Friday, July 17, 2009

Responsibilities

It's been a while since i last blogged. There are many things that came to my mind, and sometimes i want to blog about it, but then again, i guessed it's not that significant, and therefore, i didn't blog about it.

Anyhow, today i am going to blog about RESPONSIBILITIES

I think of myself as quite responsible. Or at least that's what i PERCEIVE about myself. I may be lazy, but when it comes to the things that i am schematic about, i am pretty responsible. So what are the things that are schematic to me? I think currently, rank no. 1 on the list is the Volleyball Club. and so i shall rant about it. XD

It's really hard when you are in the position of a leader. Being a leader means that you will have to balance the needs of everyone including my own needs and it's really tough to balance these needs.

1) The need to win vs the need to train
When we send teams out for competition, definitely the goal is to win. Or at least strive to win, which means that the strongest players will be the main players. This will also mean that the reserve players will most likely sit on bench for the whole of competition. Being the leader, I would also want to reserves to have a chance to play, to compete in competition cause if not, then what's the purpose of coming for training week after week? How to balance? Almost impossible cause it will be forsaking a goal for another, unless of course the reserves player are awesomely good, but that's rarely the case.

Solution? - send out 2 teams. But still there are people whom dislike this, cause obviously the strongest team will be in one side (need to win), and everyone wants to play for the winning team (Goh, 2009). The people who are in the second team might feel that they are 'second class' being chucked aside.

Conclusion - Headache

2) The need for real training and the need for fun
Real training is tough, and not many people like it. Therefore there is a need to balance between being too tough in training and between having fun, which is of course difficult because is it's not tough enough, then it's not stimulating enough and nobody will improve. If it's too tough, then it will be demotivating. And stimulating for a person might mean too hard for another.

Solution - The only thing i can figure out right now is that training should follow the person's progression. Of course, it's easier said than done.

Conclusion - Headache

3) Need for inclusiveness vs my selfish needs
As a volleyball player myself, of course i would want each match to be as stimulating as possible, so that I can hone my skills as well as all others on the court. which in this case would mean that everyone on the court should be good players. It would be a good challenge. But at the same time, I cannot sideline other players, cause they should play with good players as well so that they can improve, but if less good players are in, then the match would be less fun (and yes, i know i am being very selfish with this statement). Also, it's extremely important (or at least i think so) to have the main team train together with other people so that they can have cohesiveness between members. Sadly, when the main team group together, normally the other team don't stand a change, and therefore, normally the strength of the 2 teams are seperated

Solution - this 1 is easier to be balanced. have some games which includes everyone, and other games which is like 'all-star' players. so no biggie. Can ask for friendly with other outsiders, so that the main team can train.

Conclusion - hard to balance and need a lot of planning and hard work to ask people to come play friendly with us.

Oh well.. that's not just all but i guess it's enough la. All in all it's headache, but i do love volleyball very much and that's that.

God Bless~

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Finally

25th June 2009

Ah.. after some time of not blogging, now it's time. Although it's just a single day, let's go through the events together.

1.00 a.m. - switched off my laptop after editing Psych 302. Have been editing it for past few days.. sick of it dy :p. Good thing it's completed now and it's due tomorrow.. whee~ went to bed

4.30 a.m. - woke up and went to toilet. Had a major stomach ache and purging. Continuous 4 times and i shitted until about around 6 morning. 4 times consecutively le. Break record already. XD

6.00 - 9.15 - managed to sleep and had a strange dream. Let's talk more about it.

So i remember that i was asking someone about whether there's an arcade somewhere. Who that someone is and where is this somewhere i don't remember much. what i do remember is that this person told me that it's on top, 2nd door to the left.

so i went on top, it's like a shopping complex and the method i went on top was kinda cool. i kinda glided to the top. it's like a slide, but just that it can go upwards as well. so when i reach the top, i realized that my attire was not really presentable. I was in my flowery pants and my sports t shirt (for those whom have seen me play volleyball, it's that attire la). there was a customer service counter and i asked them where was the arcade and they told me that it's 2nd door to the left

so i went in and then the first door was like a sports shop. I went in for a minute to take a look, and then came back out. then i went into the arcade. don't really remember y i went into the arcade, but the arcade is like beside the cinema... after that a little bit fuzzy on what i did there..

the next thing i remember, there was a competition, so everyone went and take a peek. i went too. *at this point, the background changes* the competition was held in an open air, and the competitors were on sand. the court looks like a mini beach volleyball court, minus the net in the middle.

on one side, is a female, pretty big for a Malaysian standard. on the other side, is a couple, one male and one female. *ding* and the 'big' girl rushed to the guy and started hitting the guy like crazy. she bit the guy's ear until it bleeds and the scene was really horrifying. *ding*, the sound of the bell rang and the girl stop assaulting the guy.

it was like a boxing match where there is time limit. so when the bell rang to indicate the start of the second round, the 'big' girl rushed towards the other girl who was teamed up with the guy and started hitting her like crazy. i mean CRAZY!!! she kept punching the girls head, screaming and pounding non stop, while the other girl was screaming for help and in pain. all the guy could do was protect his mate's head with his hands and try to protect her as much as possible. but the girl did not take heed and keep on pounding the girls head like a machine. this scene was even more horrifying.. i can still remember quite vividly.. *ding* bell rang and second round is over

by this time, the guy was so scared that his mucus came out from his nose and he looked so afraid. before the third round started, the guy told the 'big' girl, "if i surrender, what will u do?" to this question, the girl replied 'oh really? then great'. her expression immediately changed from a possessed demon to a innocent girl look. as if nothing had happened. she was smiling happily. that was about all i could remember from my dream.

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9.15 - alarm woke me up and i get ready for college. before going out, i took out a present and placed it on my dad's table. it's his birthday today :D. didn't have any celebrations though.. he is not fond of that kind of treatment.

11.00 - should have a practice for presentation. however, quite a number didn't turn out for different reasons. still, we had our meeting and managed to do some things if not a lot. after that i went to library, and computer lab

1.00 - ai li picked me up for lunch and we went to lucky garden to have wan tan mee. apparently she and i kinda like wan tan mee a lot. XD the noodles was fine. satisfied with my food :) then she told me that she not driving me to college. micheal will be picking her up, so i will chill at her house first. hahah.. and she brought me to her house, wait.. her room. XD

so what i did inside? look at her photos and talk talk lo... then micheal came and went to college.

3.00 - reached college on time. and it was the last class of the semester.. whee~ today's class, me was not sleepy, maybe cause talk a lot.. lol.. after class, came back home and bath, and edit 302 again..

now me blogging, and suddenly got dragonfly came in my room through my window. sorry for killing u dragonfly.. ah.. what an eventful day...

Holidays going to start soon.

God Bless~

Sunday, May 17, 2009

It used to be fun

Psychology used to be fun to be learned. Learning about all the theories of human behavior, cognition and emotions. Great psychologist (although some might not be so ethical) such as Freud, Jung, Erickson, Bandura, Skinner, Pavlov, etc. are so interesting. Theories like social identity theory, cognitive dissonance, balance theory, conditioning are great as learning materials.

Where have all the fun go? This semester's subject seem so dry and boring. Even biopsych is more interesting. Contemplating on whether I should take a different subject (which i hope is more interesting). Let's hope it is.

God Bless~

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

What d'ya say?

So R.AGE got a bunch of adults to ask questions and i think it's pretty fun to answer. So below are the questions and my answers

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin, Deputy Prime Minister
How would you like to see Malaysia in the future?
A: I would like to have a peaceful Malaysia and I hope that Malaysians can all stand united irrespective of race or religion. This can only start when everyone is treated equally and there is no favoritism towards a certain group of people

Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat, Transport Minister and MCA President
Q: What do you understand by "youth empowerment"?
A: The phrase to me means that youths need to be more equipped with knowledge and skills so that they can take on the ever changing world.

Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek, Youth and Sports Minister
Q: What can you contribute to the country in this time of economy crisis?
A: I really don't know. Buy more Malaysian made things and rely less on overseas' products? Either way, I don't really spend money, so I don't know what I can do

Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil, Women, Family and Community Development Minister
Q: Are you ready for gender equality?
A: I don't think there will be a day where total gender equality exist. Of course, we should respect all individuals irrespective of gender and if there is a time when total gender equality exist, I hope I would be ready for it.

Datuk Seri Tony Fernandes, CEO Air Asia
Q: What will it take for you as the youth to think 'Malaysian' first and Chinese/Malay/Indian next?
A: When there is total fairness and unity in the country.

Khairy Jamaluddin, Umno Youth Chief
Q: When you look into the mirror, do you see a member of an ethnic group (Malay, Chinese, Indian etc) or do you see a Malaysian?
A: Definitely an ethnic group. I am proud of my ethnic group's history and proud to be one.

CW Kee, Cartoonist - Kee's World
Q: What drives you crazy?
A: What drives me crazy? Oh quite a lot of things.. Malaysia's polar opposite weather (either super hot or constant rain), traffic jam, inefficient public transport, and if I am unable to play volleyball

Anas Zubedy, Managing Director Zubedy (M) Sdn Bhd
Q: What do you think about yourself?
A: I have a good self concept, I think :)

Ivy Josiah, Executive Director, Women's Aid Organisation
Q: How can we educate men to stop committing violence against women?
A: Ohh.. tough question. I think most violence incidence stems from early life exposure by observing their parents or close ones doing it. Therefore, if we are aiming at curbing violence against women, then we should start from young onwards. A two generation (e.g. father and son) family intervention should be created and carried out. A research of course, should be carried out to determine what causes men to be violent against women.

Jit Murad, Playwright and Actor
Q: What things about us seem unfair to you?
A: Life is unfair. It's just about how much you would strive to achieve what you want eventhough life is unfair. To me, I think my height is a little unfair to me. I wish I could be a little bit taller XD

Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir, Writer/activist
Q: What do you really think of your parents (and no need to be politically correct and only say nice things!)?
A: My parents are great people and they go to great lengths to make my life more comfortable. Really really great dad I have.

Shebby Singh, Football commentator/pundit
Q: There are many things that can motivate us, but that is different from what our own motivation is. What is your motivation, and why?
A: My own motivation? To be a better man? Why? Maybe so that I can go to heaven? I also would get satisfied if I somehow manage to help people. hahahaha

Zainal Abidin, Singer
Q: What is the definition of an artiste?
A: Person who can bring joy to the world, or at least some people of the world

Lee Khai Loon, Secretariat Member of Youth for Change (Y4C)
Q: What will make politics more interesting to you?
A: Politics in Malaysia is already very interesting as it is. It would be good (not neccessarily more interesting) if the opposition and government would have the same standpoint in some matters so that Malaysia can move forward, and not just stay stagnant because of constant arguments.

Anita Sarawak, Entertainer
Q: How important is national pride to you?
A: Right now, not really important.

Dr. Irene Fernandez, Tenaganita Director
Q: If you were elected into power, what three immediate changes would you make?
A: Another tough question.
1. Ensure excellent public transport (which will take care of the inefficient public transport and traffic jams above)
2. Break down all unfair treatment. People should be evaluated based on their performance, not any other demographics.
3. Ensure bare neccesities to all Malaysians (it might be a shock but some people don't even have electricity and/or access to clean waters)

Datuk Misbun Sidek, National badminton coach
Q: What does it take to become a champion?
A: Definitely hard work, and I would say a little talent if not a lot.

Datuk Dr Jemilah Mahmood, MERCY Malaysia President
Q: How important is it to you to put aside time for voluntary work in the community, whether locally or globally?
A: On a scale of 1 till 7 where 1 is not important at all and 7 is very important, I would score 2.5

Lim Guan Eng, Penang Chief Minister
Q: If you were the Penang Chief Minister, what is the one policy action you would take to the people?
A: No idea.

Dr Adeeba Kamaruzzaman, Malaysian AIDS Council President
Q: If there's one thing you would change about school, what would it be?
A: Less exam oriented

Youssouf Oomar, UNICEF Representative to Malaysia and Special Representative to Brunei
Q: How do you perceive your role and responsibility as a citizen of Malaysia and the world?
A: As a citizen of Malaysia, I hope I can lend a helping hand to those in need. That is why I would study hard to achieve my goal.

J. Anu, Artist
Q: What are you reading?
A: Currently, Angels and Demons by Dan Brown

Datuk Yasmin Yusuff, Artiste
Q: Do you believe only the young can speak to the young?
A: No, I believe that the old can speak to the young too.

JJ, Hitz FM Radio Announcer
Q: We had games like Chopping, Kunda Kundi, Catching, Five Stone, Galah Panjang, Police and Thief and many more. What games bring you out of the house?
A: I play volleyball. Does that count?

Michael Wong (Guang Liang), Singer-songwriter
Q: How will your lives be different if music ceased to exist?
A: Live would be very dull without music as music is a form of expression. If music ceased to exist, I will sing. XD

Zang Toi, Fashion Designer
Q: What fresh new ideas do the young generation have to help solve global economy crisis and world peace ?
A: I really don't know.

Francesca Peters, Singer
Q: Is there more to you than money, money, money, the rat race, finding a rich partner and "scoring"?
A: Yes. Living life meaningfully, help other people, and play volleyball :)

Jo Kukathas, Theatre actor and director
Q: When you close your eyes and see yourself, what do you dream you are and what do you dream you can become?
A: I dream that I will become a counseling psychologist (maybe lecturing at the same time) and also a part time volleyball coach (maybe a player at the same time).

Datuk Zaid Ibrahim, Former De Facto Law Minister
Q: Do you care who your leaders are?
A: I do. I would want a person who is capable of holding and executing their roles.

Datuk Ambiga Sreenevasan, Immediate past president of the Malaysian Bar
Q: Do you feel disconnected from the politics of Malaysia and in this regard how much do you value your right to vote?
A: I am now still not eligible to vote but even if I have the power to vote, I still would feel disconnected. Might be because politicians are always talking and not doing. Jumping boats from one party to another. Not doing enough for the people. Tell me, what's the basis of voting again?

Khalid Samad, Shah Alam MP
Q: What are the characteristics of good governance and what is your role in ensuring that these characteristics are truly embodied by the government of the day?
A: Characteristics of good governance. Execute what you plan and enforce it consistently. More often than not, Malaysia always have an act or certain policy but it is the lack of enforcement that is the problem. What use is the policy then? Another characteristic would be always place the people first. My role would be to follow the rules properly.

Camelia, Singer
Q: What do you think is a good age for a young person to leave home?
A: 21, and that is if they are earning themselves.

Prof Emeritus Tan Sri Lim Kok Wing, President Limkowing University of Creative Technology Q: Do you feel that creativity (or freedom to express oneself creatively) is sufficiently encouraged in this country?
A: I don't think so. We are always told what to do, or rather what we SHOULD do. School exams are always based on answer script and any deviation would be deemed wrong.

Datuk Dr Denison Jayasooria, Principal Research Fellow, Institute of Ethnic Studies, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
Q: If, as a young person, you are able to lead this nation, how will you seek to build a Malaysia where there is greater consciousness of being Malaysians first?
A: Fight for the people and serve them as one, rather than for certain subsets.

Patrick Teoh, Actor
Q: Why are so many young Malaysians apparently so apolitical?
A: Because they don't see that being involve would have made any difference.

Winnie Loo, Hairstylist
Q: You all are so blessed with everything lay on your table whether is technology, transportation and even communications, but what do you see yourself 10 years from now? Can the world be a better place with your new generation knowledge?
A: Honestly speaking, the way I see it, technology is making people lazier. That is why I exercise so that I am in good health. 10 years from now, the world will definitely change, but I won't be too sure if it's for the better or worse (let's hope it's not the latter).

Yasmin Ahmad, Film director
Q: What is the best thing about being in a multi-racial country?
A: Undoubtedly many people will answer food. And I would agree with that. But besides that, it's the simple fact that we don't see the same skin colour everywhere. You can put it that it's colourful :D

Prof Emeritus Tan Sri Dr Khoo Kay Kim, Historian
Q: Do you think lecturers in a university should learn to be more effective teachers?
A: All educators, including lecturers and school teachers should learn to be more effective in transmitting their knowledge. A good educator can make a dry subject interesting but a bad educator can make a really interesting subject boring.

Jeff Ooi, Jelutong MP
Q: How would you like to see Malaysia become in 10 years time?
A: Better governance. This would make all the differences and I believe a lot of our problems would be solved if we have better governance.

Hishamuddin Rais, Writer
Q: Should the young know who is Tun Sri Lanang, A.Samad Ismail, Usman Awang, Victor Hugo, Tagore, Lu Xun or Tolstoy?
A: They should.

Tan Sri Ramon Navaratnam, Transparency International Malaysia president
Q: Do you feel that you have got a good deal as a Malaysian citizen?
A: I think I do. Should be thankful that Malaysia is progressing at such fast pace.

Aznil Hj. Nawawi, TV personality
Q: How can we become a developed nation without sacrificing our local and traditional values?
A: To be a developed nation, one must be open to opinions and feedback. We need not sacrifice our values, but at the same time, being dogmatic about our values will do us no good. The point is to find common grounds where we can accept ideas, without sacrificing our values.

Ujang, Cartoonist
Q: Apakah yang anda fahami tentang pentingnya mencintai sungai dan alam semulajadi?
A: Pada saya, mencintai sungai dan alam semulajadi bermaksud tidak mencemari alam sekitar. Kita tidak seharusnya membuang sampah merata-rata dan kita perlu berjimat, berjimat dengan perbelanjaan dan kegunaan seharian. Apabila kita berjimat, maka akan berkuranglah permintaan dan apabila permintaan berkurangan, penghasilan juga akan berkurangan. Dengan ini, pencemaran juga akan berkurangan.

Azean Irdawaty, Actress
Q: What does being grateful to your country mean to you?
A: It means that I will make the country better by giving back to it

Datuk Faridah Merican, Executive Producer KLPAC
Q: What is the most important thing about being a young Malaysian?
A: To live my life to the fullest

Eddin Khoo, Writer and traditional arts activist
Q: What do you think you are all about, really?
A: Very deep question. I think I am a person who is here for a purpose and that is to make this world a better place for some people if not many.

I think this would be my longest post so far.

God Bless~

Monday, April 20, 2009

Susan Boyle

Have you heard of Susan Boyle? No? then go here and see

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

yes?.. still go and see.. XD

she's extraordinary..

Archuleta, Cooke, move aside, for here comes Susan Boyle!!

God Bless~

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Dream

19th April 09

So this morning i had a dream and I would like to talk about it..

i remembered that i was at home, and i decided to go play ball.. it was raining outside until around 5.30 evening and after the rain stopped, i went out to play ball.. when i reached there, i only saw Chai and another guy..

the court was like beside a coffee house and at that moment, Chai was in the coffee house. then i asked where are other people.. then people start coming in and we didn't play ball in the end. we yum cha-ed.. among the people there whom i remember is rachel, zheng zoe, shawn, kin yip, mun kiat and sook yeen. so we ordered food, and yes.. i think we played scrabble there..

i was sitting beside kin yip and asked him whether he got any target or not now.. XD.. then he told me got.. i asked him to show me her picture.. he took out his phone and started showing me her picture (i actually still remember the picture or the girl.. vaguely, but the image still there.. freaky owhkay..). unfortunately for him, the pictures he showed me is picture of the girl with another guy.. she has a bf.. XD XD

then after makan-ing, time to pay bill.. they all started to take out RM 10 notes and Rm 50 notes.. and put on the table.. and i remember saying 'i know u all got money.. but no need 'tat' me like that 1'.. seriously, there are awful load of money on the table after they took out their money..

then took the money and proceed to the counter.. the bill came out to RM 2000.. sweat.. eat a little only but the payment so expensive.. so check the bill y so expensive.. they charge us for playing scrabble as well.. SWT!!! like 1 word we make RM 150.. (or something like that la.. XD) bottomline is, we need to pay cause we played scrabble... ridiculous right?

anyhow we paid and left.. zoe followed me to my car to take his umbrella.. the car where i parked was near a night market and after taking the umbrella, me and zoe went to night market.. that's all i remembered when i woke up.. guahaha..

Since i just read about dream in my biopsych book.. might as well flaunt my knowledge a bit right? because my prefrontal cortex is inhibited, my dream is pretty much without restriction (cause prefrontal cortex doesn't come and say 'wait that's not possible').. therefore explaining the charge for scrabble and the court beside coffee shop..

when i woke up, i felt a sense of emotional connection cause long time didn't see my friends dy.. my amgydala might be responsible for that cause during REM sleep, amgydala is stimulated..

God Bless~

Monday, April 6, 2009

Curious Case of Benjamin Button

April 6, 2009

Today i watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. It was a movie full of growing up, growing old, and especially filled with deaths. This movie would be a great movie for a developmental class. hahaha

I am going to select a few scenes which i particularly remember.

The show started with Daisy, an old lady, who is the lead female character. She was laying on the hospital bed.. dying pretty soon. Her daughter, Caroline (hopefully it's the correct spelling) was there with her. Caroline looked at her mother and asked her "Are you scared?"

Daisy replied "I am curious.... I am curious at what's going to happen next". And that got my mind thinking a lil..

In another scene, Benjamin finally found his biological dad. Benjamin was abandoned when he was little and halfway through the show, the dad told him that he was his son. When Benjamin's dad was about to die, Benjamin brought him to a lake where his dad used to see the sunrise when he was little. There his dad died and Benjamin pondered upon these words

"You can be as mad as a mad dog. And curse at fate. But when the end comes, you have to let go"

And he's true. we have to let go when the end comes.

God Bless~