CAFFEINEES

Went to Caffeinees on friday (19th March 2010) with Jia Leng and Irene. :)

Sorta kinda time to chill out from all the anxiety and stress i guess.. and it's good :) jia leng abducted me from my house at around 11.45 i think, as i was just coming out of the bathroom. i was like.. she's here? shit.. haven't prepared yet.. XD

then she drove us to this wonderful restaurant Caffeinees. pretty nice place, price also pretty ok :)

Jia Leng ordered this satay, and said it's delicious... ask me to try.. i say i don't 1 eat cause scared spicy.. she told me not spicy 1.. LIAR!! eat already i non stop drink ice lemon tea. =.=; the satay is delicious, but really too spicy for me la..

the satay

the two girls

me enjoying my cup of tea ^^

Nice time off.. and then come back with sore throat.. all because of who? ngek ngek XD

God Bless~

沒那麼簡單 / Mei Na Me Jian Dan (It's not so easy) by 黃小琥 Huang Xiao Hu-

Am currently addicted to this wonderful song.

沒那麼簡單 / Mei Na Me Jian Dan (It's not so easy) by 黃小琥 Huang Xiao Hu

没那么简单 就能找到
mei na me jian dan jiu neng zhao dao
It's not that easy to find

聊得来的伴
liao de lai de ban
someone who you can comfortably communicate with

尤其是在
you qi shi zai
Even more so

看过了那么多的背叛
kan guo le na me duo de bei pan
when you have witnessed so many betrayals

总是不安
zong shi bu an
Will feel insecure

只好强悍
zhi hao qiang han
would just have to be brave enough

谁谋杀了我的浪漫
shei mou sha le wo de lang man
Who killed my romance

没那么简单
mei na me jian dan
It's not that easy

就能去爱
jiu neng qu ai
to be able to love

别的全不看
bie de quan bu kan
but ignore all the other things

变得实际
bian de shi ji
have changed to be more materialistic

也许好也许坏各一半
ye xu hao ye xu huai ge yi ban
maybe it's good, maybe it's bad, half - half

不爱孤单 一久也习惯
bu ai gu dan yi jiu ye xi guan
dislike to be lonely, but after a while would get used to it

不用担心谁
bu yong dan xin shei
need not worry about anyone

也不用被谁管
ye bu yong bei shei guan
also need not to be controlled by anyone

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
gan jue kuai le jiu mang dong mang xi
when feeling happy, will be so busy running here and there

感觉累了就放空自己
gan jue lei le jiu fang kong zi ji
when feeling tired, then let loose of yourself

别人说的话 随便听一听
bie ren shuo de hua sui bian ting yi ting
what other people say, just listen simply

自己作决定
zi ji zuo jue ding
but the final decision should be made by yourself

不想拥有太多情绪
bu xiang yong you tai duo qing xu
I would not want to have too much emotions

一杯红酒配电影
yi bei hong jiu pei dian ying
a cup of red wine to accompany the movie

在周末晚上 关上了手机
zai zhou mo wan shang guan shang le shou ji
during the weekend evening, switch off your handphone

舒服窝在沙发里
shu fu wo zai sha fa li
comfortably relax on the sofa

Chorus:
相爱没有那么容易
xiang ai mei you na me rong yi
It's not that simple to love

每个人有他的脾气
mei ge ren you ta de pi qi
each person have their own temper

过了爱作梦的年纪
guo le ai zuo meng de nian ji
after the honeymoon period has passed

轰轰烈烈不如平静
hong hong lie lie bu ru ping jing
instead of having grandiose relationship, might as well have silence

幸福没有那么容易
xing fu mei you na me rong yi
Happiness is not that simple

才会特别让人着迷
cai hui te bie rang ren zhao mi
to especially make a person feel fasinated

什么都不懂的年纪
shen me dou bu dong de nian ji
the time when we don't know anything

曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经
ceng jing zui tao xin suo yi zui kai xin ceng jing
was when we were most immersed, therefore the happiest moment

没那么简单
mei na me jian dan
It's not that easy

就能去爱
jiu neng qu ai
to be able to love

别的全不看
bie de quan bu kan
but ignore all the other things

变得实际
bian de shi ji
have changed to be more materialistic

也许好也许坏各一半
ye xu hao ye xu huai ge yi ban
maybe it's good, maybe it's bad, half - half

不爱孤单 一久也习惯
bu ai gu dan yi jiu ye xi guan
dislike to be lonely, but after a while would get used to it

不用担心谁
bu yong dan xin shei
need not worry about anyone

也不用被谁管
ye bu yong bei shei guan
also need not to be controlled by anyone

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
gan jue kuai le jiu mang dong mang xi
when feeling happy, will be so busy running here and there

感觉累了就放空自己
gan jue lei le jiu fang kong zi ji
when feeling tired, then let loose of yourself

别人说的话 随便听一听
bie ren shuo de hua sui bian ting yi ting
what other people say, just listen simply

自己作决定
zi ji zuo jue ding
but the final decision should be made by yourself

不想拥有太多情绪
bu xiang yong you tai duo qing xu
I would not want to have too much emotions

一杯红酒配电影
yi bei hong jiu pei dian ying
a cup of red wine to accompany the movie

在周末晚上 关上了手机
zai zhou mo wan shang guan shang le shou ji
during the weekend evening, switch off your handphone

舒服窝在沙发里
shu fu wo zai sha fa li
comfortably relax on the sofa


Repeat Chorus X2

想念最伤心
xiang nian zui shang xin
missing you is the most heart wrenching moment

但却最动心 的记忆
dan que zui dong xin de ji yi
but also the most memorable memory

Amadeus

Another movie which is meaningfully awesome. Oh i almost like all of Goh's movie because it always have something to teach about life. This movie talks about mediocrity and giftedness, and i can so identify myself with Salieri. Always, always, always trying to achieve perfection but fails.

i do envy people who seems to be like Wolfgang to me. last minute work also can be better than mine. how not to be envy? if there is one thing i learnt from this movie, it would be not to put in too much of 'self' into something. we should have invest in different fields so that when one fails to satisfy us that much, we can lean on other fields.

even if you invest a lot on a particular field, then open mindedness is a must. rather than competitive, y not think cooperatively? I wonder what would happen if Salieri and Wolfgang were to gang up together. personally i don't think it's very possible because the level is so far off. although they might understand one another, but Salieri would in all probability not contribute anything, simply because Wolfgang would have thought of all possibilities. how not to hate such people right? but at the same time, there's admiration.. oh ambivalency.. :x

Salieri often wondered in the movie "why would God give the gift of such music talent to such a young, ruthless lad like Wolfgang" Salieri concluded that God is unfair and came to the conclusion to stop this instrument of God.

but i guess there is reason on why God would create such individuals. maybe it's because He simply wants us to know that He has the power to do so, and to make us humble and human again. To not overly estimate our own 'smartness' and therefore He purposely plant some of these awesome geniuses every now and then, throughout history. and He would purposely make these geniuses to be a rascal, to differ from the norm, just to make us be humbled..

God Bless~

The Departures

A magnificent movie which i had longed to catch since it came out. But didn't have the opportunity to. Good news is that Goh actually played this movie in class, and yay.. i got to watch for free :)

I like the fact that this movie talks about death and grief. how one should come to terms with one's life before death, and how one should come to terms with death itself, to accept death as a process of living, rather than it being an all-bad-ending.

In it, what i get is that dying is not something that should be avoided or afraid of. most of the time people would not want to die because they have so much things to hold on to. so much things left unresolved. therefore if you have something which you would want to do, don't wait too long. do not let the chance slip away and then regret about it

oh.. the cello song in the departures is superbly awesome. addicted to it now, together with another song, mei na me jian dao, another awesome song.

"the living eats on the dead to continue living. therefore when you eat, eat well"

God Bless~

Anxiously Ambivalent

There are a few things which i would want to blog about.. but i guess time was of essence last week. so here comes the strings of blog postings :)

Have you ever felt so anxious, that at the end of the day, it seems that all your anxious energy is depleted and you come to a stage where u feel like 'whatever lah'.... couldn't be bothered anymore?.. am i the one at wrong? the person whom cannot seem to put in enough trust? or am i the only one who really cares? :x

felt really anxiously ambivalent and this feeling have been following me throughout the whole of last week. Especially on sat and sun where i have no appetite to eat and sleep. haven't been taking good care of myself cause fell sick last monday.. and got better on thursday. sleeping and eating irregularly, no appetite.. but the strange thing is i wake up super on time.. normally before 9, and i don't know y i can't get back to sleep... good thing volleyball on sunday lighten up my mood a bit. so when i am anxious what i do? invest my energy on something else namely PSY 304.

Due date was yesterday (tuesday), but i am not least worried about it, because i know i can do it. Got everything by friday and therefore start doing things on both sat and sun, until eyes also blur from staring at computer. finished it on sunday, and i can even go drink 'tong sui' on monday night.

complained to a few people regarding my anxious ambivalency. and oh well, it seems that one of the other party have the same worries as mine. XD thanks for listening out to me.. and well i guess it's vice versa. XD another one of my friend whom i complained to ask me how was it.. and i told her

T: don't ask.. cause i don't know
HM: you don't know? wow.. that's not very like of u
T: I know.. but i really don't know how is it going..

i don't like answering idk. but oh well.. i guess HM did say something right. "guess u cannot be in control everytime" :x

i would like to say a big thank you for the people whom have helped in completing it. some people have put in enormous effort, while others have not. i know i always blow u, and i am sorry for that. i guess that person doesn't really like me now.. idk.

the complete version is awesome i would say. the thing which got me depress for about a week (literally) came out not bad at all.. and i am glad :)

God Bless~

Ms. Winnee and Evie

March 10, 2010

Today, i had another dream. And in the dream, there is Ms. Winnee. =.=;

I remembered that i was outdoor, looking people playing volleyball, and it was something like outside of the houses, on the roadside.

the people playing weren't awesome posem players, and i was just looking at them playing. then suddenly out of nowhere, Ms. Winnee came out from the house saying that she wants to play volleyball.. hahaha.. and the way she asked, was like a little girl, wanting to join in (with a little jumping and cheery mood) :x

then she joined, and she played, and she fell on the ground. but not serious fall la, only like scratch her palm.. then i don't remember anything anymore...

another dream, with evie in it. I actually didn't remember dreaming about her, until she msn-ed my today. then only it triggered the memory..

i remember that it was some occasion (couldn't remember what occasion though) and as a present, she gave me a letter. a letter with histories in it. XD really funny.. and that's all i remembered.

woke up to the thought of "tomorrow running thesis. i still haven't prepared my materials yet.. GG.COM!!!'

God Bless~

Nice Dream

This morning i had a nice dream. And it has got to do with PSY 317. Or at least that's what the dream is about.

I remembered me sitting in a cafe with Kang Kang and Cha Loo. Kang Kang said that he has finished editing our movie, which i was of course delighted, and he brought a laptop together to show us the final product. When played, this was what i remembered

The camera is focusing on a pile of sugar. And the pile of sugar is on top of a piece of tissue paper. And that tissue paper was on top of a car's dashboard. The camera was inside of a moving car, and the sugar was a bit brownish.

Then someone spoke up, speaking in cantonese saying "don't take so much sugar ar.. nah, u like your drinks to be sweet. i have added enough sugar for u." the person who is speaking, is sitting beside the driver, and her face couldn't be seen. the drink that she was making is coffee, and that is why the sugar (which is white) is a little brownish, the spoon, which was in the coffee was used to scoop us some sugar to be placed inside the coffee.

all the while, the camera is in the backseat, focusing only on the sugar, and then on the hand movement of the person taking the sugar. after the drinks are done, she passed it to the driver. which the driver didn't drink because of some accident.

well that's the important thing la. in my dream, i thought to myself, whoah.. the way the story was told was pretty good. The sound was loud and clear, and the video was awesomely vivid. and i was very happy with the outcome of the movie.

when i woke up, i knew that i dreamt something good, and managed to trace back my dream before it decays. XD

now i am wondering how the actual movie will turn out. :x

God Bless~

Bad Dream

5th March 2010

This morning had a bad dream. What i remembered is that i was inside a van, and i was eating raw processed fish meat. :x this surely comes from the steamboat yesterday night cause i remember i was eating fish noodles in the dream. and it's uncooked. errgghh.. and i was eating a whole box of it.. uwekk.. it doesn't taste bad, but it tasted funny.. that's how vivid the dream is..

then somehow i got sick of eating it, and went down the van.. i think.. then walked down the alley, it was at night and dark. my sister walked the other way.. different from where i walked.. and then after a while, i catch up to her, and i saw suspicious people.. i got near to her and asked her to run..

and we ran.. but there are more of them coming out from behind the dustbins to catch us.. and i awake from the dream shouting. :x my dad asked me 'shout what?' hahaha..

God Bless~