remember is that this person told me that it's on top, 2nd door to the left.

so i went on top, it's like a shopping complex and the method i went on top was kinda cool. i kinda glided to the top. it's like a slide, but just that it can go upwards as well. so when i reach the top, i realized that my attire was not really presentable. I was in my flowery pants and my sports t shirt (for those whom have seen me play volleyball, it's that attire la). there was a customer service counter and i asked them where was the arcade and they told me that it's 2nd door to the left

so i went in and then the first door was like a sports shop. I went in for a minute to take a look, and then came back out. then i went into the arcade. don't really remember y i went into the arcade, but the arcade is like beside the cinema... after that a little bit fuzzy on what i did there..

the next thing i remember, there was a competition, so everyone went and take a peek. i went too. *at this point, the background changes* the competition was held in an open air, and the competitors were on sand. the court looks like a mini beach volleyball court, minus the net in the middle.

on one side, is a female, pretty big for a Malaysian standard. on the other side, is a couple, one male and one female. *ding* and the 'big' girl rushed to the guy and started hitting the guy like crazy. she bit the guy's ear until it bleeds and the scene was really horrifying. *ding*, the sound of the bell rang and the girl stop assaulting the guy.

it was like a boxing match where there is time limit. so when the bell rang to indicate the start of the second round, the 'big' girl rushed towards the other girl who was teamed up with the guy and started hitting her like crazy. i mean CRAZY!!! she kept punching the girls head, screaming and pounding non stop, while the other girl was screaming for help and in pain. all the guy could do was protect his mate's head with his hands and try to protect her as much as possible. but the girl did not take heed and keep on pounding the girls head like a machine. this scene was even more horrifying.. i can still remember quite vividly.. *ding* bell rang and second round is over

by this time, the guy was so scared that his mucus came out from his nose and he looked so afraid. before the third round started, the guy told the 'big' girl, "if i surrender, what will u do?" to this question, the girl replied 'oh really? then great'. her expression immediately changed from a possessed demon to a innocent girl look. as if nothing had happened. she was smiling happily. that was about all i could remember from my dream.

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9.15 - alarm woke me up and i get ready for college. before going out, i took out a present and placed it on my dad's table. it's his birthday today :D. didn't have any celebrations though.. he is not fond of that kind of treatment.

11.00 - should have a practice for presentation. however, quite a number didn't turn out for different reasons. still, we had our meeting and managed to do some things if not a lot. after that i went to library, and computer lab

1.00 - ai li picked me up for lunch and we went to lucky garden to have wan tan mee. apparently she and i kinda like wan tan mee a lot. XD the noodles was fine. satisfied with my food :) then she told me that she not driving me to college. micheal will be picking her up, so i will chill at her house first. hahah.. and she brought me to her house, wait.. her room. XD

so what i did inside? look at her photos and talk talk lo... then micheal came and went to college.

3.00 - reached college on time. and it was the last class of the semester.. whee~ today's class, me was not sleepy, maybe cause talk a lot.. lol.. after class, came back home and bath, and edit 302 again..

now me blogging, and suddenly got dragonfly came in my room through my window. sorry for killing u dragonfly.. ah.. what an eventful day...

Holidays going to start soon.

God Bless~

It used to be fun

Psychology used to be fun to be learned. Learning about all the theories of human behavior, cognition and emotions. Great psychologist (although some might not be so ethical) such as Freud, Jung, Erickson, Bandura, Skinner, Pavlov, etc. are so interesting. Theories like social identity theory, cognitive dissonance, balance theory, conditioning are great as learning materials.

Where have all the fun go? This semester's subject seem so dry and boring. Even biopsych is more interesting. Contemplating on whether I should take a different subject (which i hope is more interesting). Let's hope it is.

God Bless~

What d'ya say?

So R.AGE got a bunch of adults to ask questions and i think it's pretty fun to answer. So below are the questions and my answers

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin, Deputy Prime Minister
How would you like to see Malaysia in the future?
A: I would like to have a peaceful Malaysia and I hope that Malaysians can all stand united irrespective of race or religion. This can only start when everyone is treated equally and there is no favoritism towards a certain group of people

Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat, Transport Minister and MCA President
Q: What do you understand by "youth empowerment"?
A: The phrase to me means that youths need to be more equipped with knowledge and skills so that they can take on the ever changing world.

Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek, Youth and Sports Minister
Q: What can you contribute to the country in this time of economy crisis?
A: I really don't know. Buy more Malaysian made things and rely less on overseas' products? Either way, I don't really spend money, so I don't know what I can do

Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil, Women, Family and Community Development Minister
Q: Are you ready for gender equality?
A: I don't think there will be a day where total gender equality exist. Of course, we should respect all individuals irrespective of gender and if there is a time when total gender equality exist, I hope I would be ready for it.

Datuk Seri Tony Fernandes, CEO Air Asia
Q: What will it take for you as the youth to think 'Malaysian' first and Chinese/Malay/Indian next?
A: When there is total fairness and unity in the country.

Khairy Jamaluddin, Umno Youth Chief
Q: When you look into the mirror, do you see a member of an ethnic group (Malay, Chinese, Indian etc) or do you see a Malaysian?
A: Definitely an ethnic group. I am proud of my ethnic group's history and proud to be one.

CW Kee, Cartoonist - Kee's World
Q: What drives you crazy?
A: What drives me crazy? Oh quite a lot of things.. Malaysia's polar opposite weather (either super hot or constant rain), traffic jam, inefficient public transport, and if I am unable to play volleyball

Anas Zubedy, Managing Director Zubedy (M) Sdn Bhd
Q: What do you think about yourself?
A: I have a good self concept, I think :)

Ivy Josiah, Executive Director, Women's Aid Organisation
Q: How can we educate men to stop committing violence against women?
A: Ohh.. tough question. I think most violence incidence stems from early life exposure by observing their parents or close ones doing it. Therefore, if we are aiming at curbing violence against women, then we should start from young onwards. A two generation (e.g. father and son) family intervention should be created and carried out. A research of course, should be carried out to determine what causes men to be violent against women.

Jit Murad, Playwright and Actor
Q: What things about us seem unfair to you?
A: Life is unfair. It's just about how much you would strive to achieve what you want eventhough life is unfair. To me, I think my height is a little unfair to me. I wish I could be a little bit taller XD

Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir, Writer/activist
Q: What do you really think of your parents (and no need to be politically correct and only say nice things!)?
A: My parents are great people and they go to great lengths to make my life more comfortable. Really really great dad I have.

Shebby Singh, Football commentator/pundit
Q: There are many things that can motivate us, but that is different from what our own motivation is. What is your motivation, and why?
A: My own motivation? To be a better man? Why? Maybe so that I can go to heaven? I also would get satisfied if I somehow manage to help people. hahahaha

Zainal Abidin, Singer
Q: What is the definition of an artiste?
A: Person who can bring joy to the world, or at least some people of the world

Lee Khai Loon, Secretariat Member of Youth for Change (Y4C)
Q: What will make politics more interesting to you?
A: Politics in Malaysia is already very interesting as it is. It would be good (not neccessarily more interesting) if the opposition and government would have the same standpoint in some matters so that Malaysia can move forward, and not just stay stagnant because of constant arguments.

Anita Sarawak, Entertainer
Q: How important is national pride to you?
A: Right now, not really important.

Dr. Irene Fernandez, Tenaganita Director
Q: If you were elected into power, what three immediate changes would you make?
A: Another tough question.
1. Ensure excellent public transport (which will take care of the inefficient public transport and traffic jams above)
2. Break down all unfair treatment. People should be evaluated based on their performance, not any other demographics.
3. Ensure bare neccesities to all Malaysians (it might be a shock but some people don't even have electricity and/or access to clean waters)

Datuk Misbun Sidek, National badminton coach
Q: What does it take to become a champion?
A: Definitely hard work, and I would say a little talent if not a lot.

Datuk Dr Jemilah Mahmood, MERCY Malaysia President
Q: How important is it to you to put aside time for voluntary work in the community, whether locally or globally?
A: On a scale of 1 till 7 where 1 is not important at all and 7 is very important, I would score 2.5

Lim Guan Eng, Penang Chief Minister
Q: If you were the Penang Chief Minister, what is the one policy action you would take to the people?
A: No idea.

Dr Adeeba Kamaruzzaman, Malaysian AIDS Council President
Q: If there's one thing you would change about school, what would it be?
A: Less exam oriented

Youssouf Oomar, UNICEF Representative to Malaysia and Special Representative to Brunei
Q: How do you perceive your role and responsibility as a citizen of Malaysia and the world?
A: As a citizen of Malaysia, I hope I can lend a helping hand to those in need. That is why I would study hard to achieve my goal.

J. Anu, Artist
Q: What are you reading?
A: Currently, Angels and Demons by Dan Brown

Datuk Yasmin Yusuff, Artiste
Q: Do you believe only the young can speak to the young?
A: No, I believe that the old can speak to the young too.

JJ, Hitz FM Radio Announcer
Q: We had games like Chopping, Kunda Kundi, Catching, Five Stone, Galah Panjang, Police and Thief and many more. What games bring you out of the house?
A: I play volleyball. Does that count?

Michael Wong (Guang Liang), Singer-songwriter
Q: How will your lives be different if music ceased to exist?
A: Live would be very dull without music as music is a form of expression. If music ceased to exist, I will sing. XD

Zang Toi, Fashion Designer
Q: What fresh new ideas do the young generation have to help solve global economy crisis and world peace ?
A: I really don't know.

Francesca Peters, Singer
Q: Is there more to you than money, money, money, the rat race, finding a rich partner and "scoring"?
A: Yes. Living life meaningfully, help other people, and play volleyball :)

Jo Kukathas, Theatre actor and director
Q: When you close your eyes and see yourself, what do you dream you are and what do you dream you can become?
A: I dream that I will become a counseling psychologist (maybe lecturing at the same time) and also a part time volleyball coach (maybe a player at the same time).

Datuk Zaid Ibrahim, Former De Facto Law Minister
Q: Do you care who your leaders are?
A: I do. I would want a person who is capable of holding and executing their roles.

Datuk Ambiga Sreenevasan, Immediate past president of the Malaysian Bar
Q: Do you feel disconnected from the politics of Malaysia and in this regard how much do you value your right to vote?
A: I am now still not eligible to vote but even if I have the power to vote, I still would feel disconnected. Might be because politicians are always talking and not doing. Jumping boats from one party to another. Not doing enough for the people. Tell me, what's the basis of voting again?

Khalid Samad, Shah Alam MP
Q: What are the characteristics of good governance and what is your role in ensuring that these characteristics are truly embodied by the government of the day?
A: Characteristics of good governance. Execute what you plan and enforce it consistently. More often than not, Malaysia always have an act or certain policy but it is the lack of enforcement that is the problem. What use is the policy then? Another characteristic would be always place the people first. My role would be to follow the rules properly.

Camelia, Singer
Q: What do you think is a good age for a young person to leave home?
A: 21, and that is if they are earning themselves.

Prof Emeritus Tan Sri Lim Kok Wing, President Limkowing University of Creative Technology Q: Do you feel that creativity (or freedom to express oneself creatively) is sufficiently encouraged in this country?
A: I don't think so. We are always told what to do, or rather what we SHOULD do. School exams are always based on answer script and any deviation would be deemed wrong.

Datuk Dr Denison Jayasooria, Principal Research Fellow, Institute of Ethnic Studies, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
Q: If, as a young person, you are able to lead this nation, how will you seek to build a Malaysia where there is greater consciousness of being Malaysians first?
A: Fight for the people and serve them as one, rather than for certain subsets.

Patrick Teoh, Actor
Q: Why are so many young Malaysians apparently so apolitical?
A: Because they don't see that being involve would have made any difference.

Winnie Loo, Hairstylist
Q: You all are so blessed with everything lay on your table whether is technology, transportation and even communications, but what do you see yourself 10 years from now? Can the world be a better place with your new generation knowledge?
A: Honestly speaking, the way I see it, technology is making people lazier. That is why I exercise so that I am in good health. 10 years from now, the world will definitely change, but I won't be too sure if it's for the better or worse (let's hope it's not the latter).

Yasmin Ahmad, Film director
Q: What is the best thing about being in a multi-racial country?
A: Undoubtedly many people will answer food. And I would agree with that. But besides that, it's the simple fact that we don't see the same skin colour everywhere. You can put it that it's colourful :D

Prof Emeritus Tan Sri Dr Khoo Kay Kim, Historian
Q: Do you think lecturers in a university should learn to be more effective teachers?
A: All educators, including lecturers and school teachers should learn to be more effective in transmitting their knowledge. A good educator can make a dry subject interesting but a bad educator can make a really interesting subject boring.

Jeff Ooi, Jelutong MP
Q: How would you like to see Malaysia become in 10 years time?
A: Better governance. This would make all the differences and I believe a lot of our problems would be solved if we have better governance.

Hishamuddin Rais, Writer
Q: Should the young know who is Tun Sri Lanang, A.Samad Ismail, Usman Awang, Victor Hugo, Tagore, Lu Xun or Tolstoy?
A: They should.

Tan Sri Ramon Navaratnam, Transparency International Malaysia president
Q: Do you feel that you have got a good deal as a Malaysian citizen?
A: I think I do. Should be thankful that Malaysia is progressing at such fast pace.

Aznil Hj. Nawawi, TV personality
Q: How can we become a developed nation without sacrificing our local and traditional values?
A: To be a developed nation, one must be open to opinions and feedback. We need not sacrifice our values, but at the same time, being dogmatic about our values will do us no good. The point is to find common grounds where we can accept ideas, without sacrificing our values.

Ujang, Cartoonist
Q: Apakah yang anda fahami tentang pentingnya mencintai sungai dan alam semulajadi?
A: Pada saya, mencintai sungai dan alam semulajadi bermaksud tidak mencemari alam sekitar. Kita tidak seharusnya membuang sampah merata-rata dan kita perlu berjimat, berjimat dengan perbelanjaan dan kegunaan seharian. Apabila kita berjimat, maka akan berkuranglah permintaan dan apabila permintaan berkurangan, penghasilan juga akan berkurangan. Dengan ini, pencemaran juga akan berkurangan.

Azean Irdawaty, Actress
Q: What does being grateful to your country mean to you?
A: It means that I will make the country better by giving back to it

Datuk Faridah Merican, Executive Producer KLPAC
Q: What is the most important thing about being a young Malaysian?
A: To live my life to the fullest

Eddin Khoo, Writer and traditional arts activist
Q: What do you think you are all about, really?
A: Very deep question. I think I am a person who is here for a purpose and that is to make this world a better place for some people if not many.

I think this would be my longest post so far.

God Bless~

Susan Boyle

Have you heard of Susan Boyle? No? then go here and see

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

yes?.. still go and see.. XD

she's extraordinary..

Archuleta, Cooke, move aside, for here comes Susan Boyle!!

God Bless~

Dream

19th April 09

So this morning i had a dream and I would like to talk about it..

i remembered that i was at home, and i decided to go play ball.. it was raining outside until around 5.30 evening and after the rain stopped, i went out to play ball.. when i reached there, i only saw Chai and another guy..

the court was like beside a coffee house and at that moment, Chai was in the coffee house. then i asked where are other people.. then people start coming in and we didn't play ball in the end. we yum cha-ed.. among the people there whom i remember is rachel, zheng zoe, shawn, kin yip, mun kiat and sook yeen. so we ordered food, and yes.. i think we played scrabble there..

i was sitting beside kin yip and asked him whether he got any target or not now.. XD.. then he told me got.. i asked him to show me her picture.. he took out his phone and started showing me her picture (i actually still remember the picture or the girl.. vaguely, but the image still there.. freaky owhkay..). unfortunately for him, the pictures he showed me is picture of the girl with another guy.. she has a bf.. XD XD

then after makan-ing, time to pay bill.. they all started to take out RM 10 notes and Rm 50 notes.. and put on the table.. and i remember saying 'i know u all got money.. but no need 'tat' me like that 1'.. seriously, there are awful load of money on the table after they took out their money..

then took the money and proceed to the counter.. the bill came out to RM 2000.. sweat.. eat a little only but the payment so expensive.. so check the bill y so expensive.. they charge us for playing scrabble as well.. SWT!!! like 1 word we make RM 150.. (or something like that la.. XD) bottomline is, we need to pay cause we played scrabble... ridiculous right?

anyhow we paid and left.. zoe followed me to my car to take his umbrella.. the car where i parked was near a night market and after taking the umbrella, me and zoe went to night market.. that's all i remembered when i woke up.. guahaha..

Since i just read about dream in my biopsych book.. might as well flaunt my knowledge a bit right? because my prefrontal cortex is inhibited, my dream is pretty much without restriction (cause prefrontal cortex doesn't come and say 'wait that's not possible').. therefore explaining the charge for scrabble and the court beside coffee shop..

when i woke up, i felt a sense of emotional connection cause long time didn't see my friends dy.. my amgydala might be responsible for that cause during REM sleep, amgydala is stimulated..

God Bless~