Awakenings

Just finished watching this movie and it's a beautiful BEEEEAAAAUUUTIFUUUL movie. I just feel so much emotions while watching the movie. Make us wonder what life is all about and I love so many things inside the movie.



I love the messages that is in the movie, I love how Robin Williams managed to portray his character so nicely (i can relate to him), i love how the issue of life is being tackled, I love everything the movie has to offer. Definitely a very good movie, and in my opinion, it's even better than Good Will Hunting, which i love a lot as well.



The story talks about Dr. Sayer, a researcher who is trying to find a new job in this hospital, a chronic hospital they call it. It is where people who have mental illness gets place, something like a mental institution. Dr. Sayer has never been involved in any interaction with human as long as his career is concerned because he is a researcher before this. But taking up this job forced him to deal with people.



He then found out that catatonic patients there have response towards certain stimulus and that sparked his interest in trying to find a cure. He managed to find the 'cure' and for a while, the patients awake from their vegetative state.



Leonard, was his first success and I especially love what he told Leonard regarding humans.
As he was telling Leonard about the awesomeness of the periodic table of chemistry, he says that it's the universe in essence. Everything has it's place and it's just so amazing. Leonard asked him 'you are not married are you?'


and he answered



'no.. i am not married. I have never been good with people. It's not that i don't like them, i do. I just hope that i would have more rudimentary understanding of them. If only humans were less unpredictable'



hearing that, i smiled at myself. go watch the movie. it's AWESOME!



God Bless~

Pregraduation reflection

Even though i haven't finish studying, it feels as if graduation is dawning upon me quickly. Want to run, but cannot escape. I know alot of people who wants to get away from uni as quickly as possible. i on the other hand am ambivalent about graduating.

throughout my 4 years in college, i would say it's one of the most interesting facets in my life. primary and secondary school was fun, fun in a way that it was relatively stress free. college life on the other hand is pretty fun too. more stress, and i really love the process of studying and doing assignments together. i repeat, I LOVE DOING ASSIGNMENTS TOGETHER. reminiscing back at when i first started foundation, slowly up till now, the dynamics of doing assignment changed tremendously.

it was always together gether then, doing and discussing things together, and doing and discussing things together again. everyone was less tied down by other responsibilities, and therefore have time to invest in studies. and when it's done, everyone's happy. everyone's happy during the process, or at least i would think so. from Juz do it Cafe, till MC 100 video, till colloquium posters and presentations, till creating that stupid clip peg game, i love them all. we can have bbq, birthday parties, hanging out together, holiday trips. where have all that gone to?

btw, not all group assignments i like. i only like assignments which i can work with people. i am not afraid of the assignment being tough. i am most afraid of people whom i can't work with. who don't communicate. who don't seem to care. some people i tell u, just don't work cooperatively. or at least i don't see their cooperativeness. and it's very disheartening sometimes when u invest so much, and your team members are as if acuh tak acuh. whether or not they really acuh tak acuh idk, but it seems AS IF la. :x

nowadays, idk y, but it seems everyone's busy. less time to spend on assignments, and therefore everyone wants the economical way out. minimum time wasted, with maximum return. well, i am not saying that it's not good, but what about the enjoyment of completing the assignment? to me, that's very much lost now. everyone just want to get it done with and that's that. period.

is this what life is supposed to be? do we stop and enjoy the roads that we are taking instead of just rushing to the finishing line? do we know what are we chasing after and where are we heading?

as graduation is dawning, i am at a crossroad, thinking where to go after this. take postgrad degree, get a job, get married, have a few kids, and then die? is that what life is all about?

God Bless~

Jade-ism

What's with the jade-ism which fills the world today? is the world such a gloomy place?

Today when i was following one of my friends back from college, the topic on relationships came up. somehow, it led to marriage and my friend said that the person you marry might not necessarily be the person u love most.

well, yeah, i would agree, but i would be optimistic and think that we would hopefully marry someone we truly love? but she's like.. aih.. sudahlah, sui sui bian bian kahwin, and then have kids only. cause she loves kids. :x

is it me that is still under the illusion? or is it she that is too pessimistic?

CAFFEINEES

Went to Caffeinees on friday (19th March 2010) with Jia Leng and Irene. :)

Sorta kinda time to chill out from all the anxiety and stress i guess.. and it's good :) jia leng abducted me from my house at around 11.45 i think, as i was just coming out of the bathroom. i was like.. she's here? shit.. haven't prepared yet.. XD

then she drove us to this wonderful restaurant Caffeinees. pretty nice place, price also pretty ok :)

Jia Leng ordered this satay, and said it's delicious... ask me to try.. i say i don't 1 eat cause scared spicy.. she told me not spicy 1.. LIAR!! eat already i non stop drink ice lemon tea. =.=; the satay is delicious, but really too spicy for me la..

the satay

the two girls

me enjoying my cup of tea ^^

Nice time off.. and then come back with sore throat.. all because of who? ngek ngek XD

God Bless~

沒那麼簡單 / Mei Na Me Jian Dan (It's not so easy) by 黃小琥 Huang Xiao Hu-

Am currently addicted to this wonderful song.

沒那麼簡單 / Mei Na Me Jian Dan (It's not so easy) by 黃小琥 Huang Xiao Hu

没那么简单 就能找到
mei na me jian dan jiu neng zhao dao
It's not that easy to find

聊得来的伴
liao de lai de ban
someone who you can comfortably communicate with

尤其是在
you qi shi zai
Even more so

看过了那么多的背叛
kan guo le na me duo de bei pan
when you have witnessed so many betrayals

总是不安
zong shi bu an
Will feel insecure

只好强悍
zhi hao qiang han
would just have to be brave enough

谁谋杀了我的浪漫
shei mou sha le wo de lang man
Who killed my romance

没那么简单
mei na me jian dan
It's not that easy

就能去爱
jiu neng qu ai
to be able to love

别的全不看
bie de quan bu kan
but ignore all the other things

变得实际
bian de shi ji
have changed to be more materialistic

也许好也许坏各一半
ye xu hao ye xu huai ge yi ban
maybe it's good, maybe it's bad, half - half

不爱孤单 一久也习惯
bu ai gu dan yi jiu ye xi guan
dislike to be lonely, but after a while would get used to it

不用担心谁
bu yong dan xin shei
need not worry about anyone

也不用被谁管
ye bu yong bei shei guan
also need not to be controlled by anyone

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
gan jue kuai le jiu mang dong mang xi
when feeling happy, will be so busy running here and there

感觉累了就放空自己
gan jue lei le jiu fang kong zi ji
when feeling tired, then let loose of yourself

别人说的话 随便听一听
bie ren shuo de hua sui bian ting yi ting
what other people say, just listen simply

自己作决定
zi ji zuo jue ding
but the final decision should be made by yourself

不想拥有太多情绪
bu xiang yong you tai duo qing xu
I would not want to have too much emotions

一杯红酒配电影
yi bei hong jiu pei dian ying
a cup of red wine to accompany the movie

在周末晚上 关上了手机
zai zhou mo wan shang guan shang le shou ji
during the weekend evening, switch off your handphone

舒服窝在沙发里
shu fu wo zai sha fa li
comfortably relax on the sofa

Chorus:
相爱没有那么容易
xiang ai mei you na me rong yi
It's not that simple to love

每个人有他的脾气
mei ge ren you ta de pi qi
each person have their own temper

过了爱作梦的年纪
guo le ai zuo meng de nian ji
after the honeymoon period has passed

轰轰烈烈不如平静
hong hong lie lie bu ru ping jing
instead of having grandiose relationship, might as well have silence

幸福没有那么容易
xing fu mei you na me rong yi
Happiness is not that simple

才会特别让人着迷
cai hui te bie rang ren zhao mi
to especially make a person feel fasinated

什么都不懂的年纪
shen me dou bu dong de nian ji
the time when we don't know anything

曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
ceng jing zui tao xin suo yi zui kai xin ceng jing
was when we were most immersed, therefore the happiest moment

没那么简单
mei na me jian dan
It's not that easy

就能去爱
jiu neng qu ai
to be able to love

别的全不看
bie de quan bu kan
but ignore all the other things

变得实际
bian de shi ji
have changed to be more materialistic

也许好也许坏各一半
ye xu hao ye xu huai ge yi ban
maybe it's good, maybe it's bad, half - half

不爱孤单 一久也习惯
bu ai gu dan yi jiu ye xi guan
dislike to be lonely, but after a while would get used to it

不用担心谁
bu yong dan xin shei
need not worry about anyone

也不用被谁管
ye bu yong bei shei guan
also need not to be controlled by anyone

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
gan jue kuai le jiu mang dong mang xi
when feeling happy, will be so busy running here and there

感觉累了就放空自己
gan jue lei le jiu fang kong zi ji
when feeling tired, then let loose of yourself

别人说的话 随便听一听
bie ren shuo de hua sui bian ting yi ting
what other people say, just listen simply

自己作决定
zi ji zuo jue ding
but the final decision should be made by yourself

不想拥有太多情绪
bu xiang yong you tai duo qing xu
I would not want to have too much emotions

一杯红酒配电影
yi bei hong jiu pei dian ying
a cup of red wine to accompany the movie

在周末晚上 关上了手机
zai zhou mo wan shang guan shang le shou ji
during the weekend evening, switch off your handphone

舒服窝在沙发里
shu fu wo zai sha fa li
comfortably relax on the sofa


Repeat Chorus X2

想念最伤心
xiang nian zui shang xin
missing you is the most heart wrenching moment

但却最动心 的记忆
dan que zui dong xin de ji yi
but also the most memorable memory

Amadeus

Another movie which is meaningfully awesome. Oh i almost like all of Goh's movie because it always have something to teach about life. This movie talks about mediocrity and giftedness, and i can so identify myself with Salieri. Always, always, always trying to achieve perfection but fails.

i do envy people who seems to be like Wolfgang to me. last minute work also can be better than mine. how not to be envy? if there is one thing i learnt from this movie, it would be not to put in too much of 'self' into something. we should have invest in different fields so that when one fails to satisfy us that much, we can lean on other fields.

even if you invest a lot on a particular field, then open mindedness is a must. rather than competitive, y not think cooperatively? I wonder what would happen if Salieri and Wolfgang were to gang up together. personally i don't think it's very possible because the level is so far off. although they might understand one another, but Salieri would in all probability not contribute anything, simply because Wolfgang would have thought of all possibilities. how not to hate such people right? but at the same time, there's admiration.. oh ambivalency.. :x

Salieri often wondered in the movie "why would God give the gift of such music talent to such a young, ruthless lad like Wolfgang" Salieri concluded that God is unfair and came to the conclusion to stop this instrument of God.

but i guess there is reason on why God would create such individuals. maybe it's because He simply wants us to know that He has the power to do so, and to make us humble and human again. To not overly estimate our own 'smartness' and therefore He purposely plant some of these awesome geniuses every now and then, throughout history. and He would purposely make these geniuses to be a rascal, to differ from the norm, just to make us be humbled..

God Bless~

The Departures

A magnificent movie which i had longed to catch since it came out. But didn't have the opportunity to. Good news is that Goh actually played this movie in class, and yay.. i got to watch for free :)

I like the fact that this movie talks about death and grief. how one should come to terms with one's life before death, and how one should come to terms with death itself, to accept death as a process of living, rather than it being an all-bad-ending.

In it, what i get is that dying is not something that should be avoided or afraid of. most of the time people would not want to die because they have so much things to hold on to. so much things left unresolved. therefore if you have something which you would want to do, don't wait too long. do not let the chance slip away and then regret about it

oh.. the cello song in the departures is superbly awesome. addicted to it now, together with another song, mei na me jian dao, another awesome song.

"the living eats on the dead to continue living. therefore when you eat, eat well"

God Bless~