Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Friends of mine

Meng is bipolar, swinging from emo to euphoric between days. Ying zhou is father of don't-care-until-the-time-comes. He can don't care about his car keys that is lost, until the time comes for him to go back. XD. Yean May is easy to talk with. I think under her serious demeanour, she's a pretty sampat girl XD. Jun Hao is stubborn and always say will improve, but i don't see any improvement. he also very perasan.. i think he seriously got inferiority complex :p Loo Loo is princess-cy. she seems sad nowadays. i hope she will find happiness soon. Shui May is another sad girl currently. i hope she finds herself soon too. XD. Evie sometimes stresses over things that can't be changed, like the weather, and timetables which i don't understand why. Shyuan is always wanting to be right XD. Hui Keng is pretty. Looking good does and indeed do make someone feel good, but in order to feel good, one does not necessarily need to look good. You look good and you should start to learn how to build your happiness on other domains. Joel Lim is secretive. KC always wants to be 'yeng zhai'. Su Lyn is pretty sampat at times, but very hardcore when it comes to volleyball. always want argue with me 1 XD. Yuinnie is studious. Si Hui is always spouting foul language. roar~. Soo Leng is very blur and procrastinates. Ah bit is very cute, so is Sharon. Lynnette is someone who will tell you lots of things if she trusts you. it's always fun listening to her 'life dramas' XD. Shawn knows lots of things, but can don't-care-cause-it's-not-my-problem also. he also is generous. Fei zhai and kar wai are blow water king. Jian is piloting. Jia leng is... jia leng XD. Tristan can be very charasmatic. Suet Lai still sampat.. Wai Shin sometimes very good guy ge. Kong still the same. Wei Fen is sometimes pretty shy. maybe it's just my opinion. Candice is clubbing queen. XD. wake people up in the middle of the night to drink booze? extreme case.. Weng Sing is pretty generous. Norman is very 'kan chan'. lol.. the older he grows, the more 'kan' he is. XD. Solomon very relax, no sense of importance. maybe haven't grow up yet. Kay Chong is good guy. he very easily let people take advantage of i suppose. many other more which i didn't mention, humblest apologies. hahaha

God Bless~

The Naked Truth

This post is about an honest reflection about myself. As the year is coming to an end, I guess it's a suitable time after 21 years to get an honest reflection about what i really am as a person. I got alot of things on my mind which i want to express but i don't know where to start, so i shall just blurt what comes to mind

I am a very frugal man. In my heart, there is always an invisible calculator. whenever i purchase items or good or services, the reward in return should be more or less equals to what i pay. if not, i will be very uneasy inside, a lot of cognitive dissonance probably. and it takes some time to reduce the dissonance. As an example, let's say i go MidValley. The cheapest food i can get there is from the food court, which would cost about RM 7 to RM 8. but with RM 7 or RM 8 for a bowl of soup noodles is inequity to me. i would add a little more to the money, to eat something better, with 'brand'. with that, it is more equitable. But i dislike spending that much money, and therefore, i would rather opt to go out of MidValley and go eat RM 4 or RM 5 noodles at other places. I AM THAT FRUGAL!!!

Since young I have been this way i guess. maybe it's the upbringing from my dad, who is always calculative about items purchased. i think i really am like him, or probably worse. XD that's y i like to go to cut my hair at the same place. RM 5 for haircut, eventhough i will have to sit there fore 2 hours, trimmed by a student hairstylist. I also get cognitive dissonance if people spend me, but i guess it's less dissonance as compared to me spending on other people. XD

My aunt say i so leng zhai, how come no girlfriend. Maybe it's because i am frugal ba.. but i think it's more than that and sometimes i indeed do wonder why. I go night market and supermarket and gai gai and i see young couples together. Look at the girl, not bad, look at the guy.. swt.. i think i could be a better candidate. but then why don't i have 1?

i went for counselling this sem for bonus marks and i talked about relationships and how hard it is to maintain a good relationship. i presented my problems telling the counselor that i am afraid of not becoming a good boyfriend. because i do not have a car, which means transport will be a problem. i might not have that much of time, because i am mostly at home doing assignments, and also i play volleyball for college. this translate to me probably not spending enough time with her. thirdly, as i have said, i am a very frugal dude. i always am calculative. i think girls don't like it :S but at the end of the counselling sessions, i guess these things are just things i use as defence to not go into a relationship. maybe i am afraid that i will hurt her, maybe i am afraid that it won't end up well. or maybe i am just afraid that i will get hurt in the process

would you prefer to go into a relationship and risk getting hurt over and over again? or to play safe and only go into a relationship when u really really really are certain? I am the latter currently. previously, when i was younger, i probably am the earlier.

censor.. when say things, i am scared that i will hurt others and therefore there is a lot of censoring in my mind before saying or doing things. i am scared of hurting others but if the person is genuine, the person should say the truth although the truth hurts. but i guess life is not just about myself. I can't be too selfish and just say things which i think is right. i need to think from their perspective as well, and their feelings. to say or not to say? :S

my friends say that i am a peadophile cause i always say things such as 'she's so cute' and 'oh he so cute' whenever we are out. then they will turn to me and say me peadophile. i really don't know what my feelings are towards some girls. it seems that i want to protect them from harm and it hurts when i see them sad, stress, frustrated and all the negative emotions. i sometimes want me to be the one suffering instead of them. wanting to alleviate their burden but don't know how. When they are experiencing joyful emotions, i feel happy for them as well. is this love? paternal protection? sternberg said that there are 3 components to love: commitment, passion and intimacy. which component would the above case fall into? :S probably the topology of love can explain it better where i am experiencing agape love?

sometimes i feel so sad and upset about how people whom i care about do not seem to invest emotionally as much as i do. it's draining really. i sms, no reply. i call, don't pick up, mail no response. what does that mean? don't 1 to talk to me? don't 1 to care? busy? not important? other times, i find it hard when i do so much, but get so little in return. inequilibrium, leading to cognitive dissonance, leading to dissonance reducing, which needs lots of brain work.

this year, my peers who are mostly 1988 are 21 years old. everytime go in FB, i will see wishes such as "today's your 21st, have a blast". i also see many events being posted up about their birthdays, and i envy them. recently i saw Micky's birthday party together with her twin sister. Oh i miss her.. that day saw her, only spoke to her for less than a minute.. roar~ she's in butterworth now if i am not mistaken.. anyway, back to 21st. how did my 21st went? err? nothing out of the ordinary i guess.. the out of the ordinary thing is that teresa gave me a doughnut as a present. my only present XD THANKS TERESA!!~~ my sis also brought me makan a day before as celebration. Not bad not bad. :)

1 thing which i am always battling on is about lust. i don't know how to express, but there's a constant ongoing battle within myself between doing what constitutes as normal, and what constitutes as holy. the other day, i went sunway lagoon and many ladies wore skimpy cloths. ok.. even without them wearing skimpy, i still do look at cha bos and scrutinize them. considered as lusty? where is the line between what is considered as lusty or not? is having fantasies lusty? watching porn? talking dirty?

the other day, we went to a christmas party in my err... godbrother's house. there, a topic came up which is pretty interesting. they talked about money and health, and one man said that the end for people who don't have money is to wait for death. another man said no no, man should strive to live, because if people with no money were to just wait for death, then all the beggars will already commit suicide, and i took interest in this point of view.

indeed, everyone is waiting to die literally. rich, poor, very poor or filthy rich. no one can live forever, or at least for now. they say that it is possible to live forever in the future, but we shall leave that for the future. and so therefore, the question is this, if everyone will die, and money plays no role in death, then y earn money? this question, or similar question was posted by one of my friend in FB, and the reply she got was that it depends what kind of lifestyle she wants to live in. the difference is in the level of comfort, where obviously people with money will have a more comfortable lifestyle. but then it depends on how one defines 'comfortable lifestyle'. if to me comfortable is living in a hut in a peaceful jungle, then i need no money (i think Meng would agree with this). but if comfortable is always wanting to buy new things, then money will always not be enough (proponents for this idea will be Hui Keng, Evie and Shyuan XD). what we have absorbed so long in life is the society's standard of 'comfortable life'. it should be remembered that comfort does not equate happiness. I guess to make life meaningful, we should find what we really want to do in life. death matters no more then, i suppose

i love volleyball. it's really an AWESOME game and i guess if there's one thing i am addicted to, it would be volleyball. XD from serving, to first ball, to setting, to spiking, to blocking to covering, it's an awesome game which needs both strong team work and strong individuals. dang syok la. :D

i don't like people who only knows how to complain this and that, as if the world is going to turn the other way round when they complain. knowing that the world won't be a better place even with their complains, they still will keep on complaining. WHY? people who complain just for the sake of complaining only make people around them feel worse. i get it when you want to express discomfort, and i am fine with it, but need not harp on the issue over and over again right?

i don't like people who likes to force other people to accept their viewpoint. you can have your viewpoint, and i can have mine. No problem with different viewpoints is there? we can still respect each other for our point of view. But it's a different matter if you want to persuade me to take on your point of view. If i see sense in it, i will, but if i don't, y force?

i don't like people to argue with seemingly impossible outcomes. these people will present viewpoints which have so slim a possibility. the problem is that they seem so scared with everythings and it makes the argument go on and on. when people say them back, they just shrugged it off as if it's nothing. apa maksud?

i don't like people who exaggerate things.

i like things and ideas which transcend normal imagination. that's y i like movies like Avatar, and manga like One Piece. I like films with martial arts in it. Wushu and wuxia flick is awesome. i like movies with provoking thoughts like The Pursue of Happiness. All these gets my mind working. i like movies which makes the heart warm and make people think twice about what are the most precious things in life.

i like mythology, and therefore if movies or comics have some myths as it's support, i like it. That's y i like the original Yu-Gi-Oh, where ancient Egypt relics are one of the important characteristics. That's y i like Bleach, where they talk about Shinigami. That's y i like The Legend, which ties to ancient China.

i think i am very prejudiced towards certain people of a certain races. but more important than race, i think i am prejudiced towards people whom in my eyes don't look like good people, regardless of race. I don't know how to define, but if they fall below my standard, i really don't like them. maybe it's their hair, maybe it's their dressing, maybe it's the way they carry themselves. i also dislike 'lala' people. XD

i sometimes envy people who always seems to be in attention. eventhough they do nothing, they are always in the limelight. why? i LOA. but i also enjoy my solidarity sometimes. :D

the hardest thing in the whole wide world is not to solve the hardest maths question, or inventing something evolutionary. the hardest thing to do in this whole wide world is to be a good person. people will and can survive without the invention of telephone, internet, tv and so forth, but people will not survive without acceptance, family, love, forgiveness, and these are the things that is hard to do.

I have taken an honest look into myself. Can you?

Happy 2010.

God Bless~

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Liar Game



I just finished watching a Japanese drama, Liar Game. It is adapted from the manga with the same name and it's premise is pretty interesting.


People are selected to participate in a game known as the Liar Game, and participants will have to deceive each other in order to obtain money and those who win will keep the money won, while those who lose will be in debt to the company.

Kanzaki Nao, an honest female is one of the participants and being stupidly honest, she was easily cheated of her money. she then sought help from Mr. Akiyama, who is known to be a genius swindler. Together with Akiyama, both of them progressed through the game stage by stage. But while Akiyama always thinks about how to save him and Nao, Nao on the other hand always thinks about how to save her opponents so that they do not fall into debts.

and this trust she has in others always leads back to problems where Akiyama will need to conjure up something to save the day. although deceived so many times, she is still very trusting till the very last moment.

in the last episode, she posed a question


"is it bad to be stupidly honest?"


the answer? i don't think i would want to reveal here what the answer is, but i think if we were to become stupidly honest, then we should learn how not to hold grudge towards others. that way, even if we are being cheated, we will not feel bitter about it. and that is what Kanzaki Nao is as a person.

or probably Kanzaki Nao just doesn't learn from mistakes? hahaha.. she probably have low aversive emotional conditioning and therefore being cheated to her is non or less aversive. XD

God Bless~

Some thoughts

The other day i came across an interesting thought

I was thinking to myself, wouldn't it be easy to clean the house if we were able to ionize the dust particles? It works like this. The room will be ionized and of course it will be on a low scale so that only the dust particles will be ionized due to it's small size. then there will be a container which is known as 'collector' which will have the opposite charge.

therefore if the dust particles are being charged negatively, the container will be positively charged and because they are opposites, they will attract. the room therefore will be easily cleaned. then after that, the room will be charged oppositely again, so that things in there will remain neutral of any charge. cool thought isn't it? XD

but who am i kidding right? charging dust particles? hahaha..

"we started with like, journeyed through with care and ended up with love."
"i can't changed what had happened in the past, and i don't know what will happened in the future, but i can only sincerely hope that our love for each other may never stop growing"

God Bless~

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Psychology Colloquium 2008

To me so far, this colloquium was the most energy consuming because we have to present 2 presentations. 1 for social psych, and another for advanced research methods. 2 presentation on the same day and therefore we were pretty much exhausted before, during and after.


but we did not let the stress take us out, but rather, faced it with determination. 1 day before colloquium, all of us camped at Lam's house and we were perfecting our presentations.



See Joel so rajin doing his work..


See.. all so rajin do work.. or is it? XD


practicing yet again when we reach college the next day.
finally after presentation, all of us were sitted at auditorium. Here, we have Mr. Teh together.. :D

see this xiao cha bo? don't see her xiao xiao like that, she smart ok.. XD

but all the practice and hard work was worth it cause we did win ourselves something. until this very day, i still haven't spent my present yet. :S don't know what to buy

it's a sad thing nobody took our photos during our presentation yea? or maybe someone did? just that i don't have those photos.. hahaha.. i don't think any colloquiums in the future will be as stressful as this. thesis defence just passed.. nothing special also.. ngek ngek.. XD

Blessed Christmas everyone

God Bless~

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

The other day i managed to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on tv and it's a really wonderful show. When it first came out, i didn't thought that it would be such a good story with some highly important values embedded into the story. so i didn't watch it then, but i was so wong.





The story talks about Willy Wonka, an owner of a super-state-of-the-art chocolate factory and he is the best chocolate creator in the story. He sent out 5 tickets to 'lucky' children who are given the opportunity to visit his factory and one of them will have a suprise at end.





So came five children together with their parents for a visit to his factory. Willy Wonka is greatly depicted by Johnny Depp, and i pretty much like him in the story. Slowly, the children were eliminated one by one due to their own misbehavior. and the last boy standing was Charlie. the suprise was that he will be the heir to the factory, with one condition, Willy Wonka said that Charlie would need to shift in into his factory, leaving his family behind, and because of this, Charlie rejected Willy's offer. well, it later ended well :D





throughout the story, there are some thought provoking moments.





1. the children in the movie were brats, and that got me thinking... will my children grow up like that? with the things they show on media nowadays, it's really REALLY hard to fend them off, especially since they would believe and like things which looks cool. if they asked me to buy them this and that, will i give in? i remember when i was still young, i do ask things from my parents, but more often that not, i don't get what i want. i do feel unhappy then, and therefore i should not make my children feel what i felt right? but it's a debate about pampering too much vs child disciplining, which is hard to balance and find the fine line between the two.





2. one thing i like about the movie was how it transcends normal logic. and that's what i like about manga too.. especially One Piece. it fosters creativity and make people think about what are the possibilities out there. logic is logic, but to be able to think about illogical stuffs which are out of the ordinary, it's creative. i thought to myself, have we (we referring to humans in general) been trained to think so logically that we sometimes don't see some other view which is totally out of the ordinary? if we could just tap into this power of creativity, i think the world will be a better place to live in. ^^





3. the value of the people around us. in the movie, Charlie would give up owning the factory just because he had to be seperated from his family. And that's a point of view coming from a child. how many of us would be as him, to be able to say a big 'NO' when the bargain on the other end seems so so good?





Love this movie





God Bless~

Saturday, December 12, 2009

What shall I do?

The axe is already at the root of the trees, and every tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire. "What shall we do then?" the crowd asked. John answered, "The man with two tunics should share with him who has none, and the one who has food should do the same." Tax collectors also came to be baptized. " Teacher," they asked, "what should we do?"

"Don't collect any more than you are required to," he told them. Then some soldiers asked him, "And what should we do?" He replied, "Don't extort money and don't accuse people fasely-be content with your pay."

The people were waiting expectantly and were all wondering in their hearts if John might possibly be the Christ. John answered them all, "I baptize you with water. But one more powerful than I will come, the thongs of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. His winnowing fork is in his hand to clear his threshing floor and to gather the wheat into his barn, but he will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire." (Luke 3: 9 - 17)

That is the Gospel message of today and how very suitable it is. As we come into the 3rd week of Advent, it is high time we ask ourselves, "what shall I/we do?"

Christmas for many is a holiday rather than a holy day. and we shall not forget the true meaning of Christmas. Instead of praising Santa Claus and doing our Christmas shopping, we should instead ponder on the birth of Christ and give attention to the people around us who needs help. Indeed, sometimes we are so caught up in doing things among ourselves that we neglect people who really needs our attention.

we do Christmas carolling among BECs, buy presents for friends and familes etc., but have we ever wondered whether we can sing to the old folks in the old folks home, or the orphanages? have we thought about buying gifts for the orphanages, the migrant workers, our maids, give donation to the poor, and give attention to the lame, the afflicted or simply offering up a little prayer for the sick, torn families, people in war who are in fear etc.?

as Christmas is coming, let us not forget the root of Christmas which is CHRIST Himself. Let us be aware of the people around us who needs help. The true spirit of Christmas will only be experienced if we reach out to people.

"What shall I do?" I blogged about His glory. Now what about you? :)

God Bless~

Thursday, December 10, 2009

MAPCU 2009

This year volleyball MAPCU was filled with UNCERTAINTY. Mainly because the main organizer did not want to organize it. And it was initially being called off. But our head of DSA didn't want to call it off and said that HELP will organize it.


So DSA have been working to organize the volleyball competition. I should give credit to the people who organize cause they did manage to pull it off. Although there are many uncertainties, but i can see that a lot of effort have been put into making the event a successful 1. Many colleges don't want to participate cause they don't have teams, girls teams especially, and it is not until the 11th hour that we know whether there is the competition or not. but they did try their best to get participations for both males and females category and finally, it did happen

Date: Nov 29 2009
Venue: Sports Complex, University Melaya

There are 8 teams for males, and 6 teams for females.

Males: HELP UC, Lim Kok Weng, Apiit, UCSI, Nottingham, IMU, Segi and KLIUC
Females: HELP UC, IMU, Apiit, UCSI, Nottingham and i don't know another 1. XD


In the grouping stage, males went against Apiit in the first round. And we lost. :p Lim Kok Weng didn't manage to turn up. So we need to win against UCSI to go into semi. And we did won UCSI.. yea yea.. happy.. so we were in the semi.




match against UCSI i think XD



For the girls, they fought pretty close with IMU, and won. and then won Apiit as well, with a breeze if i not mistaken. Our girls strong ok.. Roar~

Against Apiit?


In semi, the guys was up against Segi college. Erm.. nothing to comment i guess.. just that lose a lot of points in service. grrr... after losing to Segi, then compete with Apiit again for 3rd placing. and this time we won.. woo hoo hoo.. so males got third placing


For the females, semi they went up against Nottingham, and won. In the finals, they finally met their rival UCSI. And it was a very close fight. Both teams won a set, and it was the final set. Both teams service also fail. XD... but in the end, we won.. woo hoo..


time for some pictures shall we?


male team with the coach for the day, Mr. Mark


female team with coach, Mr. Cheng


everyone together..




our new president.. XD


and the GLORIOUS CUPS. :D


God Bless~

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Bad sleep, bad dream

I have a bad sleep today.. didn't really slept well cause a lot of mosquito bites.. i finally woke up, and checked the time.. it's about 5.20.. for the whole 4 hours and 20 minutes.. didn't really slept also.. toss and turn and then mosquito bites.. grr..

then after that, tried to sleep again, and got bad dream.. =.=;

i dreamt that i was in a shopping complex wanting to buy some stuffs (i do remember that there are other people together with me, but i don't really remember whether it's my family members or not).. so anyway.. walk walk.. want to buy stuff, and entered a shop.. but that shop doesn't have the things we wanted to buy.. so walked out..

after walking out, there was an announcement saying that the cinema does not sell food. we were pretty suprised by the announcement and therefore decided to have a look at the cinema, since we were not very far away from it.. and the cinema was jam packed. brimming with people..

but that's not the exciting part.. the exciting part is that there is a huge guy who is cleaning the walls of the cinema.. and by huge, i mean really huge.. like.. double of yao ming's height and size. and he was so odd that i looked at him for a little longer.. he was big, and had a some hair at the back of the head.. he was scrubing the wall of the cinema while walking on the escalator.

so after that, i left and suddenly there was a ruckus.. the big dude fell (i don't know from where and how), but he did fell and he was pretty much in pain.. covering the back of his head with his two arms.. then suddenly, people started to pull away his hands and feet and 1 person stepped on his neck.. they pulled and *snap*. i presumed that his limbs are no longer attached to his body.. of course i wouldn't know for sure because just before it snapped, i looked away..

at this point.. i not sure whether i am awake or not.. but i think i am half awake.. i did feel whether i should continue sleeping, or wake up.. but i did continue sleeping and so my dream continued

i don't know why the people do what they did to him, but that got me and the people who were shopping with me scared and we ran. run run run, run until some place which i don't even know where. it's like a mountain-eous place and i am at a place built with stones (at this point, i only remember me, but i am not together with the people in the shopping complex anymore). i remember there was an old man there, and it seems like he can predict the future or something. he drew a picture, and the picture can actually move, sorta kinda like revealing some sort of secret with the movements.

then a huge monster appeared. by huge, i mean.. HUUUUGEE.. like ultraman monster huge.. and the monster was heading towards us.. i got scared, and ran. i tried hiding from the view of the monster.. and we sorta play hide and seek with each other.. although the monster is big, but it's fast.. then appeared a african lady, with a gun.. always shooting at the monster.. one might think that she's nuts.. but i remembered her saying that the monster is her pet. -.-;

after that, don't really remember anything anymore.. really crazy dream.. y am i having so many bad dreams recently?

the worst part in the dream is the snapping of the limbs la... after waking up, i ponder to myself.. do humans kill other humans just because they don't look like each other? do we kill each other just because we don't look like each other?

God Bless~

Monday, December 7, 2009

MATRADE 2007

I officially started working in 2007 for the Food and Beverages Fair in MATRADE Centre. And for this work, i did blog-ed about it http://bpsych-ers.blogspot.com/2007/07/first-day-of-work.html

But that time no pictures ma.. hahaha.. now got pictures already. One main reason why this happens is because i don't have my own camera. so i rely on other people to snap the photo and afterwards send it to me. so that's y many old overdue posts..

so yea.. a little refreshment.. since the event is food and beverages fair, there are lots of sample food to eat.. so me and my friend went around eating food samples for our lunch and tea. hahaha.. good in a sense that there are tons of variety (just opposite our stall got halal daging salai. XD), but bad is that.. there is nothing which u can eat a whole lot.. takkan want to stand at that stall and eat and eat right? malu la.. ho ho..

this is my friend, who worked with me in the same stall. she helped me find the job.. ho ho

her name is Yi Ling


together with 2 of my superiors


:D


God Bless~

Saturday, December 5, 2009

HMC Ball 2006

Yes yes... super overdue.. now close to 2010 only come blog about this.. haha.. but i super free.. apa boleh buat? XD


For 21 years of my life, this is the first ever prom/ball that i ever went too. Not because i want to, but because i HAVE to. I am one of the commitee member for HMC Student Council, so have to go and do work.. But at least it's free.. good thing it's free cause i didn't even manage to eat anything except for a bowl of fried rice.. was controlling the lighting from above..


the stage. nice?


reception area


starting performance.. pretty impressive i should say..



the nice nice entrance





and finally, everyone enjoying on the dance floor


all in all, eventhough i didn't eat much, i was happy i guess.. i still remember the whole council went up stage and dance to Goo Goo Dolls song - Iris. Didn't enjoy much of the ball, cause i was controlling the lighting, but it was good i guess.

Me and prom don't mix i think cause i don't or probably can't communicate well with people.. if i sit at the table, i can only imagine me eating non stop. XD all in all, it was an experience which will never be forgotten, but me and prom really no friend. so expensive for a night.. worth it ma?

God Bless~

Friday, December 4, 2009

Bpsych Lunch

I suddenly find myself super free these days.. or probably for these few weeks only.. ho ho.. and so i decided that one of the things that i shall do is blog, and i have many events to blog about. events which previously i didn't blog because... i was either lazy/busy/any other reason.
there is no order to my events posting.. just random.. so we shall start.. Bpysh Lunch 2007

Our department, the Psychology department have this lunch which they welcome new students into their departments. but students must wear this 'graduation robe' to signify that we will strive towards our graduation. it is a motivation for us, and i wonder how many of us still remember that day?



Me, Meng and Jian




Back then, lameness knows no end







Back then, vain-ness knows no end




All the leng zhais and leng lui?





The one in the middle is our Dean, hopefully we can wear the robe, with a square hat by the end of next year, or probably the starting of the following year :D graduation is not a dream anymore, it's becoming a reality

God Bless~

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Counselling sessions

Today is the last day of my counselling sessions. I went for counselling as a means for bonus marks for one of my classes, and i guess it is beneficial for me.

I talked about relationships in the sessions, but of course, the details are pretty secret. I now realized some of the thoughts which have been making me do what i do.

today i shared a news with my counsellor and she replied "you said that with a smile on your face, with a cheeky smile" i guess i am happy when i heard that news. but whether or not this happiness will be long lasting is another matter. i am happy nevertheless

oh if you don't understand what i am saying here it's owhkay :D

God Bless~

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Lucid dream

I have read before about lucid dream where in the dream, you can do what you want. I didn't really believe in it cause i haven't experience it. but this morning, i experienced lucid dream.. ho ho

i dreamt that i was crossing a road in my neighbourhood and then across the road, i saw a few people playing volleyball, beside the road.

i sorta kinda know the people, but then not very close to them, so i decided to walk away.. but suddenly, i saw a girl whom looks very familiar.. i stared longer, and yes it is her, digging with the other people..

i waited for a while, and then she finished playing and walked towards a... shop. then, her bf (i think) help her to fix her hair cause it's messy.. then talk talk, then we started walking, and i don't know why i was dragging along a chair for the walk

while walking, we wanted to cross a road, and suddenly a car drove pass at high speed. the car came from right, and i was left to the girl. nobody was hurt, and then i 'decided' to walk to her right side so as to protect her gua..

from then on, i knew that i was sorta kinda walking on my own determination, and true enough.. i did something which i wanted to do in the dream.. ho ho..

conclusion is, lucid dreams do happen.. i wonder how many of us have experienced it? and how often will i get it?

God Bless~