Anxiously Ambivalent

There are a few things which i would want to blog about.. but i guess time was of essence last week. so here comes the strings of blog postings :)

Have you ever felt so anxious, that at the end of the day, it seems that all your anxious energy is depleted and you come to a stage where u feel like 'whatever lah'.... couldn't be bothered anymore?.. am i the one at wrong? the person whom cannot seem to put in enough trust? or am i the only one who really cares? :x

felt really anxiously ambivalent and this feeling have been following me throughout the whole of last week. Especially on sat and sun where i have no appetite to eat and sleep. haven't been taking good care of myself cause fell sick last monday.. and got better on thursday. sleeping and eating irregularly, no appetite.. but the strange thing is i wake up super on time.. normally before 9, and i don't know y i can't get back to sleep... good thing volleyball on sunday lighten up my mood a bit. so when i am anxious what i do? invest my energy on something else namely PSY 304.

Due date was yesterday (tuesday), but i am not least worried about it, because i know i can do it. Got everything by friday and therefore start doing things on both sat and sun, until eyes also blur from staring at computer. finished it on sunday, and i can even go drink 'tong sui' on monday night.

complained to a few people regarding my anxious ambivalency. and oh well, it seems that one of the other party have the same worries as mine. XD thanks for listening out to me.. and well i guess it's vice versa. XD another one of my friend whom i complained to ask me how was it.. and i told her

T: don't ask.. cause i don't know
HM: you don't know? wow.. that's not very like of u
T: I know.. but i really don't know how is it going..

i don't like answering idk. but oh well.. i guess HM did say something right. "guess u cannot be in control everytime" :x

i would like to say a big thank you for the people whom have helped in completing it. some people have put in enormous effort, while others have not. i know i always blow u, and i am sorry for that. i guess that person doesn't really like me now.. idk.

the complete version is awesome i would say. the thing which got me depress for about a week (literally) came out not bad at all.. and i am glad :)

God Bless~