History

Today i had history. I learned history and i talked about history.

You must be thinking that it's that boring history subject, where we learn about our country... and those boring stuffs, but no.. that's not what i meant..

today, someone who rarely speaks to me face to face actually talked to me so much. at first, she was kinda silent, only talking when i ask her questions. suddenly, she started to pour out things... things that i never imagined that she would tell me.. she talked and talked and talked...

i listened, and listened and listened... she talked non stoped for about... 45 minutes? hahaha... but it was fun listening to her. since i got to know her until now, and compare it with today's 45 minutes, i would say that in today's 45 minutes i learnt so much more about her.

so that's that... then we proceed to do our thing, and it was my time to talk about my history.. officially.. :)

so i talked, and she asked questions... i poured out more and... i really talked a lot of my history. more of problems i guess... my self handicapping views.. and she's good at probing.. :)

well at least someone knows about my history...

God Bless~

She

This morning when i was sleeping, i got a dream

I dreamt that i was outside of my secondary school, and i was sitting in her car. the car was parked there, and i saw Lesley outside, sitting at the 'makan' store. As she started to drive, i remember hearing Jason Marz 'I'm Yours' on the radio. (strange how all these can be so vivid, but yes, i remember clearly)

As she was driving me back, we almost had an accident. She was crying and her driving was unstable. however we were safe. i got back home and the next thing i remember was that she was on the bed with me.. (fully clothed owhkie)

As she was crying, her head was lying on my chest. And i was half asleep. She would use her hand to massage my stomach and it felt good. Just like how mums would massage their babies stomach, it felt like that. she then used her feet and clasp my feet. my cold feet was made warm by hers. and again, it felt good

at that point of time, it seems as if the whole world is non existence, just me and her. talk about intensification of emotions in dreams man..

dramatic? poetic? i don't know.. but i can be sure that my dream this morning is full of emotions... who is she? she is she... :)

God Bless~

Death

Today I went to a funeral prayer. My friend's dad passed away and today marks his fouth day leaving earth. During prayer, all of us reflected upon our ownself

When will i die? How and why?

Will i die peacefully, having known i have lived a full life?

Will i die in anger and sorrow?

Will i be unforgiving and dissatisfied with the world?

Today i went to watch a show with my family. Money no enough 2. and it's a very good show. I love these kind of show where it teaches us to value everything around us and not take things for granted. Stongly recommended.. go watch it

Besides that, something inside me had died as well. or should i say, must die? hahahaha.. but at least it's resolved

God Bless~

Orange Juice and Plain Water

This morning i dreamt of a dream where me and my sis was in it. It goes something like this..

My sis was serving orange juice, and me, plain water. So she accidentally poured some onto me, and because of that, i splashed her with my plain water.. splash a bit only la.. haha

then she accidentally poured some more orange juice on me... and i splash her more

and it happens the third time, and i splashed her even more.. then she was mad and came after me with a jug or orange juice, wanting to pour everything over me

i, of course, ran for my life.. XD then she was unable to catch up with me and started sulking and kinda like want to cry... then i ask myself, "did i do the right thing?" a lil bit guilty in the dream and then i woke up..

and i started thinking... aren't we humans like that? you treat me this bad, i treat u this bad in return, or even worse sometimes. maybe it's time we think back if the other person were to get really furious, would we regret our option of treating that person like that?

"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you"

Very hard to do, but i guess if we don't want regrets, we better treat people with love

God Bless~