Experiential Learning

Finally semester starts again. This will be my last semester in my course. And I badly need good grades so that I can waive my PTPTN Loan. But all the subjects I am taking this sem are experiential learning, which means I will have to go for class (not that I don't) and participate as well. A lot of hands on experience. Let's see what are the subjects I am taking

Group Process: I will need to go through group counselling with a bunch of people. Probably talking about a lot of stuffs like grief, anger, healing. Oh.. I think this would be really cool. Also there's another assignment which we need to do, which is pretty tough. ugh..

Contemporary Issues in Psychology: yea i know the title sounds so.. uninformative right. what's contemporary issues? lol.. it's issues which people debate on in present time. like, gay marriages, differences in skin colour, clash of religious views and things like that. Pretty interesting and I guess we have to talk in class (a lot of talking) to voice out our opinion. It would be an informative i suppose.

Therapeutic Play: Yay, i guess this is the awesome-mess subject of all time. lol... i need to do assignments, by playing with children. How is this not cool right? but need pay quite a heavy sum of money to buy the toys.. but oh well, i guess it's fine :D

All these subjects will be an eye opener, and definitely increase my horizon on people, things and pattern of thoughts. i just hope i do well in all 3 subjects.

On a side note, it's really interesting to see people grow u know? it's probably one of the greatest joy one can have.

next challenge: ARUPS! :0

My niece. Cute ain't she? :D

God Bless~

Thoughts in my mind

I initially didn't want to blog, but oh well, someone asked me to update my blog. XD So, this will be a random blog posting with no specific order. Just my thoughts on some of the things that I have been going through these few weeks.

1) I am so SO a thinker. I have been watching How I Met Your Mother, and boy, I think i am very much like Ted. I think i can relate to him pretty well. and Meng and Shyuan are like Marshall and Lily in the show. lol.. just that there's no Barney and Robin. Ted is a thinker as well. The problem with both of us is, we think too much. bad thing..

2) The other day, I went to UPM competition with Kepong people. My volleyball skills sucks big time. Aih.. and Chong Hwa school are dang good.. oh em gee, they look small and kiddo, and geek-o, but then they can play so well.. shame on me ><

3) As the year draws to an end, the realization that degree is coming to end is making me think about a lot of things. What will I be doing at this time of the year next year? Masters? Where? Will i get scholarship? What about WAT? i want to go so badly. What will i be doing before masters? Work? as what? urgh.. manyak pertanyaan di dalam kepalaku.

4) i think about so much stuff, even to the point of things like.. children upbringing and society's moral value. crazy right? I had always wanted children, but I am afraid of what will become of them because i don't really have the confidence to bring them up to be righteous upstanding citizen. kids nowadays are tiny monsters. :p from what i see with my own eyes, the world is bad. very bad. and it's getting worse :x the moral value is just.. down the drain man..

the other day, while i was tutoring my kiddo, we read this article which bears the title 'Mum's New Boyfriend'. When i read the title, i was like.. O.O the title implies 2 things

a) mum no longer with dad (for whatever reason)
b) and mum got a boyfriend (or a few boyfriends) before this 'current' 1.

and this article was in his English textbook. NOT COOL! but today, when i went tutoring, i got to see a video which captures what they were like when they were younger... and they were sOOOOOOO CUTE! the joy of parenting. i guess i will want to have kids after all. seeing people grow brings a lot of pleasure

5) Seeing people grow brings a lot of pleasure... i remember when i was in the Servers.. I joined while i was 14, and i helped train a lot of new servers. they were small and young then.. like 10 or 11 years old. Now they are big, tall and the moment i see it that way, i realized that time has passed by me. no more pinching their cheeks. no more touching their head. but seeing them grow, really makes me happy.

I guess I should be more of a do-er, cause nothing changes if i don't do. Merely thinking isn't going to complete things. And let's just appreciate the present

Love this photo Max!

God Bless~

Holiday Post no. 2

31th July

So i lao sai like shit and i woke up at 4 o clock to lao sai again. walao low.. i am suppose to get a good night rest so that i can have enough energy to compete in competition, but no... 1 week of not enough sleep and i still have to go for competition.. hahaha.. woke up at 6, and bathed and went out.. Aevent fetched me to tarc for masiswa and i lao sai like 3 times in tarc ok.. aiseh.. suffering..

we were in group B, and we went against IPB, UniKL and another 1 i forgot name. we didn't do very well. although we still manage to get into semis... initial plan was to be group leader, but lost out to unikl in rubber game.. aiks ><

because of that, we went against group A's leader, tar college. no need to say, kena sapu lo.. but that time all already tired shit.. i also like want to faint.. all that entered my stomach was a bread in the morning, and 2 doughnuts.. lao sai lao sai.. :x

went home and it was drizzling, and there was jam.. dang! i wanted to reach home early to go to church, but reach home late because of the jam jam jam jam.. manage to go to church still, but late lor ><

so we played for 3rd 4th placing the following day..

1st August

woke up at 7.20, before my alarm and Aevent was supposed to fetch me.. he asked me to gave morning call and i did.. for like.. a whole 10 minutes.. no answer.. i go bath and then called him again.. still no answer.. gg.com... then told my dad i will be driving there myself..

drove there myself, and wa la.. we only have 6 players ngam ngam.. but out of the 6, 1 went for ping pong. so need to wait for him... initially we thought we will lost by walk away, since opponent already there, and we don't have enough players on court.. but managed to make it la..

Shin rushed to court after ping pong and then we were told referee belum sampai. sweat max!! waited for the finals to finish, only play 3rd 4th placing.. lol.. went against apiit and we lost in rubber game.. sien ><

oh there were 3 funny part during the game.. lol..

first was when a girl asked us to take a group photo and as reward, we were being given free red bull. so Giap said that we can take the photos now, but later only give us the red bull.. and the girl said.. oh no no.. we need to take the photos together with the red bull. then only we realized.. we need to be 'ambassadors' for the red bull.. lol.. model sial.. XDXD

second funny thing.. i forgotten to bring my shoe for competition.. XD.. rushing to get out cause i was driving remember? lol.. and i forgotten to bring my shoe along.. hahahaha.. just when i was about to warm up.. i was like "SHIT!!! I DIDN'T BRING MY SHOE!!!!!" and i thought i was going into court kaki ayam.. Giap grab me and said "yuan lai zui da pai de shi ni. lian sie zi dou mei you dai lai" (translated as: seems like you are the 'biggest'. shoe also didn't bring). good thing shin got another pair of shoe.. fuiyoh.. *wipe sweat from forehead* thanks Shin!

third funny thing was Meng. there was once he served, and he taught the ball didn't pass the net and he said 'oh fuck' so loudly that i could hear it.. i bet the referees heard it as well.. XD good thing they didn't blow the whistle.. lol..

played only 1 match but eat 3 ball biscuit.. yesterday played 4 matches, and didn't eat any ball biscuit (excluding the 1 weifen slapped me with lol)

and the game point for the rubber set, i was serving... walao low.. so scared i will repeat mapcu mistake.. good thing my serving pass.. hahaha..

after the match, went for lunch with rachel and friends at yong tau fu. and then went drink tong sui at leisure mall until 3.30.. after that, came back, and went for volleyball again at mpaj.. after that went back and ate dinner, bath and went out to teach Ziwin.

wah really marathon for 1 week. now finally i can settle down for a bit..

God Bless~

Holiday Post no. 1

Finally i am able to enjoy my holiday... sleep, eat, watch tv, and then sleep again.. nice nice.. after a marathon of busy-ness for 1 week..

25th July till 27th July - St. Anne's Feast

went to penang to celebrate St. Anne's Feast (fyi, she's Jesus' grandmother) and this year celebration was less crowded.. probably there's another big feast on the saturday after we went. for the 2 days, pondered upon sickness, death, life and love. hahaha.. made me understood (or more like accepting) something really important in life. didn't get good night sleep as we can't really control the air cond temperature..

back on 27th and on 28th.. dong dong dong (learn from yean may :p)

28th - 30th - Penang trip (again)

so after coming back from penang on the 27th, on the 28th went back to penang with friends. stopped at ipoh to eat late lunch, and then went hunting for dinner.. and we ate at the ship. :p nothing much to elaborate except for the fact that on the last day, after eating hor fun at ipoh, i lao sai like shit.. and this story will bring us to holiday post no 2.

God Bless~

Parallel world?

27th August 2010

This morning i dreamt of something crazily amazing.. or amazingly crazy. i dreamt that i was somewhere in this place.. and everything was normal until i was going to sleep... and my left eye was hurting pretty badly

then i rub rub, but to no avail... then my dad came and asked me to look at him and i did... he slowly moved his head downwards, and my head moved downwards together with his head... just as my head was looking 90 degrees below, my dad pushed my head downwards strongly..

and it was then that i had this crazy experience.

it feels as if my soul was disconnected from my physical being and was sucked downwards.. my soul continued going down, passing through a chasm and then there was another me on the bed, (while this was happening, i had a third person view) where finally my soul 'connects' back with my physical self (this is another self... seems as if my soul just past through the chasm into another world.. another parallel world). and the feeling of my soul connected with my physical being is sooo SOOOO REAL! when that happened, it seems as if everything was in sync. it's like the hook found it's perfect match..

and i was physically feeling this because i was half awake when the soul 'connected' with my body. half dreaming, half awake, but i can clearly feel the 'connectivity'. i awoke seconds later to make sure i am still sane.

i know it's hard to understand.. but anyway, i am still sane.. yay! as for whether i am now in a parallel world, well who knows right?

God Bless~

In and outside happenings

I would like to take some time to discuss about some happenings which seem to interest me. I got the materials while reading newspaper today, so let's begin

1) All students who scores 9A+ in SPM will be given scholarship regardless of background. Yay! that's a really great news for students. I am wondering though where do they get so much money from? Regardless, it's good because of it's long term investment and should be applauded. But regarding the lessening PSD overseas scholarships, it's a bad call. Boo-hoo.

2) Abolishment of UPSR and PMR - ridiculous idea if u ask me.

3) Sports a compulsory to enter public university - Yay! another good call eventhough some (or many) students will swear at the government. i don't need to elaborate on the benefits of exercising here do i? but the government must look at the facilities being provided. with the awesome weather we have here in malaysia, it is crucial for them to build more INDOOR sports facilities so that students can continue exercising come rain or shine. and of course qualified teachers or coaches. yes.. i can see the rise of new young volleyball-ers. XD

4) There's news that porn star Bobbi Eden (you must give credit to this person XD) will give oral sex to all her twitter followers if Holland wins the world cup. she started with 3000+ followers then, but now it seems she has approximately 90000+ followers. I really wonder how she is going to complete the ordeal. XD on another note, guys are so realistic aren't they? XDXD

5) The main story of this post would be this: Premarital sex

Many recent stories regarding dumping of babies forced the government and media to pay more attention to the issue of premarital sex and unwanted pregnancy. Where previously it was behind closed doors, hush hush discussions, now it's open in the public simply because it no longer can be contained.

Fact 1: children are getting sexually mature at a younger age

Fact 2: they are having sex regardless of whether people want to admit it or not

Fact 3: they are enjoying it.

Fact 4: they don't know how to protect themselves as it is proven by baby dumping

now here comes the tough part. are we as a society going to tackle premarital sex, or just tackling the issue of unwanted pregnancy? is it owhkay to be having sex as long as there's protection? the debate between abstinence and safe sex.

who am i to say that no one should have sex before marriage? if it's consensual, y not? it's not like they burn house or hurt other people right? and if it's safe sex, then there should be no reason for objection i guess. of course there's the law, where males will get charged for statutory rape, but nobody really follows since so many people are having sex. and of course, they might hurt their parents' feelings but.. if it's a secret, then no problem right?

from a psychologist point of view, unwanted pregnancy is the problem of premarital sex. if there's no unwanted pregnancy, then all's good. cause we need to be aware that sex is a component of healthy living. AND ironically, it's when we are at the peak of sexuality (teenagers years) that society condemn the act of premarital sex so much. however, there are also setbacks la like being addicted to it. psychology isn't really a clear cut field.

where and how does religion come into the picture? How are religions going to change according to time? yet to see la.

but i personally would choose sex after marriage. Let me list out some of the reasons why.

1) sex is sacred - ok.. i know this is lame. but for me it's real. if you have sex with every tom, dick and harry, then what's so special about it anymore? might as well have sex with every kitten, dogs and gorillas right? to really enjoy it, there should be a period of abstinence. Like how Muslims go through the puasa month before Hari Raya and how Catholics go through Lent before Easter.

2) mental preparation is important too - besides physical maturation, mental and emotional maturation is very important too. our brains are still developing until the our late 20's and so physically mature doesn't equate to mental maturity.

3) the issue of how safe is safe - safe sex is not sperm proof ok. eventhough the possibility might be significantly reduced, there is still possibility. in almost all species, the objective of intercourse is to have offsprings. of course sex is pleasurable, but we should always be mindful that when we have sex, we might sow seeds, intentionally or unintentionally. and when we have sowed, we should be grateful instead of being filled with remorse. that's y premarital sex is always a gamble. best bet? abstinence la of course.

Ok.. so that's all for my happenings report.

I think i am suffering from low self esteem la. ish. am i a moodle? :x

God Bless~

MAPCU 2010

3 July 2010

My last MAPCU probably. and i screwed it up. at the last minute some more. Walao LOW! aiks, learn to much from bobo dy.. all the low coming out.

First match was against Masterskills and we manage to pass the first hurdle. Then came Segi, and we lost after playing for 3 sets. That means we can only win the next match, to proceed to semis. The next opponent is Taylors and we also managed to pass this hurdle.

Since we were runner up for our group, we need to play against the champion of the other group, which is UCSI. We lost the first set. and won the second set.. and we played so hard in the third set. Marks were neck to neck. and then aih.. me la me la.. my fault. LOW!

honestly speaking, i think my form has never been better than today. so much so that i am surprised myself. why la last ball.. memalukan.. Giap is definitely our MVP la. lol.. super libero who can spike open. XD now in hospital lo.. hahahaha.. hope he gets well soon.

Last MAPCU, just like that.

God Bless~