May 29th 2010
Lol.. today i dreamt about so many people.. let's start with the first 1. this dream was in the morning.. i remember that i was in a classroom.. the small classroom in secondary school.. and there were few people i recognize like Rahul, Jamil and Fairuz. lol.. we were doing some stuffs la..
and then the teacher came in.. and i was acting all ketua darjah-ish and said "BANGUN SEMUA. SELAMAT SEJAHTERA CIKGU" XDXDXD.. it's been years since i hear that phrase.. ROFL. really sweet dream.
Then i had a nap in the afternoon and this dream was even more crazy.. more characters.. lol.. from what i remember, it started like this..
i was at the garden inside a house.. and there was this tent on the garden.. i was playing with some people.. one of them being Anson Tan (Anson.. dreamt about u dy la.. happy not? :p). in this tent, was the maid.. and the maid's husband i think.. or at least they are foreigners.. both of them were enjoying their evening tea i suppose..
so after playing... i went into this so called tent with anson, and then the maid went off, but the husband stayed there.. this tent then suddenly became like a transport and transported me to this hotel.. where ai li was there. XD another person was there but i don't remember who.. i started to talk to ai li about her US trip and how it went about..
then i don't know how but candice came into the picture.. she said something like her family was waiting for us for dinner (we were in a hotel remember?) and said the family was waiting somewhere la... then Shawn and me went together with her for the dinner..
halfway walking to the restaurant.. somehow along the way, candice was no longer in the picture and me and shawn were walking in the compound of some sort of school. it's not really a school either, but then i don't know how to put it.. then lots of people came into the picture like mun kiat, zheng zoe, sook yeen, suet lai and wai shin. XD
we walked to the badminton court to ask whether there are still courts available and yes there is.. but then we didn't play because our attire was not sports attire.. then we walked back out, and saw a few people getting ready to play volleyball.. i was saying we should go play with them, and then this one dude from the other team (a total stranger to us) came behind shawn and started fanning shawn's butt. XDXD
he fan 1 time, shawn ran... fan another time, shawn ran somemore.. hahaha.. the guy chased after shawn and shawn ran.. when we finally got out of the building, shawn was tired and he leaned on me and i held his hand.. then zoe and wai shin took out camera and started to snap our photos, cause we held onto each other like couple.. all kan chan kan chan. XD
ah.. but it was a funny dream.. SWEET FUNNY DREAMS.
God Bless~
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Innocence
28th May 2010
Something is making my mind unsettled. Very unsettled actually. It's pretty scary how someone u know changed so dramatically to someone u never knew would become. i'm not going to put a value on whether it's good or bad, but it's rather suprising. so unexpected. probably more so when the things that i see appealing about this person is no longer visible to me due to the transformation. here's the million dollar question. Why should i care? it's not my life.
the million dollar answer? :)
i guess i should let people live as how they want. it's their life at the end of the day, not mine. I am at no position to impose what i think. nor can i say that my beliefs are right.
All i can hope for, is that people stay true to themselves while pursuing goals and dreams in life.
Something is making my mind unsettled. Very unsettled actually. It's pretty scary how someone u know changed so dramatically to someone u never knew would become. i'm not going to put a value on whether it's good or bad, but it's rather suprising. so unexpected. probably more so when the things that i see appealing about this person is no longer visible to me due to the transformation. here's the million dollar question. Why should i care? it's not my life.
the million dollar answer? :)
i guess i should let people live as how they want. it's their life at the end of the day, not mine. I am at no position to impose what i think. nor can i say that my beliefs are right.
All i can hope for, is that people stay true to themselves while pursuing goals and dreams in life.
"Do not lose the innocence in you, for once you do, you lose yourself"
God Bless~
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Worries, thoughts, and rumination
Hmm... as one gets older, i guess one gets more worries. more things to think about. more things to consider. and more things to ruminate on. not a very good thing actually :x
Some of the things i am ruminating/thingking/worried about
1) Postgrad education - what to study? don't know... where to study? don't know.. where to get the money? don't know.. hopefully can get scholarship.. but then if no first class honours how? chance of getting scholarship becomes slimmer. will i get first class honours? very hard :x am i worried? YEAP.. DEFINITELY!!
2) Life - whoah.. big, DDEEEEPPP word. when graduation comes nearer, i can't help but think where my life is going. almost endless option of what to do and where to head next. i want to go out and see the world. do things which i can only do now when i am still young. like climb Mount KK, go travelling around some parts of the world. experience things, but sadly no money no talk. which comes to my third thing to ruminate
3) Money - money makes the world spin. ok not literally but if u think of it, it really does. without money, one can do almost nothing. unless we plant our own vege, and rear our own chicken and fishes. we need money to survive, and to fulfill the 2 stuff above, i defintely need a large sum of money. Education don't come FOC. neither do experiencing things and travelling. i am starting to value money i guess, since i know how fast money can be 'burned'. go out once, will need use approximately 20 bucks minimum. want to do stuff, but no money. how? go earn money lo..
and i think i am falling into this spiral of earning money > spending money > earning money > to spend more money. slowly pushing me towards a more materialistic world. and i don't 1 to be materialistic. hmm.. :x this is bad, this is bad. i don't 1 money to be my main motivation. ><
........ how eh?
God Bless~
Some of the things i am ruminating/thingking/worried about
1) Postgrad education - what to study? don't know... where to study? don't know.. where to get the money? don't know.. hopefully can get scholarship.. but then if no first class honours how? chance of getting scholarship becomes slimmer. will i get first class honours? very hard :x am i worried? YEAP.. DEFINITELY!!
2) Life - whoah.. big, DDEEEEPPP word. when graduation comes nearer, i can't help but think where my life is going. almost endless option of what to do and where to head next. i want to go out and see the world. do things which i can only do now when i am still young. like climb Mount KK, go travelling around some parts of the world. experience things, but sadly no money no talk. which comes to my third thing to ruminate
3) Money - money makes the world spin. ok not literally but if u think of it, it really does. without money, one can do almost nothing. unless we plant our own vege, and rear our own chicken and fishes. we need money to survive, and to fulfill the 2 stuff above, i defintely need a large sum of money. Education don't come FOC. neither do experiencing things and travelling. i am starting to value money i guess, since i know how fast money can be 'burned'. go out once, will need use approximately 20 bucks minimum. want to do stuff, but no money. how? go earn money lo..
and i think i am falling into this spiral of earning money > spending money > earning money > to spend more money. slowly pushing me towards a more materialistic world. and i don't 1 to be materialistic. hmm.. :x this is bad, this is bad. i don't 1 money to be my main motivation. ><
........ how eh?
A life lived in fear is a life half lived.
God Bless~
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Bukit Tak Tau
22 May 2010
Since i am only taking 1 sub this sem, i am still pretty free. i consider myself still in holidays (cause i practically am la) out of 7 days in a week, i only need to go once to college. lol.. so what do i do at home? STONE and plan outings. XDXD
Went hiking at Bukit tak tau (we really don't know what's the name of the hill, hence the tak tau) at 7.30 with Suet, Kong, Mun Kiat and Suet's bro (called ah boi) XD
the journey up was owhkay la.. not very tough, but still a little bit tiring.
at the first stop :D
view from above
after that, we went further in and reached what is known as Guiness top
and it's so cool.. there are so many equipments here for exercise (like this sandbag).. lol.. saga hill also don't have such things.. XDXD
the wind here is really cooling ^^ awesome posem.. definitely going again sometime soon i hope. :D
God Bless~
A little update
In one of my previous posts titled 'Stagnation' i did say about what are something that i am going to do. And yesh, i am doing 2 of the 3 things now.
ARUPS - abstract submission has been accepted and i will be presenting. whee.. good opportunity to get links i guess. lol.. time for some socializing? :x
Home tuition - am giving home tuition as well. and i tell u, the kiddos are naughty. especially the little girl ><
VVBC - haven't yet la.. still resting my knee
Other updates
1) Results was good. But, aih, probably not good enough. roar
2) The trip to lumut canceled.. BOO HOO! BODOH!! dissapointed shit ><
3) tomorrow am going to klcc for the postgrad edu fair. I see myself finishing masters. working and getting big bucks, getting married, having kids and dying. lol.. but at least it's a plan right? XD
God Bless~
ARUPS - abstract submission has been accepted and i will be presenting. whee.. good opportunity to get links i guess. lol.. time for some socializing? :x
Home tuition - am giving home tuition as well. and i tell u, the kiddos are naughty. especially the little girl ><
VVBC - haven't yet la.. still resting my knee
Other updates
1) Results was good. But, aih, probably not good enough. roar
2) The trip to lumut canceled.. BOO HOO! BODOH!! dissapointed shit ><
3) tomorrow am going to klcc for the postgrad edu fair. I see myself finishing masters. working and getting big bucks, getting married, having kids and dying. lol.. but at least it's a plan right? XD
God Bless~
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
How will i die?
12th May 2010
This morning i had a few strange dreams. Let's start with the first 1
Dream 1
I was driving down from Lookout Point and at the first corner, i was supposed to turn left, but the car skided to the right, rammed onto the divider and fell off the cliff. and i vividly remember the feeling of free-falling in the dream. the car front was facing the ground, and i can see the sharp stones glaring at me... the feeling of falling and looking at the place u are going to land is pretty scary and interesting. :x and i remember this very clearly.. while falling i think to myself 'is this the way i am going to die?' the feeling was so real.. exciting shit. XD
the car did landed, but it didn't land so nastily la.. i didn't manage to die after all. and then the next thing i remember was that i was bragging to people about how i didn't die from the accident.. what a joke.. XD
after that i was in a shopping complex, and i guess i was going somewhere, not sure where. i was holding a rose and then walk walk, i saw Yean May.. lol.. the rose was supposed to be given to someone else i suppose, cause i didn't plan on giving it to May, but since i didn't manage to give the rose to that someone, i ended up giving Yean May XD
Dream 2
i was in a lalaland somewhere. the place seems like a hotel, but they got fast food restaurant, and also theme park at the same place. o.O anyway.. i was eating with evie i think, and there was Suk Pei there also. we talked a bit about badminton, and then she went to sit the thrill ride. then after that i also went to sit on the ride, and saw someone familiar from foundation.. well he obviously remembers me, but i vaguely remember him :x there are some other things with the dream, but don't really remember. just that the place was really pretty nice.. all in white..
Dream 3
haha.. this is a strange 1.. i dreamt that 3 students (including me) were in a bedroom and ms. WC was teaching in the room. :x what she teached.. i don't really remember. just remember the setting which is in a bedroom. and all three of us were lying on the bed while she was talking ROFL.
So many strange dream in 1 day.. side effect of consuming too much seafood? lol.. i especially like the dream where i am going to die. so cute.. how often people get such dreams right? XD
God Bless~
This morning i had a few strange dreams. Let's start with the first 1
Dream 1
I was driving down from Lookout Point and at the first corner, i was supposed to turn left, but the car skided to the right, rammed onto the divider and fell off the cliff. and i vividly remember the feeling of free-falling in the dream. the car front was facing the ground, and i can see the sharp stones glaring at me... the feeling of falling and looking at the place u are going to land is pretty scary and interesting. :x and i remember this very clearly.. while falling i think to myself 'is this the way i am going to die?' the feeling was so real.. exciting shit. XD
the car did landed, but it didn't land so nastily la.. i didn't manage to die after all. and then the next thing i remember was that i was bragging to people about how i didn't die from the accident.. what a joke.. XD
after that i was in a shopping complex, and i guess i was going somewhere, not sure where. i was holding a rose and then walk walk, i saw Yean May.. lol.. the rose was supposed to be given to someone else i suppose, cause i didn't plan on giving it to May, but since i didn't manage to give the rose to that someone, i ended up giving Yean May XD
Dream 2
i was in a lalaland somewhere. the place seems like a hotel, but they got fast food restaurant, and also theme park at the same place. o.O anyway.. i was eating with evie i think, and there was Suk Pei there also. we talked a bit about badminton, and then she went to sit the thrill ride. then after that i also went to sit on the ride, and saw someone familiar from foundation.. well he obviously remembers me, but i vaguely remember him :x there are some other things with the dream, but don't really remember. just that the place was really pretty nice.. all in white..
Dream 3
haha.. this is a strange 1.. i dreamt that 3 students (including me) were in a bedroom and ms. WC was teaching in the room. :x what she teached.. i don't really remember. just remember the setting which is in a bedroom. and all three of us were lying on the bed while she was talking ROFL.
So many strange dream in 1 day.. side effect of consuming too much seafood? lol.. i especially like the dream where i am going to die. so cute.. how often people get such dreams right? XD
God Bless~
Monday, May 10, 2010
Police shooting?
These past few weeks, the death of a certain teenager made public uproar because he was shot dead by police, and he's a minor. The police is now being charged over this incident and well, that's that. Because of this incident, the issue of police shooting became rife. And i guess the million dollar question in everybody's mind is 'do police officers really simply shoot people?'
well i don't have the answer to the question but shouldn't police be given some form of power to exercise? it was dark, they were speeding, not to mention the driver had no licence, and they didn't stop when asked to. aren't they/him were the people at fault? owhkay, maybe the police shooting is a bit extreme, but let's imagine for a while the police didn't shoot the dude.. let's imagine what would happen
they were speeding to escape police and if the shooting didn't occur, they probably would knock onto another person, a tree, a car, a motorbike or whatever, and the life of another is gone or maybe their lives are gone.
if that didn't happen then maybe they got so excited about managing to escape from the police that they attempt to do it again.. and this time maybe the above would happen.
then what? blame the police for not stopping them the first time it happened? or for not 'being there' when future accident happen? see how it goes? whatever it is, it seems that the police are to blame, simply because when things like this happen, people need to blame on people, because they need to find someone to take the fault, which is really sad. y not take some time and reflect on why in the first place such an incident could have occured?
or probably.. probably they would got so scared that they will not try to do it ever again. which i really hope would happen to lots of mat rempits, but i guess they prove me wrong la..
whatever the possibility is, we wouldn't know, but what is certain is that the dudes are at fault first. is the shooting justified? idk cause i don't know the real situation. both parties are saying different things from the same incident.. :x
another pretty funny incident to me was another police shooting which happened in seremban. the police shot a teen in the stomach for riding a motorbike without licence and failing to stop after being asked several times.
the shooting is not the funny thing.. the funny thing is what the father said in interview...
"although my son does not have a valid licence, the cop should not have opened fire. My son sat for the test once but did not pass. In fact, he was planning to sit for another one."
"he also described his eldest son as an obedient child and hoped that the incident would not affect his preparations for SPM this year" (quoted from The Star newspaper)
Does not have a valid licence means no licence. Went for test and fail, means it's a fail. planning to sit for another test means it hasn't happen yet. in what circumstances should the teen be given permission to drive the motorbike? at 3.30 AM?? owhkay probably the dad don't know that his son is like that.. but giving such statement is a little bit... weird.. owhkay, maybe he was right on the 'should not have opened fire' part but what about his son not stopping when asked to?
and the part regarding the 'obedient child'. hahaha.. obedient to what? the father? the law? cause i don't see any obedience here. and he's sitting SPM this year.. what is he doing on the road at 3.30am driving a motorbike without licence and don't want to stop when police ask to?
idk.. u tell me.
God Bless~
well i don't have the answer to the question but shouldn't police be given some form of power to exercise? it was dark, they were speeding, not to mention the driver had no licence, and they didn't stop when asked to. aren't they/him were the people at fault? owhkay, maybe the police shooting is a bit extreme, but let's imagine for a while the police didn't shoot the dude.. let's imagine what would happen
they were speeding to escape police and if the shooting didn't occur, they probably would knock onto another person, a tree, a car, a motorbike or whatever, and the life of another is gone or maybe their lives are gone.
if that didn't happen then maybe they got so excited about managing to escape from the police that they attempt to do it again.. and this time maybe the above would happen.
then what? blame the police for not stopping them the first time it happened? or for not 'being there' when future accident happen? see how it goes? whatever it is, it seems that the police are to blame, simply because when things like this happen, people need to blame on people, because they need to find someone to take the fault, which is really sad. y not take some time and reflect on why in the first place such an incident could have occured?
or probably.. probably they would got so scared that they will not try to do it ever again. which i really hope would happen to lots of mat rempits, but i guess they prove me wrong la..
whatever the possibility is, we wouldn't know, but what is certain is that the dudes are at fault first. is the shooting justified? idk cause i don't know the real situation. both parties are saying different things from the same incident.. :x
another pretty funny incident to me was another police shooting which happened in seremban. the police shot a teen in the stomach for riding a motorbike without licence and failing to stop after being asked several times.
the shooting is not the funny thing.. the funny thing is what the father said in interview...
"although my son does not have a valid licence, the cop should not have opened fire. My son sat for the test once but did not pass. In fact, he was planning to sit for another one."
"he also described his eldest son as an obedient child and hoped that the incident would not affect his preparations for SPM this year" (quoted from The Star newspaper)
Does not have a valid licence means no licence. Went for test and fail, means it's a fail. planning to sit for another test means it hasn't happen yet. in what circumstances should the teen be given permission to drive the motorbike? at 3.30 AM?? owhkay probably the dad don't know that his son is like that.. but giving such statement is a little bit... weird.. owhkay, maybe he was right on the 'should not have opened fire' part but what about his son not stopping when asked to?
and the part regarding the 'obedient child'. hahaha.. obedient to what? the father? the law? cause i don't see any obedience here. and he's sitting SPM this year.. what is he doing on the road at 3.30am driving a motorbike without licence and don't want to stop when police ask to?
idk.. u tell me.
God Bless~
Friday, May 7, 2010
Love Phobia
Today while doing some work for Dr. Albert, i got bored and started to look for movies to watch. XD
so while going through the list of movies available, i stumbled across a korean movie titled 'Love Phobia' ('domabaem' in korean which translates to 'the lizard') and i thought 'hey.. this movie should suit me' XD
so i watched it on youtube and it started really good.. the starting soundtrack was really really cute.. the movie started good, got boring in the middle and only picked up the pace at the end. It got so good at the end cause everything started to make sense. it's a really good movie, how they manage to bring out the story and meaning only at the end. If the middle of the movie could be more interesting, it would be an AWESOME movie.. not that it isn't awesome now. :p
Oh the little girl who acted inside the movie is SUPER SUPER SUPER SO SO SO CUTE!!! This is her photo
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Highly recommended. For those who likes typical love story, maybe this movie is not suitable. lol..
God Bless~
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Stagnation
Sometimes in life, u come to a point where u think about what is the meaning of life. where u are going, and what are u doing right now. Meng said the other day that his life is at a stagnation point, where life is so.. mundane.. in and out do the same stuff and it seems like it's getting no where.
to me, stagnation is a good thing. it's a good thing because it proves that we have managed to achieve a certain level at something... that we are so used to it that it no longer becomes a challenge. so when life is stagnant, then what do we do? we do other things, bigger things, better things, greater things to improve and challenge what we can do.
direction in life does not mean only 1 path. it could be taking different paths, and arriving at the same point. or maybe at some point in life, we realize that the destination might have changed, and therefore the paths taken have to change as well.
that's the reason i took up psychology of film this sem. to see what i can do, something outside of the normal theoretical class. my life is pretty stagnated as well.. for now.. some of the things which is breaking my stagnation in life would be
1) ARUPS Conference presentation - ngek ngek.. i think i going to present in ARUPS. They say i will be notified IF my abstract is shortlisted.. XD
2) home tuition - one of my friend asked whether i wanted to do home tuition for this kiddo. and i said yes.. hopefully i can get the job.. see how it's like to teach kiddo.. and the pay is not bad too i think ^^
3) VVBC - kar wai the other day asked me whether i would want to go over to VVBC and play volleyball with them.. hehehe.. i guess it's a good opportunity to take my volleyball life a step higher as this would probably be a long term thing. After all, i would be graduating from Uni soon. so i can't play any longer for college then..
so if life is stagnated, what do u do? go do something different. do something bigger, better, greater, higher, and more meaningful, like touching other people's life... participate in cleaning activities, charities etc.
Life is not just about ourselves. It's about US
God Bless~
to me, stagnation is a good thing. it's a good thing because it proves that we have managed to achieve a certain level at something... that we are so used to it that it no longer becomes a challenge. so when life is stagnant, then what do we do? we do other things, bigger things, better things, greater things to improve and challenge what we can do.
direction in life does not mean only 1 path. it could be taking different paths, and arriving at the same point. or maybe at some point in life, we realize that the destination might have changed, and therefore the paths taken have to change as well.
that's the reason i took up psychology of film this sem. to see what i can do, something outside of the normal theoretical class. my life is pretty stagnated as well.. for now.. some of the things which is breaking my stagnation in life would be
1) ARUPS Conference presentation - ngek ngek.. i think i going to present in ARUPS. They say i will be notified IF my abstract is shortlisted.. XD
2) home tuition - one of my friend asked whether i wanted to do home tuition for this kiddo. and i said yes.. hopefully i can get the job.. see how it's like to teach kiddo.. and the pay is not bad too i think ^^
3) VVBC - kar wai the other day asked me whether i would want to go over to VVBC and play volleyball with them.. hehehe.. i guess it's a good opportunity to take my volleyball life a step higher as this would probably be a long term thing. After all, i would be graduating from Uni soon. so i can't play any longer for college then..
so if life is stagnated, what do u do? go do something different. do something bigger, better, greater, higher, and more meaningful, like touching other people's life... participate in cleaning activities, charities etc.
Life is not just about ourselves. It's about US
God Bless~
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